It has been six weeks now since the battle of the five armies were over, the dead buried and Erebor rebuilt. Tears were shed and feasts thrown.
Everything started to go its normal now since some days. You also returned to Erebor, even though it was going to be tough to be around your former lover. You said to yourself, you will be ok. You moved on. Tried to forget him. And you somehow managed to have the strength to get up every day. Smile again and it was like you started all over again.
So you got a nice chamber in Erebor with everything you needed. And that wasn't much. Since all of your family had died you were the only one to use that chamber.
It happened one day that you put on your coat, your warm boots and grabbed your basket. You wanted to collect some herbs as spring was about to come back. Waving to some of your friends, you headed out of the big halls and walked down to a nearby forest.
After two hours your basket was full of herbs and some mushrooms as you thought you should head back home. The sun was already setting and you were sure it was going to be freezing at night.
Luck wasn't on your side this time as you tripped over a root. You fell onto the ground, your basket flying somewhere away to your right. After some seconds of shock and how you could be so stupid, you sat up, sighing when you saw all the dirt on your skirt and coat.
Sighing heavily you looked around in search of your basket. All the work wasted as the herbs were laying all over the ground. You shook your head angrily and started to stand up. "Owww, oww, owww." You yelped and stumbled backwards. Once you have put pressure onto your left foot you felt the pain in your ankle.
You stumbled over to a stub of a tree and sat down, looking down at your ankle you tried to move it a bit but the pain went through your whole body. You were close to tears. You looked around helplessly and desperately. Nobody knew you were here in the forest. Nobody would miss you at home.
A sob escaped your lips and you put your hand over your mouth, covering it. So, you tried again to stand up. Even though you could barely put pressure onto your foot, you slowly made two steps forward. But that was it. After a short break you tried walking again.
And so you continued for the next hour. But then you just felt weak as you leant against a tree and slid down, crying silently. You didn't even know for how long you have been sitting there, already made up your mind that you might die in the cold, but then you heard voices. Hopefully this was your rescue.
Then you saw two dwarf guards who came your way. One pointed over to you and the other disappeared again. As the one dwarf approached you, he asked surprised. "Y/N?" Oh Mahal, he knew you. "Are you ok?" He knelt down and looked at you. "I think I have a sprained ankle." You said with a shuddering voice.
Then the other guard made his way over to you with another dwarf. A blonde dwarf. Oh no… you thought to yourself when you realized it was Fili. As he saw you, his expression was surprised. Then it quickly changed to being serious. Fili knelt down in front of you and looked concerned. "What happened? Why are you out there that late?"
You sighed and turned your head to the side, you started to feel the tears filling your eyes again as you told him what happened. "Well, then I am going to carry you." He moved closer but you jerked your head and stuttered. "No, Fili… I mean Prince Fili, I am too heavy…" You let out a shriek as Fili moved his one arm under your knees as his other arm supported your back.
He stood up with you in his arms. You wrapped one arm around his neck and then he started walking back to the mountain. Your head was red like a tomato; this was so embarrassing to you. You hoped that nobody would see you with him like that.
As the four of you finally walked into the big halls you just wanted to slide down from Fili's arms and head your own way but he tightened the grip around you and told one of his guards to bring him some medics and aid to his chamber.
You were too shocked to say anything. He opened the door to his chambers and walked in, placing you gently down onto his bed. The guard brought all the stuff Fili wanted and placed it onto the table next to the bed. He gave you a smile and bowed, leaving the chambers and closing the door behind him.
"F-Prince Fili, it is just a sprained ankle, you don't need to…" He shook his head, taking some of the aid into his hands as he walked over to the bed, looking down at you. "Stop calling me prince."
"But-you are…" He sat down; he pulled your left leg over his thighs so your foot was in his lap and looked at you intensely. "We know each other for that long and you start to call me prince now? Please, don't do that." You nodded slightly and looked at him.
Fili loosened the strings of your boots, he removed at first the one with your healthy ankle and then he turned his attention to the other one, gently removing the boot. You clenched your jaw and let out a gasp of pain. He held your foot in his hands and slightly looked up. "I am sorry."
He took some ointment and rubbed it carefully and slowly over the swollen ankle. "You know, I never wanted to leave you." He confessed quietly. Your heart stopped beating as you looked at him shocked. "It was Thorin who said I need to have a free mind and that, if we won't make it, you wouldn't have to cry over me." Fili took the bandage and wrapped it around your ankle for support.
You were speechless; you just looked at him with wide eyes and your mouth slightly open. As he was finished he ran his hand slowly up on your calf. Then he looked up and into your eyes. "I still love you. I never forgot you, I…just before we left; I asked Thorin if I could betroth you… "
"W-What?" You shook your head; your heart was pounding in your chest, slowly breaking into pieces. "No, I…Fili…" You stuttered, you didn't want to hear all of that. You wanted to leave his chamber and just go to bed, crying yourself to sleep. As you slightly pulled your leg away from his hand, he wrapped his hand around your calf and pulled you even closer than before.
"I just couldn't get my mind off of you." He stated and placed his other hand onto your cheek. His breath was tickling your skin; he looked at your lips then back into your eyes. "I want you to be mine again." Tears were filling your eyes and as he kissed your lips they fell down your cheeks.
You pulled away with a sob and turned your face to the side, trying to stay calm. "I've watched you since you came here. It was wrong to give in to Thorin and his demand, I realize that now." You took a deep breath. "Can you help me getting up? I think I should leave now."
