Namarie
Blue waves with white tips crash against the side of the ship. Her ship. The wind, no, the sea breeze blows through her long blonde hair and ruffles her blue dress.
The dress she wore to leave, the same dress she wore for my last birthday and the last time we danced together. As blue as the sea she is sailing away from me on, as blue as her sparkling eyes. Her eyes, both sad and happy are fixed on the rolling waves. Her ears, listening to the mournful cry of the gulls, wheeling above.
Sorrow fills our hearts and a small tear falls down my cheek. Ada says that I am a big boy now, and big boys don't cry. But I saw his tears before we left. This is different. My ada couldn't come to see nana off.
He is afraid. My brave, strong ada, afraid. Afraid of the sea. Afraid it will call to him, that the gulls cry will pierce his heart as it did nana's and call him away forever.
All I can understand is that my nana is sailing away to Valinor, the Undying Lands. Another world. Without me, her only son. The Queen is leaving Greenwood the Great. Leaving her King and Prince. Her husband and son. It isn't fair. All of my memories of her that have filled my short life with joy, flash across my mind.
It only makes it worse, to remember her touch, the way that she could make my day perfect, the way she tucked me in every night and chased all my fears away. To remember how on bright mornings the breeze would lift her golden hair in a gentle caress, how the sun would light her face and her eyes would sparkle and shine with light and happiness.
It wouldn't help to stop the tears, to remember how her sweet, gentle, loving voice would carry through the air and sing me to sleep, take away my pain and fear and make me understand. How she would tickle me until I was breathless, how she would sneak cookies from the kitchen for me, and how she helped me hide stray animals friends in my bedroom.
I can't imagine the thought of a life without you by my side, showing me the way. As you stand here, saying your goodbyes, you breath in the salty, sea air and anticipate your trip. I can feel your soul lift. What can the ocean give you, that your only son cannot? I know the sea calls you, but I need you, ada needs you. Do you not love us anymore?
I need you here with me, to tuck me in and read me bedtime stories, and then give me a loving kiss that only a mother can give. You finally turn to me, and reality comes crashing back, you're leaving me. The images in my mind disappear and all I can see is you. "Legolas", you say in your perfect voice, a pleading edge to you tone. Pleading for what? Forgiveness? I could never be mad at you.
There is so much I want to say, to make you understand how much I love you and don't want you to go. To convince you that you would be happier here, that I would be happier with you here. You kneel down and hug me tight, as if you never want to let go. I hug back, wishing that you would hold me for all eternity. You let go all to soon, and look me in the eyes.
Your brilliant, blue eyes hold onto my blue ones. The speak volumes and suddenly I understand, words are not needed. But I will still miss you more than you could ever know. You board your ship, only looking back once. Your face is pained, but also carefree, happy. You leave us behind, leave me behind. I watch you sail away and not even the fact that one day we will all follow you, eases my tears of sorrow, loneliness and pain.
Your ship slowly fades into the distant mist and I feel more alone than I ever have. Before I turn away, I finally think of what to say. "Namarie for now Naneth nin", I whisper softly after her. Somehow, I think she heard me. Her son.
The End
*Namarie for now Naneth nin means Farewell for now my Mother
*Reviews would be very much welcomed, just press that little green button and let me know what you think !! :D