Edward POV:
I left her in our forest. I was sure she had believed me and although my heart wasn't beating, it felt like it was going to burst out of my chest. I heard my phone ringing, but I wasn't sure I would have any voice left to answer. I flipped it open and answered "hello." It was Alice. "How did it go?" I closed my eyes and tried to answer. "I'm so sorry Edward. I'll see you when you get here." I closed the phone and began running. I made one last stop by Bella's. I sneaked in through the window and began placing together everything I had given her. The tickets Esme had given her for her birthday, the CD I made. I made a promise to her and I intended on keeping it. I placed everything under her loose floorboard. She wouldn't think to look there because she would believe what I said, "It would be as though I never existed." A pain rushed through me. I knew this was the best thing for her. She would be in pain for a little while, and then she would recover, fall in love again and have the life she deserved. She would grow to be a woman. She would never be a monster like me. I sat on her bed and laid down and drank in her scent that was lying over her pillows. I held them close to me and whispered a goodbye. A real one this time. "Bella… how was I going to spend the rest of eternity without you?" I held on close to the pillow and heard some commotion down stairs. "We've got her Charlie." I sat up. She was safe. She was home. I quickly jumped out the window, took one last look at her room and began to run to my family.
Two years later.
Bella's POV:
"That's great Bells, seems like you're doing great in school!" I smiled and nodded. "Yeah I'm really enjoying it. I never thought I'd end up a doctor!" I held my test results firmly. Trying to hide the pain that still consumed my chest. "Congrats hon, you deserve it." He patted me on the shoulder and walked into the lounge-room. "I was thinking we could order a pizza to celebrate!" Charlie said while grabbing the phone. "Sure." I answered while I was on my way to the stairs. I heard him mutter something about Billy and I wanted to ask about Jacob, but couldn't. "Oh and he said that Jacob is back." I nodded not turning around. Jacob and I stopped talking a year ago. He admitted feelings for me, told me that he loved me. But when I couldn't return those feelings he blamed it on "that bloodsucker!" following that with "He's not coming back Bella! You have to move on!" I could understand his frustration. It wasn't fair and as much as I hated it, I was still waiting for him. I went back to my room and sat on the bed. Jacob said that he couldn't be around me any more. That he couldn't watch me wasting away. I stared outside the window hoping that he would show up. Somehow I got my wish. I saw him looking in. At first he scared me, but I was mostly relieved. "Hi. I heard you were back." Jacob had been in Vancouver for the past ten months. "Can I come in?" I nodded and made room for him to come in. He lost his balance and fell on my floor. "Sorry Bells, I think I broke your floor!" I laughed and put my hand out. "Oh that old thing. Don't worry about it Jake!" He hugged me. This hug was different, it felt forced. "How are you?" "Good, I'm uh I've decided what I want to be!" He stared at me waiting for a response. "A doctor." He smiled and began laughing. "A doctor Bella? You can't stand to be around blood, what are you gunna do when some kid comes in to the hospital with a broken leg and blood is spilled all over him huh?" I sighed and rolled my eyes. "I'm going to specialise in paediatrics. I'm thinking small person, small amount of blood." He laughed again and sat on my bed. I sat next to him. I forgot how much I missed his company.
Charlie knocked on the door and without thinking I told him to come in. His head was down looking at the pizza menu. "Bells they have a pizza special I thought that-" without realising it Jacob had snuck under my bed. "Bella, do you still want pizza?" I nodded "actually dad I was thinking about calling Jacob and inviting him over for dinner you don't mind do you?" His face lit up, like he just won the lottery. "No way kid, I'll get you the phone!" I heard him run downstairs and talk to himself while trying to find out where he put it. "Jacob what are you doing?" He got up and sneaked out the window. "Saving you a phone call." About ten seconds later there was a knock at the door. "Oh hi Jacob, we were just about to call you! How are you kid?"
That night was one of the greatest I had ever had. I knew I wasn't ready to fall in love with Jacob, but that didn't mean I didn't love him. It was midnight before I even knew it and I said my goodbyes to Jacob. "Did you wanna catch up tomorrow?" He asked while flicking his long hair back. "Actually I've got some homework I've gotta catch up on, what about Sunday?" He nodded and kissed me on the cheek. Without thinking I turned my head and I caught the side of his lips. I pulled away slowly trying not to ruin a great night. "You know I'm still waiting for you Bella. Let me know when you're ready." I nodded and we hugged again. As I walked through the house I saw Charlie asleep on the lounge. I grabbed a blanket from the spare room and covered him over. I kissed him on the forehead and turned off the TV. I didn't want to wake him, he looked too comfortable. I grabbed myself a glass of water and headed upstairs. I walked over to my window and heard the floorboard squeak when I walked on it. "Oh Jacob." I put the water down and examined the mess he made of the floorboard. It was starting to stick up now. I pulled it up a little and saw something weird. "What is this?" I pushed the floorboard a little more and it popped out. There was an envelope I recognised it straight away. I opened it and there held the tickets Esme had bought me. They expired a year ago. All of the memories of my birthday party rushed back to me. How Jasper tried to attack me. How I fell and cut my arm up. How Edward- "Stop!" I thought. Just saying his name tore me to shreds. Then I noticed a box. I bought it up to me. It was my car stereo that Emmet and the others had purchased for me. I stood up and stared at the floorboard. These were my birthday presents. He had hidden them from me so that "It would be as though I never existed" I dropped everything at once and suddenly my heart felt the way it did the day he left me.
Edward POV:
"This was a bad decision Alice. I told Bella I wouldn't come back into her life."
