First Snarry story, be kind.
I do not own Harry Potter. Warnings: Violence, language, and sexual content. If you don't like M/M relationships please turn back now.
Other warnings: Might include Mpreg, some mentions of abuse as a child,rape, or mentions of rape. So please if you think this might upset you turn back now.
I do not have a beta tester, I do apologize for the bad grammar, misspelled words, or anything else that happens to distract from the story. I do hope you look past that and read the story any way. Thank you for your time.
Chapter one.
Harry Potter lay awake after a long night of pain and confusion, he wished he had someone to help him through this. The pain alone was not so bad years of pain and abuse made him almost numb to it, it was the fact that he was afraid to be around others that made the pain almost to much to bare. Harry lay naked in pain and confused about how he was going to survive this alone, how could he tell his friends and family about this?
Harry sighed getting up from his place on the ground and called for Kreacher.
"Master Potter called for Kreacher. What can Kreacher do for Master Potter, sir?" Kreacher asked from his place near Harry's side, Harry looked at his friend the only friend he could trust with his pain at the moment.
"Please take me home Kreacher." Kreacher was all to happy to please his Master, he nodded his head and they disappeared to the now very clean 12 Grimmauld Place. "Help me to the bathroom, please Kreacher." Harry was pale and weak his body giving away to its own weight, the boney hands of his friend helped him up the steps to his room. Setting the young man on the bed to fill the tube and get things ready for the young Harry Potter to use, Kreacher could hear Harry whimper in pain as he stood to come to the washroom.
"Master Potter Sir please sit I will get you in a moments time, Kreacher does not want Harry Potter to hurt himself." Kreacher helped Harry to sit on the toilet, he heard the young man sigh and whimper a thank you out through the pain.
Kreacher Helped Harry into the tub, helping the young man wash his hair and upper body. Harry heard the flew flare and paled, his body stiffened waiting for who ever would see him in such a state. Hoping with all his might that it was someone who wouldn't ask to many questions, but that was not to be. Kreacher rushed out of the bathroom in time for Harry to hear a deep male voice he once thought was lost forever speaking, asking for, The Boy. He sighed this was it he heard them fighting up the stairs the Elf he had grown to love has his most trusted friend, telling the man to leave the Harry Potter was resting. But the bedroom door banged opened as did the bathroom door to reveal the one man Harry hoped never to see him in this weak state, Severus Snape.
"What in bloody hell are you doing in the tube at such an hour Mister Potter, I've been getting an ear full from the Headmistress who happens to be looking for your sorry hide." Snape breathed in through his nose and out through the his mouth, he needed to be calm something was off about this and he was going to find out what was going on.
At that moment Kreacher came rushing in to finish washing Harry cleaning him of the soap on his head, Severus looked on in disgust at how lazy Harry appeared to be."Dear Merlin's beard are you so lazy know that the war is finished that you cant wash your own body?" Harry looked at the older man with pain filled eye, Harry sighed through the pain before standing up.
"I'm in no mood to talk to anyone at the moment please when you go back tell her I will come by in a weeks time, I need rest." Harry ambled away from Snape to his dresser, he didn't make it far before he was falling to the floor in pain. Severus reached him in time before he smacked face first into the hard wood floor of the bedroom, Harry's towel had slipped when he stared to fall. He hissed in pain as all the nerves in his body screamed from the contact, he flinched away falling onto the bed.
"What is the matter with you boy?" Harry flinched at the nickname, he hated it. It reminded him to much of his uncle and Voldy.
"Don't call me that for the love of Merlin Snape I have a name, I deserve some respect." He cried out in a fit of anger his eyes glowed yellow, and Severus back away from the young man.
"Your eyes turned gold." It was a statement not a question, Snape now knew Harry's worst secret from the war. God why did it have to be Snape? Of all the people out there why him?
"Yes, yes they did. I'm sorry I didn't mean to get angry please don't tell anyone about this, if they find out it will be my death." Harry sighed, pain forgotten for the moment.
"When did his happen Potter?" Severus asked in a calm stable voice, something he was not on the inside was calm.
