A/N: Another one shot…
Disclaimer: I don't own CM or the song!
Prompt: All Cried Out – Allure
Emily was done crying over something she had no control over. She was all cried out. Yes, she was hurt and she was angry but she was done letting it rule her life. She was done letting Hotch see what he had done to her. Today she was going to go to work today and she wasn't going to give him the pleasure of seeing how broken hearted she was.
She walked into the BAU bull pen with her head high and a smile on her face. If she was going to pretend to be alright she was going to give it one hell of a performance. She was going to make him see what he was missing even if it killed her inside. She was going to make him hurt like he had hurt her.
She smiled when she saw Hotch looking at her in shock. She could tell from the look in his eyes that she looked good. She had decided to forgo the pants that she usually wore to work for a skirt. She also had on a light blue shirt that showed her cleavage off. She was actually proud of how she looked.
"Morning Hotch." Emily said when he stepped in front of her halting her progress to her desk.
Hotch looked Emily up and down and his hearted started beating faster. "Morning Prentiss. Why are you so happy today when yesterday you would barely look at me let alone say anything to me?"
Emily laughed and looked up at Hotch and saw his jaw tighter with the laugh she gave. "Well Hotch it's simple. I'm all cried out. I woke up this morning and thought you know what fuck it. Really Hotch tell me this. If you don't feel any regret from ending things with me why should I be hurt? You obviously just used me."
Hotch's mouth dropped open at that statement. "I did not use you Prentiss!"
Emily gave a bitter laugh. "Sure you did Hotch. Because you fucked me nine ways from Sunday but yet you still broke up with me and don't show any regret in doing so. Obviously you never loved me like I loved you. So what exactly am I supposed to think?"
Hotch couldn't believe what he was hearing come out of Emily's mouth. He couldn't even believe that she actually thought what she just said. He would never understand women. He never meant to make Emily feel as if he had used her because that couldn't be the farthest thing from the truth. He would never use her because he loved her. Until this moment he never realized the damage that he had done to her self esteem or to her heart.
Hotch shook his head. "You aren't supposed to think that. I'm sorry I hurt you Emily. It was the last thing I ever wanted to do."
Emily laughed bitterly once more. "Sure it was Hotch. If it was the last thing you ever wanted to do then why do what you did? You made me cry damn it! I never cry yet you succeeded in making me cry! I'm all cried out because of you! I'll be damned if I ever let you near enough to hurt me ever again! I loved you damn it! Yet you broke my fucking heart and didn't even give a shit! Well screw you Hotch! Screw you and the horse you rode in on! I never want to see or talk to you again unless it is about work. Never and I mean never ask me a personal question ever again."
With that Emily walked away with her heart shattering once more. But she finally did and said what she needed to do and say. She may no longer have a heart anymore but at least she finally told him how she was feeling.
Hotch watched Emily walk away with a heavy heart. He wanted to go after her but he needed to think. He knew he messed up big time and he wasn't sure what to do to fix it. God his own heart broke as he realized that Emily really meant what she had said. He had a feeling now it was his turn to cry until he was all cried out.
