A/N: Hello, everyone. This is my first time writing for The Fault in Our Stars fandom. I actually wrote these poems a little over a year ago for an English project. I came across them and thought, "Wow, I actually wrote these pretty well." Although my writing has improved since then, I don't want to change anything because 1) I'm pretty proud of my work and they are pretty good, and 2) I'm just too lazy.
Disclaimer: All rights go to the simply amazing John Green. I do not anything except for these poems.
Can I, or Can I Not?
(on the flight to Amsterdam)
He said it.
He really did.
Those three heavenly words,
Melting my heart like a powerful, destructive, angry fire,
Filled with passion and rage, mixing together to form this strange concoction of affection,
Yet soothing like water on bare skin,
'Drip, drip', it teases, as it quenches my thirst for love, for affection.
"I love you,"
Can three words really make me feel this way?
I want to dance, to sway, under the harmonious lights of a crystal chandelier,
In my made up fairytale ballroom, in a satin green leaf colored dress,
But I want to stop, to end these feelings I return to him,
Because I can't be happy. Not with him.
I cannot hurt him, no, no I can't,
Because it pains me to hear his wistful sighs when he wants to reach out and stroke my face,
But it hurts me even more to think of his screams and sobs filled with melancholy,
Echoing out into the night of the cold, dark, rainy graveyard,
When I die.
I can't put him through that pain.
I can't be with him.
I can.
I can't.
I can.
No, I can't.
But the way he makes me feel,
Like I'm his favorite book to read on gray, rainy days inside.
Can I?
A/N: Well, how was it? I know I'm not the best writer, but I'd love some feedback. Reviews are greatly appreciated!
~Queen Ore-sama ^_^