Cry
Summary: Short One Life to Live story...Starr and Cole, based on Cry by Kelly Clarkson Okay...so they know their baby is "dead". Cole had just become clean from his drug use. Starr is alone in her room, thinking about Cole, and how sad she really is without him, when he shows up to tell her he is clean. Short story on them getting back together. Three chapters maybe?
Disclaimer: I don't own any of this. The song, the people, any of it. Just having fun : )
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If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on.
When people all stare I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue Pretend I'm okay with it all.
Act like there's nothing wrong
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She had fallen for her teacher! Her teacher. It was insane. It had been a horrible idea. Starr remembered the night Cole had caught her kissing Mr. J. He had been so mad, and though Starr was mad that he would do something like that, some level of her was pleased. It meant Cole had to feel something for her. Something that made him feel jealous. Everything had been so hard, and she wished she still had Cole. Losing their baby had been so hard, going through the pregnancy without him had been so hard. The whole school had given her dirty looks the WHOLE time she was pregnant. When people found out her and Cole weren't even together anymore, it got worse. Seeing Cole at school had been so hard. How do you walk past someone who means that much to you and act like every-thing's normal. That nothing is wrong. The love of her life had left her because they couldn't agree on the best way to deal with the pregnancy. He wanted to be there for her, and love her forever, and raise the baby. She just couldn't do that...she wasn't ready! Her and Cole were both still children with high school, and college, and life's to live. Of course someday, her and Cole being married and having children would be perfect..just not then. He didn't understand that. Now he was so far gone. He was using drugs, and she felt like she didn't know him anymore. If only things had been different...would he have turned to drugs if she had decided to keep the baby, if the baby had lived, would he be in this mess? There was nothing more that she wanted then for Cole to stop using, and just come back to her. She needed him...she loved him.
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Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry? Cry
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Tears started to fall from her face. She couldn't hold them back anymore. They poured out.
"Cole," Starr spoke aloud in her room, even though no one was there, "Please...just stop using. You are so much better then this. Stop using, and forgive me. Forgive me...and please...be with me again. I love you...I can't live the rest of my life without you." More tears came, and she laid in her bed thinking about the times they had together.
--If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart.
Yeah what do I care If they believe me or not.
Whenever I feel Your memory is breaking my heart. I'll pretend I'm okay with it all Act like there's nothing wrong
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She couldn't do this anymore. She couldn't act like EVERYTHING was okay when NOTHING was okay. It had been so long since things had been normal in her life. She wanted to be like every other girl her age. Worry about normal things, not things like this.
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I'm talking in circles I'm lying, they know it. Why won't this just all go away? Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry?
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Just then Starr heard the door bell ring. She didn't answer it. A minute later, there was a knock on her door.
"Who is it?" Starr asked, clearing the tears from her eyes.
"It's Cole...do you mind if I come in?"