It's been awhile and I haven't updated in a long time so… Since an Internet angel has finally graced me with their presents, here's a little something from me.
Call My Name
"Mikayla"
"Mitch?" I looked around the dark room, but saw no one. I woke up into another sad day; and the only reason why I know that is because I haven't heard you call my name out yet. The spot beside me is missing your sleeping form but still leaves the indication that you were there once before. My eyes can't help but close to keep these tears from falling again. You whispered to me to trust you and I wanted to with all of me, but I knew this would happen. I believed every last word you said, but now look at us. I'm here and you're gone. I didn't mean to push you away, its just I didn't ever want to get hurt again. I know you told me to trust you and I said I couldn't, but I didn't want to feel this way if you ever left me. But now… I sit here confused. I think deep down you believed I trusted you and the truth is part of me did… but I guess one day you didn't believe me and now we're apart. Not many good things happened between us, but I know that the time I spent with you was one I could never forget. As much as we both wanted this to work, something kept telling me
'It's gonna be over'
And instead of listening to the voice I now wish I could hear call out my name; I listened to the tragic future I could've avoided if I just gave into you. I laid myself back down on the bed and let my eyes close.
"Kayla baby, wake up."
In seconds I was taken back, back to when I woke up and your lips rested on my ear. You whispered 'I'll never leave you' and at that moment I wish I answered 'I know', but the still broken heart inside of me wouldn't let it happen. You kissed my forehead sadly and turned away from me leaving everything dark again.
"Mikayla"
"Mitchie, please answer me." I yelled opening my eyes again to the dark room and noticed you still weren't there. I tried to fight back the tears, but I couldn't anymore. Everything I've ever kept bottled inside of me ripped through my walls, leaving me so vulnerable. Why couldn't I just trust her completely? Why couldn't I let go of all the hurt in the past?
"Mikayla"
She's gone. She left. She's never coming back.
"Mikayla"
"Mitchie" I cried harder into my pillow leaving everything soaked from all the pain.
"Mikayla"
"Please come back!" my sobs piled out of me so fast that I was dying to catch my breath. I would've changed for her. I would've believed her. She would've never had to question if I trusted her or not. "Just come back to me… please." My sobs became quiet, but tears still poured from eyes. "I trusted you!" I screamed at no one and the sadness returned to me. "Just come back." I whimpered now lying on the damp pillow. I looked to the photo of us and silently letting the tears race down my face, before closing my eyes from this nightmare. It's gonna be over. I repeated to myself. I'll wake up and she'll be beside me. I'll wake up and everything will be okay.
"Mikayla"
I'll wake up to her calling my name.
So this was actually a daydream that I had one day in class when I was listening to this song called "Call My Name" by Morgan Page, which really is quite beautiful. Since I can finally update (for people who are actually still reading my stories), I promise that I'll update at least one chapter of one or more of my stories. I love them, but I have new ideas that I want to get out. Thanks for reading; now all you have to do is click the review button and tell me if it was good or not. Thanks
