My Best
By: Kanae Furumiya

**MEMO**

So, originally this story was supposed
to have a lot of... Adult content,
but I don't know if I'll leave that in here.
If I do,
I'll clearly mark it with a before
and after it's completely over,
so that it can be avoided if you want.

**PROLOGUE**

It was midnight, and I was laying on my back,
I could hear my heartbearting loud.
I could feel it. Feel in my chest,
like it was waiting to burst right out of me.
Thinking back to when I first moved here,
I never thought things would turn out this way.

When my father got married,
our family got bigger.
I got 13 brothers, and a new mother.
But she was always over seas, so in the end,
I was left staying in the same house as my brothers.
They're nice, and they're fun to be around.

And that still hasn't changed.
No matter how I think about it, they're still
kind to me, and I have so much fun with them.
But... Then... That time...

"Tsubaki..."

My voice was only in a whisper.
I couldn't say any more. Even though it's been
a while, I can't say it without pausing.

'He... My lips...'

It was so sudden to me then.
Tsubaki kissing me. My brother.
But, not by blood. None of them were really
related by blood, so...

Is it still wrong?

I can't tell.

But my chest hurts when I think about it.
Part of me... Even though I rejected him...
I didn't want to, but, I thought it was right.
Because... In reality...
The truth was, is, that I didn't really
want to reject anyone.

Natsume. Iori. Tsubaki. Azusa. Yusuke. Futo.
Everyone.

Even though I can't admit it, even though I can't
say it outloud, I have the same feelings for them all.

I sighed, rolling on my side and grabbing my pillow.
'What am I suppose to do...' I thought to myself.
'I can't just keep letting this go on...'

When I told everyone I was rejecting them,
they all said that it didn't change how it made them feel
about me, and that they all still had feelings for me.
Part of me was really happy to hear that from them,
and the other part was sad, because I desperately,
desperately wanted to be with every one of them...

But that's impossible for one person.

... Right?