Fili sighed, he ran his thumb and pointer finger along his mustache beads, and he always did that when he was thinking. Your lips turned into a small smile as you always admired these little things. "Just…I haven't seen a dwarf at your side; I don't see a courting bead in your hair either…" He took one of your strands of hair into his hand and looked at you. "Tell me that you don't love me and I will leave you alone."
"Fili…" You turned your head and looked at him, your strand of hair sliding off of his fingers. Your face was a mixture of pain and sadness. As you just wanted to say anything, he caught your lips in a deep kiss, tenderly and full of unspoken words from the last years.
Instantly you wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed him back just as greedily as he did. All that sorrow and pain you had drowned inside of you, this was all about to come out now. And you needed him to make it go away.
The young prince gently parted your lips and pushed his tongue into your mouth, you moaned against his lips and ran your fingers into his hair. His arm wrapped around your waist and he pulled you onto his lap, so you could straddle him. His other arm placed onto your hip, he gently squeezed it.
Totally breathless you pulled back and looked down at him, your fingertips tracing over his cheeks. His chest was also heaving as his hands wandered over your lower back. "I…I love you too, Fili. I always will. By the gods, you never left my heart. But it is so hard to be here, seeing you. And now, you say all of this…" You admitted and sighed heavily.
Fili shifted slightly beneath you and you whimpered a bit when your ankle hit the mattress. You slid down from Fili's lap and sat next to him. "I am sorry, my love." He looked at you as you rubbed carefully over the bandage. And your heart pounded heavily when he called you that. "I should go." You said quietly, not even looking at him.
"Y/N, please, I am begging you." He placed his hand onto your arm. You sighed heavily and lifted your head, looking into his eyes. "Shall I forget everything? That you left me broken only to say you still love me now? You think Thorin will allow you to court me again? After he told you to break up with me? How could you even listen to him?"
You nearly yelled at him angrily. Your whole body was shaking as you kept going on and on. But Fili just sat there, listening to all of your words. As you took a breath, Fili pushed you down onto the bed, getting on top of you and straddling you. "Get off of me!" You yelled at him, furiously punching your fists against his chest.
"Calm down! It is impossible to speak with you when you act like that." He demanded and grabbed your wrists, pinning them above your head. "Fili, that is…" He leant down and pressed his lips onto yours, kissing you greedily like you were his breath who kept him alive.
You lifted your head up a little to meet his lips better, this time it was you who pushed your tongue through his lips and rubbed over his tongue. A low moan escaped his throat and he released your hands from his grip, only to move them to your thighs, pushing up your skirt, so he could adjust himself between your legs.
Your hands found their way to the hem of his tunic, he pulled away from your lips, slightly sitting up as he removed his tunic and tossed it onto the floor. A smirk played on his lips as his fingers worked on the strings of your blouse.
While he was undressing you, you traced your fingertips along his muscular chest, leaving some scratches there which made him hiss. Once he was finished with your blouse he attacked your lips again, making your back arch.
"I missed you so much." He moaned out as he kissed his way from your lips over your jawline and down to your neck. A gasp escaped your lips when he bit into your neck, probably leaving a red mark there. He licked over it, pulling away only to kiss you again, harder this time.
That kiss left you both breathless. You pulled back and sharply sucked in air, Fili was also breathing heavily. His hands already started to fiddle with your skirt, you heard his annoyed grunt and then he just ripped it off of you. "This was one of my favorites…" You said in shock, watching as the torn fabric flew onto the floor. "I buy you a new one…" Fili answered while paying attention to your neck again. "I buy you hundreds of it."
He moved to the other side of your neck and started sucking on it slightly. You let out another rusty moan, forgetting the skirt when your fingers ran over his stomach and started to push down his trousers. He lifted his head up and looked down at you as you were working on his trousers, leaning up you kissed along his throat, making him tense up even more, and his moans increasing.
Finally the strings of his trousers had loosened up and his trouser was sliding down to his ankles, as he kicked it off. Quickly you wrapped your legs around his waist and bit into your bottom lip when his hard manhood poked against you.
Looking into each other's eyes for quite a time, you ran your pointer finger along his bottom lip before cupping his face in your hands. "I missed you too. Every day and every night. Mahal, I wanted to die…" Your words trailed off and you moved up to kiss him desperately.
Fili pressed your body down onto the mattress and he pushed himself slowly inside of you. He caught your moans in his mouth and started to move in a slow pace.
As the movements became faster and harder, the kiss was getting sloppy. Your back was arching as you clung to his body, digging your nails into his back. "Fili…" You moaned out his name quietly which encouraged him to plunge more and more into you.
He reached his bliss before you, with your name on his lips but he didn't stop until your whole body was shaking and then you both collapsed onto the bed. He buried his face in the crook of your neck and nuzzled his nose against your neck while you ran your fingers slowly through his hair, totally in peace with the world.
After a few moments Fili pulled out of you and rolled next to you onto the mattress. You pulled the sheets up to cover the two of you as you snuggled up to his side.
You were facing each other, his eyes roaming over your face as your fingers played with one of his braided strand of hair. "Let me braid your hair, please." Fili asked hopefully, he took his strand of hair out of your fingers and removed the bead.
You sat up, pulling the sheets with you so your naked body was covered. You nodded and moved so your back was facing him. He sat up as well and smiled at the sight of your bare back; he slid closer and ran his fingers through your hair slowly. Then he separated one strand and parted it in three lines and started to braid it.
Once he was finished he put the bead into it and let it go. His arms wrapped around your torso when he pulled you close to him. You took the strand of hair into your hand and looked at the bead. A shiver ran down your spine when you felt him kissing your shoulder and then your neck again. "I love you, and this time I am going to marry you. And nobody can stop me." You turned your head to look at him with a smile as you kissed him softly.