I got bored, and I decided to write a Skins oneshot. Hope you guys like it, and reviews are loved 3 :)
I saw the world in a light shade of grey.
Everything moved in a fast blur around me. I was too slow for the world. I couldn't move fast enough.
My mum was a mess. My dad was a mess. My brother was a mess.
But I was the worst of them all.
I loved the things I hate, and hated the things I love.
I was different,
complicated,
afraid.
I was terrified of myself. I was terrified of the people around me. I was terrified of the world.
Everything is fragile. Skin is fragile. Bones are fragile. My heart was fragile.
'He's gone,' Cook's voice rang in my head. 'Dead.'
The world stopped. The people stopped. Time stopped.
Dead.
Dead.
What does it feel like to be dead?
Does it hurt?
Do you cry?
Do you bleed?
I remembered his face. A pretty face filled with confusion; like a beautiful champagne glass with the edges chipped off.
Did he think of Cook? Katie? JJ? Emily? Thomas? Panda?
Or did he think of me?
Did he think about us?
He made me mad.
Insane.
Crazy.
Don't think, Effy. Don't fuckin' think. Don't make this hard.
Just forget.
If you don't remember, it'll go away.
But I needed him.
Because of him, I breathed.
Because of him, I talked.
Because of him, I smiled.
Because of him, I cried.
Because of him, I loved.
'I love you,'
He told me all the time. I believed him. I still do.
He may be gone, but he fixed me.
The stiches would always be in my heart.
What would I do without you?
I'd die.
I dreamed for the first time in a long time that night.
There was a dark hallway.
I ran and ran, but it never ended. I ran for hours, until I reached a mirror.
And when I looked through, I saw a scared little girl, alone once again.