A/N: This is my first time writting a fanfic, and this story is set in New Moon, after Edward left Bella. Bella was devastated but Jacob was always there for Bella. I really think Jacob is a really good character and he shouldn't be upset because of Bella. But anyways, hope you guys enjoy it (:

Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns all the character :D

Chapter 1: I would do anything to make you come back.

Bella, I have to leave you.

Edward!

I woke up gasping for air, it was a flashback. It has been weeks since Edward left me, he was then always appearing in my dreams, his beautiful crooked smile, his golden eyes, his cold fingers, his lullaby. Everything about him, I couldn't let go, he seems to appear wherever I go. I change into my chothes and headed downstairs, Charlie was there drinking his coffee. I went into the room and saw bacons and eggs, he must have got the take aways from his favourite restaurant.

"Charlie, you didn't have to."

"Oh Bells, there was nothing in the fridge, so I got some take away for you" He smiled warmly.

"Thanks Ch-- dad, I appreciate it." I didn't know saying that word could feel so good.

"No problem bells. I need to go to work right now, please take care of yourself, kay?" He said in a worried tone.

"Yes dad. I will, don't worry." I gave him a smile.

Charlie then left the house. After I ate breakfast, I got into the car and rest my head on my seat.

"Bella, are you okay?" That voice, it was so familiar.

"Edward?" Hoping that it would give a response.

But, unfortunately, it didn't. I try to look around, trying to search for him, but, he wasn't anywhere to be found. I then got into my car again, and started the engine, I tried to not think about it. While I was in school, Mike, as usual, was humming a happy tune, he was glad that Edward moved to another place. He broke up with Jessica and decided to take a chance on me, Jessica still gave me her glare whenever Mike was with me. I sometimes tried to ignore him, but it didn't work. During english class, I was scribbling some stuff in a piece of paper. "Why did he leave?", "Was I not good enough for him?" or anything that was related to him. I wanted to tell my issues to anyone, espeacially to Jessica, since she was one of my closest friend. Thanks to Mike, she wouldn't talk to me. And then, I needed to talk to Jessica, so I decided to phone her after school.

"Jessica, hey."

"What do you want?" she said in an angry tone.

"I want your advice." I knew it was a bad idea.

"Oh! So, now you need advice? Seriously Bella, don't go all innocent like you have done nothing wrong! You started ignoring us when you were with Edward and now he is gone, you come back to us again? And, if it weren't for you, I would still be with Mike! Don't try calling back Bella, because we are no longer friends." She hung up without letting me explain.

Now, not only I feel devastated, I also feel guilty. I tried to ignore and forget what Jessica said to me, I had to much to worry. I tried to get my mind off everything while preparing dinner, so I went out to buy some groceries. After I got back, I put all the stuff into the freezer and washed the vegetables. I took the knife and began chopping the vegetables. I knew that Edward had already left me, but, his voice was always always surrounding my ears, it was like he was whispering to me. And now Jessica hates me because Mike wanted to take a chance on me. I was so fed up, I didn't know what to do. And the next thing I knew, I cut my arm. I was horrified, what was I thinking? Did I just do that? I quickly tried to stop the blood, but it was a deep cut, and as soon as i smelled the blood, my head started spinning around, and everything blacked out.

I saw a bright light, was I in heaven? Was I dead? I opened my eyes, and Jacob was sitting at the side of the bed.

"Jake?"

"Bella, you are in the hospital." he looked terrified.

I looked around, it was indeed the hospital. I looked at my arms, it was already bandaged. "How did I get here?"

"Bella, you scared the hell out of me!" he said nervously, "if I didn't stop by your house, you might have.. you might have..."

"Die?" I finished his sentence.

"Bella, what were yout thinking? Why did you cut your arm?" He was getting angrier and more worried.

"Jake, it was an accident. I was preparing dinner and I wasn't paying attention while I was putting away the knife." I said softly.

He then sighed deeply, "Well, as long as you are awake, I am relieved."

I smiled at him, Charlie then rushed into the room, he looked really pale, he must have been worried sick.

"Bella! Are you okay? What did you do?" He started asking many questions, my head was spinning again.

"Charlie, Bella is fine. She just woke up, I think it is best if you save the questions later."

Charlie took a deep breathe, "I am sorry Bells, I overeacted. Thank you Jacob for saving her life." He gave Jacob a pat on the shoulder.

"Oh, I was just passing by the house, I was glad I did. I have to go now, Billy expects me to be home in a few minutes time, but, I am sure he would understand." He gave a loud laugh.

"Thanks Jake, for saving me"

"No problem Bella, as long as you are alive, I don't need to worry anymore. But, try to keep yourself safe. If you need company or anything, you can just call me." After that, he left the room.

I couldn't believe it, why did I cut my arm? Did I think that putting myself in danger, would Edward then come and rescue me? What was I thinking? I was an idiot, I made everyone worried about me! I felt so weak, I made myself so useless, I was a fool. But why didn't Edward came? I knew he left, but he could at least cared about me, I know he would.

"Bells?" Charlie interupted my thoughts. "You should call Renee."

"You told mum? again?" I said sulkily. But I should have seen that coming, Charlie then handed me his phone, I needed to explain to Renee a few times then only she started to calm down, and then I hung up. The doctor wanted me to stay in the hospital for a few days, he said that I have already lost a big amount of blood, and so I agreed. At least I wouldn't have to see Jessica or Mike for a while, school was the last place I wanted to go now. I closed my eyes to rest my head for a while, and not long after that, I was asleep.