Harry looked up to see a touch of fear in the older mans eyes, before it quickly vanished."Just after I defeated Him, I needed some air so I took a walk near the forest. I made the mistake of forgetting my wand, by your bed...I-I had been sitting there for a few days waiting for you to wake up, so when I went on the walk I was not paying much attention...My horrible mistake and down fall in that moment, I was attacked by a stray werewolf from the battle. Hagrid was the one who saw what happened and helped me, I made him promise to keep this a secret. I couldn't let others know I was a werewolf, if anyone knew of this I would have a number of things done to me...look at how they treated my godfathers, Snape you must not tell anyone. Please I know you've done so much for me already so much I want to thank you for, so much I want to repay you for. But please keep this one secret to yourself, I beg you please." Harry was panting the strain on his body was becoming to much he had not had much food in the past few months, and even Severus saw how weak he was.
Sighing the older man moved forward helping the younger man into a pair of sleep pants, he moved the man to lay in bed covering him up."Kreacher please make Harry some soup, I will look after him for a while." Kreacher looked to Harry who managed a nod, the elf quickly left for the kitchen and got to work on the food for his master." I will work on a wolfsbane potion for you to take every month, I would suggest you come back to school for your last year. And talk to the headmistress she can help you find work after you finish school, you did well with teaching...As much as I would loath to see you working with us at the school you are good at it, so think on it while you rest." Severus waited for Kreacher to bring the bowl of soup up and once he had he quickly set to work on feeding the very tired Harry Potter, Severus sighed as the bowl became empty and Harry had passed out.
"Kreacher make up a room for my stay here, I wish to help you with Potter." Kreacher nodded at his masters teacher and quickly set to work, Kreacher wanted his master safe so he would be good and have the one man who could help his master stay near by.
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Harry sat up in bed leaning against the frame, he wasn't tired anymore the moons rays making him feel almost energetic. He stretched his legs and arms out hearing that satisfying cracking of bones into place, he pulled the covers off stepping out of the bed to grab a shirt. Making his way out of his room and down to the kitchen as quietly as he could, not wanting to wake the man in the room next to his.
Harry got to work on making up some more soup he was starving, he wanted some bread to go with it so he looked around and found what he was looking for. He got it all set up at the table by the window, the soup just about done when he heard a noise coming from the stairs. He quickly snapped his wand out and turned just in time to see Snape doing the same, he sighed and smiled softly at the man placing the wand back from wince it came.
"You hungry?" Harry smiled at Snape making a gesture for him to sit down at the table.
"Yes." Awww, the one word reply's do get old.
"would you like me to make you a bowl then?" Harry poking the bear so to speak...Or maybe poking a snake.
"Please." Still only one word.
Harry sighed out but smiled none the less, Snape was one of the only ones who still treated him like he used to. Before he defeated Voldy, but still he wished the older man would drop his attitude now that the war was done. He wondered what the man behind the mask was like, who he was and for some reason he wanted to understand why he smelled so damn good.
Harry made them both a bowl, floating them behind him as he carried a tray of tea to the table. Snapes eyes looked on in wonder at the site before him, when did Harry learn wandless magic?
"When did you learn to do that?" Snape pointed to the floating tray.
"While on the run, I practiced pretty hard." Harry said with a big grin.
"Don't look so smug Mister Potter, you forget I can still beat you in most every thing." Snape snapped out, looking all the more like his old self even in his night clothes.
"I am sure you could sir." Harry said as he sat down at the table trying hard not to fight with the man before him.
"Was that sarcasm Mister Potter?" Snape looked sharply at Harry, making the other man feel less like the man he was and more like the first year he used to be.
"No, it was clearly me being the bigger person at that moment. Seeing as I did defeat a dark lord after coming back from the dead, oh and you know fighting off the death eaters that still find me." Harry snapped picking up his bowl and bread before leaving the kitchen to go to the study, he refused to fight with Snape he was fare to tired for that. Not to mention he wasn't sure he could hold his anger the right way, he sighed as he sat down in his desk chair opening a book on werewolf's.
"You know walking away like that was a rather childish move on your part Mister Potter." Snape said from the door way, Harry had, had enough of his snarky attitude so he used his magic to slam the door shut."Real damn mature Potter!" Snape yelled from behind the locked door.
"Well your in my home acting like a child who cant get his way, your pushing me to my breaking point and I'd rather like not to rip your face off with my teeth if that's okay with you." Harry said from his place at the desk, still looking through the book he had just managed to open.
"Like you could." Snape snapped that was all Harry could take the wolf with in snapped.
