Hello Wonderlandisweretheshipsare here with a new fanfic! I have to warn you that this is NOT like anything I've written before. So some general warnings.
1.) Fem!Ciel.
2.) Self harm. Don't like don't read.
That's pretty much it. Oh and disclaimer I don't own Kuroshitsuji or any of the characters. They all belong to Yana!
Ciel laid down in bed and sighed slightly watching her butler Sebastian walk out the door. She stayed in bed long enough to make sure that he had left and wasn't paying attention to what she was doing. Ciel got up from her bed her long grey-blue hair falling down her back and shoulders. She walked over to closet and pulled out to the key to unlock the drawer that only she had access to. She unlocked the drawer and pulled out the only thing that brought her true comfort anymore. Her razor blade.
Ciel had been cutting for over a year now. She hid it from Sebastian well by starting to dress and bathe herself. Sebastian thought it was simply because she was a growing young women and was embarrassed to have him see her that way. He didn't know that it went much deeper than that. He never suspected that his young mistress had been harming herself.
She sighed and went to the bathroom attached to her bedroom and removed the nightgown she was wearing. Ciel looked down at her scars rarely seen tears building behind mismatched eyes. She started going over way she had given herself every single one. From the time she wasn't able to save her Aunt Ann from the reaper Grell Sutcliff and she blamed herself for what happened to the time Sebastian teased her for eating one more sweet in the day then she normally did because she was craving it.
She bit her lip to keep from screaming as she yet again heard the voices in her head that told her she was responsible for her parents death and everything else that had happened in her life. Ciel closed her eyes and dragged the razor blade over her stomach opening them watching the crimson red blood that flowed from the wound. She made a few more cuts on her stomach before moving down to her legs. She only cut above the knee so that if she ever wore a shorter dress no one would see the scars.
The blood continued to pour from the wounds on her stomach and legs. She knew that she had overdone it this time and dropped the blood covered razor blade. Ciel fell to her knees and then on her side. She knew that more than likely this would be the end for her. Her only regret was that Sebastian wouldn't get her soul like she had promised him.
Sebastian the thud followed by a thump coming from his young mistress's bathroom. He knew that something wasn't right since normally around this time of night she was asleep. Sebastian ran up the stairs and down the hallway. Has he got closer he could smell the blood. He feared that someone had snuck in under his nose and harmed Ciel. Sebastian finally reached the bathroom and threw the door open. The sight in front of him truly horrified the demon.
Ciel was laying in a puddle of her own blood and her breathing was starting to become slower and slower. He ran over and picked her when he noticed the cuts on her stomach and legs along with the scars to match the newest cuts. He thought that he was imagining things until he saw the razor blade on the floor and knew that he was imagining this. He quickly laid Ciel on her bed not caring if he was ruining the sheets by getting blood on them. He got the first aid kit and the supplies he would need to make the stitches she would need.
Sebastian whipped the blood away from the area and then used gauze and slightly pressure to get the bleeding to stop. He sighed thankful that Ciel hadn't hit any of her major veins or arteries. He started stitching the cuts that needed it putting bandages over the others. He had put finished stitching the last cut when Ciel opened her eyes and looked into his red ones. "s-Sebastian..." She said her voice cracking and it was barely above a whisper.
He looked at her and sat next to her taking her hand in his own. "Ciel why are you doing this?" He asked her concerned She sighed and looked away. "You wouldn't understand Sebastian...and besides it's not like you care. As long as you get my soul." She replied frowning and looking away.
He shook his head and made her look at him. "No Ciel that's not it at all. I want to help you." He said and took a deep breath looking into her mismatched eyes. "I want' to help you because I care about you Ciel."
((A.N. I've left this open so this could either be a one shot or a chapter story it's all up on the reviews I get and what you guys want to please review! Please no flames.))