Phases Of The Moon
Disclaimer: I do not under any circumstances own or take credit for the characters and plots you recognize from the original Twilight Saga. That right goes to its rightful owner, the wonderful Mrs. Stephenie Meyer but I do perhaps take credit for the plots you don't recognize from the original Twilight Saga. Oh, and Go Team Edward and Jacob! ;)
Chapter 1
Unknown Feelings
We stared at each other for a long moment. His hand smoldered against my skin. In my face, I knew there was nothing but wistful sadness----I didn't want to have to say goodbye now, no matter for how short a time. At first his face reflected mine, but then, as neither of us looked away, his expression changed.
He released me, lifting his other hand to brush his fingertips along my cheek, trailing them down to my jaw. I could feel his fingers tremble----not with anger this time. He pressed his palm against my cheek, so that my face was trapped between his burning hands.
"Bella," he whispered.
I was frozen.
No! I hadn't made this decision yet. I didn't know if I could do this, and now I was out of time to think. But I would have been a fool if I thought rejecting him now would have no consequences.
I stared back at him. He was not my Jacob, but he could be. His face was familiar and beloved. In so many real ways, I did love him. He was my comfort, my safe harbor. Right now, I could choose to have him belong to me.
Alice was back for the moment, but that changed nothing. True love was forever lost. The prince was never coming back to kiss me awake from my enchanted sleep. I was not a princess, after all. So what was the fairy-tail protocol for other kisses? The mundane kind that didn't break any spells?
Maybe it would be easy----like holding his hand or having his arms around me. Maybe it would feel nice. Maybe it wouldn't feel like a betrayal. Besides, who was I betraying, anyway? Just myself.
Keeping his eyes on mine, Jacob began to bend his face toward me. And I was still absolutely undecided.
Pages 410 - 411 in New Moon
Then suddenly I felt his lips on mine, they were somehow soft and warm in a way I've never felt before but that's because the only other person I've kissed was Ed....Edward ---- I could finally say his name without feeling the hole in my chest ripple and send me into a fit, where I'd wind up on the floor holding my chest together ---- and his lips were nowhere near Jacob's. As we continued to kiss in pure silence, our lips moving in every direction.
I suddenly heard Alice's voice from the doorway, it causing me to jump and Jacob to go rigid. "Bella!" She said, in shock at what she had witnessed a few seconds ago. I stayed frozen in my spot, not knowing what to say. "What do you think your doing kissing a...." she trailed off, looking Jacob up and down in a disgusted look. "Werewolf?" She finished.
Jacob was now tremoring from head to toe, his eyes squeezed shut in concentration and he finally got himself back under control, when he spun around to face tiny Alice compared to him, "Excuse you? What me and Bella does is strictly between me and her, not filthy bloodsuckers as yourself. Oh, and by the way I bet it's better than making out with someone that's cold stone."
Alice squinted her eyes toward Jacob before proceeding to turn to face me, "But Bella, how could you? How could you do this to my brother?"
I was now confused, how could I do what to Edward? It didn't make sense, he left me, wanting me to have a better life without any interference from him. I shook my head, "Do what?" I finally spoke up.
She was now looking at me like it was an obvious answer but then it faded, "You know what nevermind. I didn't say anything," she was now turning around. "I best be going now, it seems like everything's okay. It was lovely seeing you again, Bella and please promise me you won't do anything else that might cause you to do something irrational."
"But Alice, what did you mean how could you do this to my bro-" she cut me off, "It's nothing. Just promise me, okay?"
"Okay, I promise but Alice?" She swiftly came over and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek before she glided through the doorway and out of sight, as I stood there, waiting to hear the door open and then close from her departure. When I still didn't hear it, I assumed she had already slipped out without a single noise. I felt the tears welled up in my eyes, just waiting to spill over. When I felt Jacob's arms wrapped around my waist and I turned to see his face was now calm and serene. I buried my face in his chest, feeling finally the tears spill over and trail down my cheek.
He gently rubbed my back, "It's okay, honey. Everything is gonna be okay. Jacob's here."