Snape had no idea how he ended on his back with a very angry Harry Potter sitting on top of him, the mans eyes were now glowing gold with anger Harry snarled."You will respect me in my own home Severus, I have done nothing to you except help you get out of being sent to Azkaban. Helped you to walk again even when I was in pain, helped you get your classroom and home fixed up. Payed for most of your bills and taken on the task of restocking your potions supplies, kept the media off your back for months all the while suffering alone with this bullshit I am going through. So tell me what have I not done to make up for all that you've done for me, I died twice watched all of my family leave me I've suffered enough for one life time. Let alone two or three, I'm tired of fighting you of trying to prove to you I'm not my father or your other bullies. So please for the love of Merlin just go away if you cant see me as who I am, the one person in the damn world who sat beside you even without you asking it of me." Harry rolled off the older man laying on the floor stunned into silence, he watched as Harry walked into his study and closed the door.
He heard the sobs of a broken man from behind those doors, the banging of books hitting the walls as the mans magic went out of control in his moment of anguish.
Severus realized his wrong doing in that moment, Harry listing off all the things he's done for the older man made him understand how lonely Harry must have been. He had heard the young man lost quit a few followers due to his support of Severus, not to mentions the boys young love. The weasely girl really stuck it to him, giving Harry only a few options and none of which the boy...No man liked, so Harry did what Harry does best he did it his way and damn the consequences of his actions.
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Slowly after hours of sitting before the door waiting to talk to a calmer Harry Potter, Snape pushed the door opened to find the room in diss ray."Harry?" He looked at the boy laying on the floor, and sighed seeing that he had passed out with tears still leaking from his eyes.
"What!?" Snapped out Harry, making the older man jump slightly.
"Thought you were asleep." Snape Said.
"Yeah, I was." Harry said sitting up whipping his face free of tears.
-Sigh- "Harry you must understand why I act the way I do-"
"Just stop alright, I've had enough of you and the others...Just leave me alone." Harry snapped out making his way to the back of the room, siting on a couch that was placed in there for his book loving friend who no longer came around." I just-I cant do this any more." Harry sighed out or perhaps that was a sob, Snape couldn't help but follow Harry to the couch he sat down next to the boy.
"I do admit to you that I've been a tad more rough, but I must tell you its not because I see you as your father more to do with the fact that I felt like a child around you, all those times you helped me to the loo. I am sorry, Harry. I shouldn't be taking old emotions out on you, and your right you've dealt with enough bad things in your life. Why are none of your friends here Harry? Surely there must be someone who stuck by your side, as you had always done so with them?" Severus was confused even if Harry had stayed by his side, why would others run off on there friend? And from what Snape heard the boy showed the whole Wizarding world his memories, he just couldn't get why they left Harry Potter behind.
"I was attacked not to long after the war was over, my temper toward people who talked poorly of you was short and explosive. I tried hard so hard to control it, and to not let anyone know of my new secret. They...They accused me of being in love with you." Harry laughed but the sob that broke out got Severus's attention, he looked at the broken man before him with questioning eyes." Guess they were a tad right, I do love you or well the wolf inside does. He refused to leave your side, Remus told me once the his wolf knew his mate before he did. I never understood what he meant tell I got back from my attack and had Poppy heal me up, she's the only one who knows this stuff about me and the wolf." Harry looked defeated at the moment, he stood and started to pass the room.
"You have no idea what it was like to go over your whole life in your head to figure out what you were, what you wanted. It was the first time in my life Sev, the first time I was aloud to think and feel my own feelings and thoughts. And I was scared Poppy helped a lot, taking care of you helped. But the others just made me so angry, I almost hurt Ron for telling me I needed to go home and be with his sister. That if I didn't go home and be with my wife to be, that they would stop spending time with me tell I got my head on right." Harry growled a real growl from the deep depth of his being.
"I snapped at him told him off, that led to Herms leaving to since they are together. I've had no one but Poppy, Kreacher and to my utter surprise Draco. To talk to about this, the poor guy needed friends needed someone to believe in him. And who was I not to help him, not to give him the chance to have a normal life. He was pushed into all this damn it how can people think that it was his fault, look at who his father is.-Sigh- Sev, I really tried hard to handle all this alone with very few people to help me. But then you come along and dredge up my past, and make me feel like a first year again." Harry growled but Severus was no longer afraid of Harry, not after Harry told him he loved him. Or the wolf loved him, as much as that confused him Harry wouldn't hurt him.
