A/N: This is the sequel to "Getting Experienced". If you haven't read it, here's a short summary:

Rory has been going out with Dean for over a year when they finally decide to sleep together. Only problem is, he think she already has experience. So she turns to Jess who is willing to help *grin*. After her encounter with Jess she realizes her feelings for him but for a while both are too confused to act on it. But...just like in those sappy lovestories...all ends well. There are just some things Rory doesn't know about yet.

A/N: OK...I guess you guys want answers :P Like JustMe said: It's a suspense, "what is the secret?", "what's hidden in Jess' past?", "what doesn't he know how to tell Rory?"

Everyone wants answers to this questions now, and you WILL HAVE TO make a sequel.

So yeah...here it is. I hope it's any good!

A/N: I live in Holland so there's lots of Lit-ness on the show! Tonight, as a matter of fact! Yayy...my day is wonderful :D **well except for the fact that I'm sick right now**. Anywayzzz...read and review!

Disclaimer: I own nothing. If something sounds familiar, it's probably cause you've seen it on the show. Some of the lines (about the winter carnival) are from the episode "That'll Do Pig".

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**FLASHBACK FROM GETTING EXPERIENCED**

Jess slowly started to lead Rory to his bed, eventually falling on the blankets with Rory on top of him. He kissed her sweet mouth time and time again leaving her lips swollen and red. Then he slowly started to kiss her neck, licking and sucking her sensitive spots until she was moaning his name.

He loved to hear it. His name never sounded sweeter than at those moments. It showed that she was his. Utterly and totally his. He knew she wanted to be with him.

There was just one problem. His past. He knew that with every minute they spent together his past casted a bigger shadow over them. She didn't know. She was blissfully unaware of the things that were haunting his dreams...

But he would have to tell her.

Just not now.

Later.

He would.

He promised himself that.

Just...not now.

Not when everything was so right.

Later.

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On The Run Again

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Jess had been on the run since as long as he could remember. He got sent from New York to Stars Hollow, to get away from his problems. He thought he wouldn't have to run there anymore. But then a certain angel came by, and he went down hard. This girl made him want to be a better man, cliché as it may sound. Yet...he didn't want to spoil her innocence. He didn't want to put all his burdens on her fragile shoulders, cause he was scared it would be too heavy and she would run away.

So he ran. Mentally, he always ran from her. Pretending to be busy, or to have drifted off, whenever the topic came back to his time in New York. He knew she had the right to know. But he couldn't tell her. He didn't want to ruin her image of him, one he knew was far too flattering to be true. She saw in him the man he should have been. Funny, smart, gentle whenever he was around her. Not the fucked up little brat he became in New York.

His eyes had seen too much...his hands had done too much. He had done things he never, even in his wildest dreams, could have come up with. And he was scared. Scared that the only reason he changed was Stars Hollow. Scared that he would change back the moment he set foot in New York. But most of all...scared that she would leave him once she knew the truth.

So he kept running.

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"Jess?"

His body tensed. Something about the way she spoke his name made his alarmlights go off.

"Hmm?"

Rory forced him to look up at her, resulting in him shifting uncomfortably in his chair.

"What?"

He demanded to know.

"I was just wondering..."

She took a sip of her coffee and looked at him again.

**Oh my god...here it comes...what am I gonna say?**

"if you want to go to the Winter Carnival with me..."

Huh? What? Come again? No Jess-how-where-you-back-in-New-York speech? No tell-me-about-your-past question? But the question if he wanted to go to the Winter Carnival with him...

He couldn't do that. Well...yeah course he could. But he couldn't just give in like that. She would get suspicious.

"I thought we could go and meet Lane there"

"Nope..."

"But...it'll be really fun. They'll have really bad games and really bad food and the marchingband will play and..."

She looked at him pleadingly.

"Come on...let's go to the carnival..."

He sighed.

"I don't go to these stupid townthings"

"You went to the dancemarathon..."

"That's when I was trying to get you...I now have you...that means I don't have to go anymore"

"You're serious?"

"As a heartattack"

She sighed and let the subject rest for the time being. He grinned at her and kissed her. They both knew he would give in, but didn't know eachothers reasons. Fifteen minutes later she started again.

"Please?"

"Nope"

"But it would make me really happy"

"Is it that day again? Make-Rory-happy day?"

"It's that day every day of the year"

She smiled sweetly.

"Damn...why did I chose a high-maintenance chick over Shane...what was I thinking..."

He rolled his eyes and grinned.

"Hey!"

Rory playfully slapped his arm. Then she crawled onto his lap and put on her puppyface.

"Please? Pretty pretty please?"

She batted her eyelashes and put on her best pout.

Jess sighed. He would give in now, and Rory would think it was because of the look. Well...the look was adorable but he could have easily said no. He just wanted to keep her happy. As long as her head was in the clouds she wouldn't see who he really was.

"Okay...but just for an hour!"

"You are the bestest boyfriend ever!"

She hugged him and placed kisses all over his face. He smiled. Yeah...he was the "bestest" boyfriend ever. As long as she didn't know...

A/N: didn't think I was gonna spill the beans right away did you :P I hope this was any good despite the fact that it didn't reveal Jess's big secret. The truth is...I still haven't figured out what I want that secret to be. Any help would be great!