Lost in Time.

My name is Rinoa Heartily and I remember everything…

It's been nearly four years since I became a SeeD, a lot has happened during these past few years.

But I can't help but think that this is all because of you…if Sephiroth's attack had not become so deadly, well I just don't know what I would be today. Maybe we'd be together? Or together we'd have died for our people and friends…you, cloud and I.

This is the 89th letter I've tried to right, and this one is going to be my last….

This is my story, my life and the adventures and hard ships that I have over come. You don't have to read this but I ask you to continue, this is the only proof I have to show that I existed. My pride and dreams, I give it all too you….

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It wasn't everyday that the sun shone on the streets of Midgar, but when it did it was a day to laugh and celebrate. The children run among the streets laughing and playing, well the adults carried on with there daily choirs. Midgar wasn't the greatest place to live, but to the people of it's walls it was home.

Four young children were walking along the outer parts of the city, talking and laughing amongst themselves. "when I'm older I want to become a SOILDER, and be a hero just like sephiroth!" a young boy, no more then a year old then his three friend exclaimed "yea, wouldn't that be awesome!" his blonde companion mused "ha-ha, maybe one day we could even fight along side of him!" a young raven haired girl beamed "Rin, you want to be a SOILDER!?" asked the bewilder young blonde "I just want to do something useful and adventuress with my life, like Zack and Cloud!" Rinoa explained.

Zack stepped up beside her, "yeah that's all fine and denied but Rinoa being a SOILDER is dangerous…I..I don't know what I'd do if something happened to you.." he said taking her hand in his "oh, Zack…I know it's dangerous, but I need to know if I can do this. I want to do this. I understand what you're trying to said love, but my mind is made up." she told them, and place a hand on zacks face, and kissed his other cheek tenderly, "you know you can't stop me." she added, but it was more of a warning to the boys to drop the subject, "we know.." the three boys sighed.

It had been more then a week since the four friends talked of SOILDER and Sephiroth, no one wanted to think of Rinoa having to fight, but sure enough they knew she was going to sigh up when the time of recruiting came around. By the time the day had come, it had seem that it was just yesterday that they were trying to convince Rinoa to back out, well maybe it was yesterday and every other day for that matter, but she's as stubborn as a mule and refused to back down and let the boys have all the fun and excitement.

Time seemed to move slowly for the four friends as there training seemed to go on for ever. Finally the day come to announce who would be accepted into SOILDER, together the friends wanted for their chance to look at the list, hand interlocked with each others, they hoped that they had all made it. "okay here we go!" Zack smiled walking towards the list "well..?" Seifer asked excitement clear in his voice "well, lets see…Alright! I made it!!" Zack yelled jumping up and down "and what about the rest of us!" cloud and Rinoa shouted over him "oh..ha-haaa…right..Hey what do you know Cloud, Rinoa you both made it in" Zack remarked looking at his two friends "but umm, I'm sorry Seifer, but you're name isn't on the list" he said sounding disappointed for his friend, "really?" sadness clear across Seifers face "aw, Seifer I'm sorry" Rinoa said hugging her friend tight "ha-ha, it's alright. Can't get everything ya wan, right? The point is I tried!" he exclaimed "that's the spire dude" cloud joined in.

And it was with that, the three friends said their fair wells to their dear friend and began there training as SOILDERS. Weeks passed by with letter sent back and forth to and from Seifer. "hey guys I just got a letter from Seifer, say's he leaving Midgar to attend a school called Garden and become a SeeD" Rinoa said walking into the boys dorm room, the two friends stared at her for a moment and then exchanged a glace with each other.

"We should send him a letter" zack said looking back up at his Girlfriend, "yeah, wishing him the best of luck at his new school" cloud beamed, Rinoa nodded at the two boys and went to get some paper and a pen to start their letter.

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It had been nearly five years since Seifer left Midgar, He still sent letters to his friends and family back home, but sometimes it would take weeks or even months before he would get word from Rinoa, Zack and Cloud. He knew it was hard for them to find the time to write to him, in the last letter he received from his friends that had told them that they had made it to second class SOILDER, and would be going out on more mission, They even sent him a picture signed by Sephiroth, telling him it wasn't easy to get him to sign it, be with Rinoas cream he caved, reading that over made Seifer smile to himself, he was also happy at the fact that they hand enclosed a new photo of themselves standing together, just so he could them.

Sure Seifer wished that he could be there with his friends right now, as a SOILDER but it just didn't work out for him and he was happy for them and wish nothing less then the best for them. He had just sent out a letter no more then a week ago to them hoping to hear from them soon, but he'd come to know that he should get his hopes up, "their busy…on a mission or something" he thought to himself, "they don't have the time too write to you right now…" his thoughts were cut short by his instructor entering the class room, he quietly put his letters away and got ready for the lesson ahead.

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As time went on the letters started to die down, no matter how hard they tried it just couldn't be helped, with the three of them out training and going on mission to be the best SOILDER and Seifer training and attending school to become a SeeD, the life styles were just to demanding to keep up with the letters everyday. It was sad to think about it, but true.

5 years, 6 years and another and then another. Years, months, weeks, and days went by and not a moment went by when they were thinking about Seifer and their homes. "I hope Seifer is well" Rinoa finally said, it had been something they had all been thinking "I'm sure he's fine Rin" Zack replied with a smile, Rinoa turned to cloud with a distant look in her eyes "come on, rinny Seifers a big boy, he'll be fine." cloud said with a smile just barely reaching his eyes, and placed a hand on Rinoas shoulder, "you guys are right, I'm just so worried…I miss him…I miss home…"she said with a sad smile "us too Rin. Us too" zack said taking Rinoa into his arms and hugged her close.

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