"I'm not a child anymore I'm eighteen, I've killed, I've fought in a war and won. I've battled after the war fighting for my life, I've had almost everything ripped from my life. I've looked death in the face and was told I was not done here yet, tell me Severus do you still see me as a child because I have not been one since my uncle beat me at the age of three!" Harry snapped his mouth shut at the admission of abuse, and this got Snape standing and pushing the boy back into the wall.
"You will tell me what that muggle did to you." Snape demanded in his to calm voice.
"I-I, its in the past I've moved on." Harry sighed out.
Snape banged his hand into the wall next to Harry's head,"you will tell me right now." Snape was glaring at Harry wanting the answers he seeks, Harry shook his head. But the wolf with in begged him to comply with its mate, to tell him of what his past was like."Please Harry." Severus whispered this close to the young mans ear making Harry shiver, he could smell that damn sent that drove his wolf nuts. Making him whimper with the need to give the older man anything he asked for, this was not fair damn it.
"Can we talk in the morning when I've slept and my body doesn't feel like it was jumped on by a troll?" Harry asked with a breathless sigh as the scent of the other man was becoming to powerful to resist, he was feeling hot and his limbs wanted to reach out and touch the older man.
"No, we talk now." Snape just wouldn't let it go and Harry was losing the battle of wills.
"Please." Harry's breathing was becoming faster, hot and heavy on the older mans neck.
"No, tell me." Severus wanted to know what happened to Harry and he wanted his answers now, he was a stubborn man after all.
What he didn't expect was for Harry to shove him on to the couch and kiss him, to hot and heavy that his heart skipped a beat. That was something that he had never had happen before, unlike other wizards his age Severus had never been with another person. Not even as a teen, he had managed to avoid the rapes and or forcing himself onto other through out the war. He always had ways of getting out of it, saying he was needed else were and had no time for the pleasures of the skin.
Having Harry rutting against him was doing things to his body the older male didn't expect and he almost gave into the heated desire, he almost let himself go with the flow of it all. But this was Harry Potter the boy who lived...The damn brat who killed his ex master, the strong most powerful person he had ever met. Not that he would tell him that, or maybe he should...his mind was starting to get hazy and he was starting to enjoy Harry's tongue in his mouth a little to much, Snape refused to do this so he pushed Harry to get off him. But the boy was so much strong with his wolf side taking over that Snape had no way out, other then to plead with the wolf with in Harry to let him free.
"Harry, please you must release me." He whispered and in that second the wolf and Harry sat back in a blink of an eye, Harry looked red faced and very sorry."Its alright Harry, you did nothing wrong I pushed you when I should have listened. The wolf with in you was holding back for as long as he could, we will talk in the morning." He looked at Harry who's head had dropped to his chest, he looked defeated.
"You'll be gone, I over stepped like I always do. You'll be gone before I wake, like everyone else." Harry said as he walked away, this surprised Severus to the core of his being. He didn't react in time, so when he finally got the ability to speak again Harry was already gone.
"Damn it." Snape sighed, he would be here for Harry when he woke up he would not leave the man in his time of need. But Snape needed to think, think on the kiss the feeling of the other man above him. Harry's wolf wanted him, desired him as its mate had already claimed him. He had no way of getting out of this, Harry new this and so did he. Severus walked up the stairs to his room and got into bed he would sleep on this, hoping with everything that he was that he would except his fate by the time morning came.
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Harry awake to the smell of Jasmine tea, honey bread, and ham. Oh how his stomach was growling from hunger, he rushed to get out of bed not thinking of his state of dress. He rushed down the stairs and into the kitchen were he found a nicely dressed potions master cooking food, he was slightly confused about this not thinking he would see the other person again. His wolf on the other hand growled with want, he wanted Harry to drag the man before him to the table and take him. Make the man his, mark him as his mate for life.
"You might want to put some pants on Harry, or do you plan to eat your breakfast naked?" Severus chuckled...Harry looked at the man wided eyed, and mouth gaping.
"You laughed." Harry said with a blush, as his body reacted to that deep smooth laugh.
"I think you were right I need to stop acting as if your a first year and see you as the man you've clearly become over the years, but really Harry you might want to put something on. As much as I like the view before me I don't think either of us are ready for that kind of commitment, besides I'm rather hungry." Severus chuckled at the blush on Harry's face, but saw when Harry understood what he had just said.
"You-you want me?" Harry sobbed out, he never thought that would be the out come.
