Why live when you can die?
He didn't know, but death sounded awfully appealing at the moment.
He struggles.
XxXxXxX
He killed them.
They aren't coming back.
I'm sorry, he cries.
I'm so sorry.
I could've saved you.
You all.
XxXxXxX
It eats away at his heart, bit by bit.
Consumes it, converts it into darkness.
Guilt, hollowing his soul.
Seething doubt, always at the edge of his consciousness.
And just out of reach, he hears.
XxXxXxX
Weak.
Stupid.
Coward.
the voices came to him
and he knows it's true
i'm sorry.
so sorry.
XxXxXxX
It's only a matter of time.
He realized that the monsters were inside.
Surprising, isn't?
Only one way to kill those monsters.
He wishes.
XxXxXxX
Just do it already, you piece of shit.
But what about Annabe-
Do it before you kill her too!
(sob)
You're pathetic, you know that? Pathetic.
Please
You couldn't save them, you pig, breathing the air they should be breathing.
I know, I know. I'm so sorry.
XxXxXxX
So that evening, he says goodbye to his friends forever, and slides the deadbolt on his cabin door.
At least he has a purpose now.
Shiny blade, in his hand.
Just one small cut.
Or two - or three.
Swallow.
XxXxXxX
if i just let go, i'll be set free
XxXxXxX
he lays on the bed dreaming, his life ebbing out.
this is it, he thinks.
he always knew that death was going to be early.
at least this way, he has some control, he reasons.
it's a beautiful night outside
everything is blurry now
calm
so quiet
somewhere, sometime, he wonders if heaven had cookies
why not?
no monsters
no worries
no pain
he can almost see the stars now
im coming
Written for the National Suicide Prevention Day by eding420.
Remember, you, you are worth it.
Don't anything drag you down.
My PM is always, always open if you need someone to talk to.
This is collaboration with ingloriousMachina, who will be writing the next chapter.
This is my longest one shot to date.