For once he was right. Everything is gonna be okay and this time I know it, as long as I had Jacob everything was and always will be okay. I looked up with a slight trace of tears down each side of my cheek and once again Jacob cupped my face between his enormous hands and kissed me ever so softly on the lips, "I love you." He said, it coming out only in a low whisper.
"I know," I said, now giving him a half smile. "I love you too." I was able to finally say the three hardest words without worrying about him taking it in the wrong way because we were finally past that stage and there was no need to keep it bottled up any longer. Instead of feeling a slight hint of betrayal toward Edward or me, I felt relieved and all the feelings that I thought I never would have with anyone else besides Edward was finally making its appearance but how could it be? I told myself multiple times that Edward was my one and only and that not even my best friend Jake could interfer with that. Was it because I finally told myself Edward was never coming back and I truly needed to move on or was it because I held onto Edward for so long and that I kept beating myself up every single day to every single hour that I can't love anybody else as much as I loved Edward, hiding what I truly felt for Jacob deep down in the depths of my heart? As those two possible theories ran through my head like a broken down record player. I finally decided to push it off to the side for now until I was alone in my bedroom again, that thought made me cringe slightly.
Just then my air choked off - Jacob pulled me up in a bear hug too tight to breathe, "You don't know how long I've waited for you to say that."
He still had me in a tight hug, that it was becoming unbearable, "Jake....can't....breathe," I gasped.
He laughed and loosened his grip on me but still kept his arms locked around me. "Sorry, need to learn how to control myself a little better." He said, grinning.
I couldn't help but to smile back, "I'd say."
As we stood in the middle of the kitchen smiling and staring into each other's eyes like a couple teenagers crazy in love for one another. After another minute past, Jake broke the awkward silence, "So what do you wanna do?" He said, now taking one hand and lightly brushing the back of his fingertips along my cheek. The warm trail he left behind felt unbelievably good on my skin and I closed my eyes, slowly inhaling and exhaling. "Bells?"
I was suddenly pulled back down to planet Earth, "Huh?"
"I said what do you wanna do? I'm gonna tell Jared and Embry that the bloodsucker had fled town and to tell Sam I'm taking the day off, so we could hangout." He said, shaking his head with the smile still stretched across his beautiful face.
"Oh, um....Gee I don't know." I said, biting my bottom lip.
"Well, do you wanna go back to La Push and hangout there or are you too sick of that place by now?" He said.
My eyes widened in shock.
"Sorry, should've figured you would be." He said, now taking his arms away from me completely and looking down at the linolum.
I took a step toward him and reached my hand up to place it on his cheek, he sighed contently and held my hand to his face, "It's not that I'm sick of it but I thought we could do something else for our first actual date as a couple now."
He looked up and smiled, "Like what?"
"Well, I don't know, we could go down to Port Angeles and see a movie, if you want?" I suggested.
"Hmm, doesn't sound like a bad idea but can I pick this time since your last movie choice sucked?" He said, chuckling.
I rolled my eyes, "Hey now Crosshairs wasn't that bad."
"Sure it wasn't. If you like watching people throw spears at each other and plus their special effects were just horrible."
As I thought back to the day that we went to the movies with Mike tagged along and Jacob sitting through half the movie, ---- Just before Mike had to leave ---- laughing as someone on the screen got speared in the chest, sending blood squirting in the air. Thinking back to those days, as much pain I was going through, those days were still one of the best days of my life. "True. They probably could've done better with their special effects."
"Exactly. So that's why it's my turn to pick out the movie." He said.
"Okay fine, fair deal." I said, smiling. Honestly, I didn't care what movie we saw, as long as it was an us thing, I'm up for it.
He smiled. "Oh how I just love winning." He said, kissing me on the cheek.
"Well, don't get use to it for long." I said, grinning mischieviously.
"Oh I wouldn't plan on it." He said, hiding a smirk.
This is my first ever Fan Fiction story that I've posted on here. :D After reading New Moon about a couple months ago, along with seeing the movie 4 times in the theaters, I couldn't help the disappointment I got when Bella and Jacob almost kiss but they don't. So I thought writing my own version of what could've happened would lessen my disappointment a little which it did. ;) I have plenty more ideas for this story but I'm not quite sure if I should post anymore or not until I find out from you guys, if you wanna see this story go somewhere or not. So please review and let me know.
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