Alice didn't answer she just kept driving. "Alice what did you see? What could be so awful that we have to interrupt her life like this?" Again she didn't answer. "Damnit Alice-" "You have no idea how many visions I have seen of her doing things to herself, living without you, without us. I've had enough Edward. This last vision pushed me over the edge and we have to make sure it doesn't become true." She didn't look at me the whole time. "I can't see her Alice. I can't ever look into her eyes and see the hatred that she must have for me. Every minute of my existence since we left has been empty. I can't imagine how much of a fool she-." I stopped myself when I saw the sign I had been dreading. The sign I had missed so much. "Welcome to Forks!" I didn't say another word.
Bella POV:
I had had enough of pain. Jacob was right. He wasn't come back for me. I got in my truck and made my way to La Push. I would tell him I would try, I wouldn't promise. The last thing he deserved was a broken promise. Not after putting me back together the way he did. I was in my truck and started it up. I took a deep breath and told myself "I can do this!" I got to his house in one piece and knocked on the window. It took a couple of tries because he's a deep sleeper, then finally he answered. As usual he wasn't wearing a shirt. This wasn't helping me. I was trying to be sensible. "Bella what are you doing here? It's almost 2 in the morning?" I nodded and with his help climbed through his window. "Bella what's wrong?" What was wrong? I thought to myself. Here was a man that was willing to love me the way I deserved. He stood by me while I was broken and here he was still waiting. He was gorgeous, fun and wonderful. The greatest half human I'd ever known. I sat down on his bed and patted for him to join me. "Bells, please tell me-" it happened without me realising it. I grabbed his face and kissed it. It wasn't like any other kiss. For starters his lips were hot, very hot and he held me tight. Tighter than anyone else ever did. Sensible Bella, you have to do this right. But I was so tired of thinking. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down on top of me. His sighs sounded like those of relief. His lips moved to my neck and it felt incredible. To be wanted. Loved. I pulled him back to my lips and muttered, "I loved you Jacob". He began kissing my neck again and I turned to let him when I saw something outside. "What the?" I jumped up interrupting Jacobs kiss. "Jeez Bella. You almost gave me a heart attack!"
He stared at me wondering what was wrong. "I thought, I thought I saw." I couldn't even mutter his name. "What Bella? What did you see?" I shook my head. "Nothing. I'm sorry Jacob it's late I have to go. Come by and see me on Sunday okay?" He didn't argue. "Okay." He hugged me and kissed my forehead. "Night Bells." I ran to my car and put my head on the wheel. "Breathe Bella." I told myself. When I got home Charlie was still on the lounge. He hadn't moved. When I got upstairs I washed my face and changed into my pyjamas. I walked across the room to my high school yearbook. At the back of the book was a picture of Edward and me. It was taken just before he left. I held it close to my heart. I knew Edward wouldn't return to me. Maybe it was guilt that made me see him at Jacob's window. I started to feel a realisation. I was never going to get over him. I laid down in my bed and held the photo close to my heart. I began wondering where he was when a deep sleep crept up on me.
Edward POV:
"Where are we going Alice?" I asked while we were turning into Bella's street. We sat parked just at the top and Alice told me to move down in the seat so that she wouldn't see me. I did so and still had a million questions that I needed answered. Then I saw her truck go past slowly. She looked exactly the same. Still as beautiful as I remembered. Alice started the car up and we followed her. I didn't realise we were in dangerous waters until I saw the sign for "Welcome to La Push!" "ALICE!" I screamed. "I know Edward. I know. But you love Bella and so do I, we need to do this to help her!" I shook my head. Quietly under my breath I muttered, "This is going to be bad." I folded my arms and ignored the look Alice was giving me. Not only was I coming back to interrupt Bella's life, but now we were breaking the treaty. It wasn't as though Alice would be able to tell us how much trouble we would get in for this, because she didn't see the wolfs at all. We stopped in the shadows and watched as Bella approached the window and knocked on it. It took a few minutes before someone answered. It was a man. He had no shirt on, just pants. Bella took his hand and was inside his bedroom. Was he her new boyfriend? If so what was she doing sneaking out to see him? She was an adult now; she was able to be at his house. Before I knew it I was at the window listening in. The next thing I heard was the man talking to her, she had barely breathed a word. "Bells please tell me-" the man asked. Then I realised that the talking had stopped and they were now kissing. I had to see her. As much as it would rip me apart I had to see her closely. His long arms were wrapped around her she was holding him tightly, as tight as she used to hold me. Her kisses were deep and as she pulled her hands into his hair I looked down. I heard her laying back and suddenly my eyes were glued to her. He began kissing her neck and she pulled him closer and uttered the words "I love you Jacob." I wanted to run in there and break his arms forever thinking they were good enough to hold Bella. I wanted to rip his face apart because he didn't deserve to kiss her. I wanted to rip out his heart because I didn't want to believe that his was joined with hers. But I didn't. This was what I wanted for her. But I couldn't look away. Then something incredible happened. From out of nowhere she looked over to the window and looked at me. She broke the kiss screaming and it sounded as though she didn't believe she saw me. I raced back to the car and didn't say a thing. "You don't want to hear it right now, but you just saved her life." I sat still and watched Bella sit in her car. Luckily she didn't believe she saw me. She drove home and we followed. I told Alice I would meet her at home. She gave me a concerning look and nodded. She knew now was not the time to argue. I sat outside her room and watched as she prepared for bed. I noticed she had torn up the floorboard. A strong feeling of relief and happiness ran through me. She found the gifts. She found them. I watched as she walked over to a book. She took a picture from this book and held it to her chest. Tears were about to fall from her eyes, but out of nowhere she fell asleep. I waited until I knew she was asleep deeply before I crept into her room. I kneeled down next to her bed and watched her. I wanted to put my hands out and touch her, kiss away the pain I had given to her. I wanted to be the one she loved. But the photo she was holding would prove to me that it was too late.
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