"I might, but we both know that your wolf desires me...The question is do you the human side want me, and do I want you. Its going to take time Harry a lot of time before we can both answer those important questions, I understand your wolfs desire but I am asking you and it to please be patient with me and wait." Severus had his back to Harry as he had spoke those words, trying his hardest not to stair at Harry's obvious erection.
"I can do that, we can talk. Actually get to know one another, I-I know you want to learn of my past with my muggle family. but I need a promise from you before I can speak of it, I need you not to harm them Sev. Please." Harry begged the older man, not wanting to see him arrested for hurting muggles on his behalf.
"If it would make you happy...I will not harm your muggle family, no matter how much I want to I promise you I will not touch or use magic on them." Severus sighed out facing the very naked Harry Potter to make a point clear, he would listen and that was all.
"Thank you...Kreacher, could you bring me my pants and a shirt." Harry called out seconds later pants and one of Harry's over sized hand me down shirts were sitting on the stool, Harry made quick work of putting them on.
"What no under pants?" Severus drawled out.
"Ha, no. I feel confined in them, it was never like that before I got bitten." Harry laughed out, as he sat at the table his eyes roamed over the older man, his wolf sighed with contentment.
"Well, I don't really like wearing them either. But its always better to, just encase someone pulls a prank. Learned that the hard way back in school with your dad, he and his friends never did leave my pants on. Never really understood the need to de-pant's me, it always flustered your mother." Severus said with a hint of sadness in his voice, his eyes meeting Harry's as they both tucked in.
"They would roll in their graves if they hear me admit this to you, but it was because someone liked you. Not my father of course but the one that did the pantsing the most, yeah he was a fan of yours." Harry laughed out at the look on the older mans face.
"Oh god Black you bastard." He growled out, with a light laugh.
"Yeah, he once told me he hated mom for a month because she pecked you on the cheek." Harry smiled at the memory of him sitting with his godfather talking of his family, he missed that man.
"Harry, there might be a way to get him out of the Vail. But I've not found it yet, if I do, do you want me to bring him back?" Severus hadn't told anyone of his plans but he wanted to bring back one person for Harry to have as family, Harry looked at him with wide eyes but they saddened in a second.
"No, please don't. He's happy were he's at, he loves being with mom and dad again. Not to mention he's with Remus, they can pull pranks on Albus." Harry sighed out, his smile was soft and sad but genuine.
"I...I thought maybe you would want someone here for you, a family member." Severus looked mildly alarmed.
"I do, but they cant be here Sev. Their time has passed and I have to move on, even if I don't want to. Thank you, thank you so much for the offer." Harry got up from his place but knelled near Severus, he put his hand on the other mans and squeezed it gently.
Severus looked into Harry's eyes seeing how honest his eyes were how trusting Harry looked, he couldn't understand what cam over him as he leaned down and kissed those lush lips. The moan that excaped both men was enough to make Harry push forward, he wanted to rip Sevs clothes off. But he stopped pulled back and looked into his mates eyes, they both new they had to stop but neither wanted to. Harry made the move to sit down, he closed his legs and bit down on his lip.
"That was intense." He breathed out after a moments time.
"Yes...I am sorry I shouldn't have...but it felt so...-sigh-...It was intense wasn't it?" Sev breathed out admitting defeat, he wanted it again that intense feeling of heat boiling over the edge into passion.
"Yes." Harry coughed and looked at his still warm food, he breathed in filling his lungs fool of the smell of food and the over whelming smell of his mate."So what was it like to grow up with my mom around?" He started to eat changing the subject something the older man was grateful for, he nodded as he ate a few bites before answering.
"It was amazing, your mother was truly one of a kind Harry." And so Sev told Harry a few stories of how they would get back at his father for the things done to Sev, how Black would yell at James for being in love with a fool...Many things that made each laugh or want to cry, it was good...No great talking to Harry about everything, he was finally free to tell someone of his past.
The past he was so afraid of telling anyone of, that he hide behind walls and masks but with Harry he didn't have to. The young man would except him for everything he was and still want to be near him, because even though Harry was only eighteen. He had gone through just as much or more so then Severus himself, and he was thrilled to finally say all the things he always wanted to say.
AN: So first chapter of my first ever Snarry, please review but do be kind I don't have a beta tester.
Yes, I will have Herms in the story soon. Not sure how that will turn out but I was thinking of a Draco/Hermione, or at least have them as friends...Well see.
Well until next time.