Dear Cloud
By: AngelZephyr
Disclaimer: I don't own Final Fantasy VII so that you know.
^_^
The clock blinked
several times with 12:00 flashing in bright red. He rolled over and looked at
it through blurry eyes. There must have been a black out again. The
black outs were constant, now that it was winter. The frost settling down on
the windowpane only produced a distorted image when one wanted to look out. The
pale snow lay on the ground, undisturbed. Trying to get back to sleep, he
pulled the covers over his head and shut his eyes, although for some reason he
couldn't fall asleep. Something was bothering him. The mini couch nearby wasn't
vacant. Usually, someone was always there and that someone was Tifa. She slept
there to make him feel more at ease after Aerith's death. He wasn't at all
comfortable being alone at night. Sure, it sounded like he was some sort of
child but his mind kept replaying the image of Aerith falling from Sephiroth's
sword.
Getting up from bed, he padded outside the room and into the
main room, which was the bar of the Seventh Heaven. Making himself a drink, he
sat down on one of the tables and sighed. He ignored the chill that bit into
his skin; it was cold after all. After a couple more sips, his eyes trailed
down to the floor where a piece of paper was crumpled up. He unfolded the
creases and began reading, reading out loud as he got further into the letter.
Dear Cloud,
You'll probably hate me by the time you
get this. From
the
very beginning I didn't want you to get this letter and
even
if you did find it, I didn't want you to read it. Why?
Because
I left without reason. It sounds silly, really.
I've
been in love with you for who knows how long and here I
am
saying "goodbye". I've followed you all this time, trying
my
best to support you any way I could have. But through all
my
time in doing so, your heart still seemed to belong to someone
special
other than me. You know who it is. Everyone knew,
actually.
Isn't it funny? Everyone knew except you…maybe
because
you were ignorant or maybe because you continued to wallow
in
sadness after her death. It was hard…following you around
like
a sick puppy. It really was. I never knew that this day would
come,
when I would quit following you. I always thought that I
would
be there for you no matter what…I promised myself I would
and
yet, I didn't fulfill it. Like you almost. You failed to keep
your
promise in saving me, then again, you did your part of
saving
and I did say I wanted to "experience that at least once",
remember?
Why I'm leaving you…I don't know why.
Probably because
I
want to build a new life? Maybe because I pity myself for not being
able
to capture your heart like I wanted to. It sounds selfish of me
doesn't
it? It was………………………….love you so much.
Love
always,
Tifa Lockhart
From what it looked like, she skipped a few parts of
the last sentence. He sighed as he took a last gulp from his drink. It was all
his fault that he hadn't paid too much attention to her. She had never sounded
selfish…ever. She had a reason to leave, a reason to leave him. Because he was
a stupid bastard, that's why. Maybe she didn't feel like telling that to him,
in fear of hurting his feelings. He grunted and headed back to his room, the
letter still in his hand. Hn…well Tifa, you did.
He tucked
the piece of paper with the neat penmanship under his pillow and fell asleep, a
tear slipping down his face and falling soundlessly onto the pillow underneath
his head.
Author's
Notes: Ack! What have I done? Hmph…I'm mean, huh? Actually, I've been in a
pissy mood lately because of a schedule change at our school. I mean to put
Tifa in Cloud's shoes but what the heck. The spiky boy deserved it. I mean,
after all, he did pay most of his attention to Aerith. Hah! Not that I mind, of
course. It's just the way the game works. Honestly, though, Tifa's strong
enough to leave him behind. She's got will-power! ^^;; Yes, I may have been
eating too much candy…the letter turned out pretty vague but I felt like
writing this and pour out all my anger on...well…Cloud. And besides, my
feelings ARE pretty vague. Anyway, like it?