Unloved
Well, I've done it. I've taken the whole bottle of pills. I took me awhile to do it but I did it. The only thing I wish is that I could see everyone's face as they find me in my dorm, dead. Knowing my so-called "friends", it'll probably be a day or two before they even start to wonder where I am. They never want to be with me anymore. Of course, who can blame them? I'm annoying and always trying to get people to do things they don't want to do. I just wish I was loved. I've never been loved by any of my friends, not one. Sure, I had a boyfriend, but he didn't love me. He just saw me as a sex object. I was just so desperate to be held that I did anything he wanted. But he threw me away like a piece of filth anyway. There is one boy, no, one man I could be with. He always been good to me, always. But now even he has been keeping his distance from me. Oh look, here he is now, in my doorway. He just picked up the bottle that used to be filled with prescription pills. Ha! He's asking me what I did.
"Isn't it obvious?" I ask trying to stand up. I can't. In fact, I can barely hold my head up. My vision is getting blurry too. I hurt so much. Is this what death is all about? Pain? Maybe I made a mistake. But it's too late now. Tears are runnig freely down my face as I start to give myself up. I feel his arms go around my waist from the back and his fists come together as he lifts me up to a standing position. I can't help him. I'm completely limp. No matter how strong someone is, it's hard to pick up a limp body. He ramming his fists in my stomech. So much pain! Why is he doing this to me? Can't he see that I'm suffering enough? I start to vomit. I see what he's doing now. I continue to vomit and see the pills coming out of me. There's nothing left in me. He picks me up in his arms and runs to the infirmary. I realize what had almost happened. I attempted suicide. Thank God he was here for me! He runs into the infirmary and places me on a bed. He says the words I've been wanting to hear for years.
"I love you Selphie."
"I love you too Zell." I say as he brings my head up to kiss me.
Well, I've done it. I've taken the whole bottle of pills. I took me awhile to do it but I did it. The only thing I wish is that I could see everyone's face as they find me in my dorm, dead. Knowing my so-called "friends", it'll probably be a day or two before they even start to wonder where I am. They never want to be with me anymore. Of course, who can blame them? I'm annoying and always trying to get people to do things they don't want to do. I just wish I was loved. I've never been loved by any of my friends, not one. Sure, I had a boyfriend, but he didn't love me. He just saw me as a sex object. I was just so desperate to be held that I did anything he wanted. But he threw me away like a piece of filth anyway. There is one boy, no, one man I could be with. He always been good to me, always. But now even he has been keeping his distance from me. Oh look, here he is now, in my doorway. He just picked up the bottle that used to be filled with prescription pills. Ha! He's asking me what I did.
"Isn't it obvious?" I ask trying to stand up. I can't. In fact, I can barely hold my head up. My vision is getting blurry too. I hurt so much. Is this what death is all about? Pain? Maybe I made a mistake. But it's too late now. Tears are runnig freely down my face as I start to give myself up. I feel his arms go around my waist from the back and his fists come together as he lifts me up to a standing position. I can't help him. I'm completely limp. No matter how strong someone is, it's hard to pick up a limp body. He ramming his fists in my stomech. So much pain! Why is he doing this to me? Can't he see that I'm suffering enough? I start to vomit. I see what he's doing now. I continue to vomit and see the pills coming out of me. There's nothing left in me. He picks me up in his arms and runs to the infirmary. I realize what had almost happened. I attempted suicide. Thank God he was here for me! He runs into the infirmary and places me on a bed. He says the words I've been wanting to hear for years.
"I love you Selphie."
"I love you too Zell." I say as he brings my head up to kiss me.