Disclaimer: Original story and characters belong to Kishimoto. If they were mine wellllll... e.e

Every time. Time after time. The same thing happened.

Ba-bump.

Shut up stupid heart, leave me alone.

Ba-bump.

Didn't it listen? Of course not how could it when that guy is sitting right next to me. I'm in between them both...

Ba-bump ba-bump

Oh how it ached why wouldn't stop, just end it all kill me no-

"Oi, usuratonkachi! Have you been listening to a word that I've said?"

My hand shot up to my skull, massaging the throbbing mass that was my head because of a certain someone. "Ouch! What was that for!?" I was glad to feel angry, glad I could forget and focus on my real love. "I do know that I want to ask Sakura out on a date!"

"Hell no, idoit!" She screeched at my crest fallen face.

"I asked you if you wanted to spar, since we've waited all day for Kakashi to show up." That certain someone asked.

"..." I considered it, face flushing, but not from embaressment. It was because I was staring up at his face. You could get lost in those eyes, dark pools of nothing. Depths of unimaginable cold emotion and sadness. Flickers of anger flitted into those beautiful eyes as I was smacked for a third time. "Baka! Don't you listen? I just asked you something again, now hurry up and answer me before I decide to leave."

"You can train with me Sasuke!" Sakura giggled practically pawing at him with her eyes, tracing his face, his neck, those legs... The hidden bits of skin that could be revealed by stripping him of cl- Stop it.

"Forget it, Sakura you're too weak, even Naruto has a difficulties keeping up. He's a much closer to my level, now if he would just answer and stop going off into lala land!" Sasuke growled, fastening his fist to the front of my jacket, lifting me off the ground. Angered by his words, calling Sakura weak, and damn near saying I am too I plastered a smug smirk on my face, "So the ice princess does have a short temper! Well yeah sure I'll fight you, so I can whip your pansy ass."

Unclentching my jacket Sasuke snorted, obviously enraged at my comment, but nothing showed on his face as he turned and started waking into the middle of the field. Sakura disappointed, and emotionally crushed for the day stood up to get a good nights sleep refreshed for another verbal bashing tomorrow. "Well... See you tomorrow Sasuke? Bai!" She waved and set off for home.

I loved Sakura I truly did, but I hated her for looking over me, hated that I was crap compared to the guy that treated her like it. I hated her for leaving me here with him. But I loved her, oh how I loved her all the same.

"Are we going to fight or are you going to stand there all day?" That guy called out. And with nothing to distract me, my heart took up the level of aching, my face red hot once more. I covered it up with shouting, as if I was mad. "Sure I'm ready! You just start and I'll have you on the ground in three seconds flat begging for me to stop!"

"..." Sasuke stared at me wide eyed, then shrugged lowering himself into a stance, one I've see oh so many times before. "Whatever, not what I wanted to hear. But come over here so we can start."

My mind sputtered as it thought over that sentence. Shit.

Ba bump.

Stop it... I lowered myself as well, springing at him with full force behind my fist, and it deliberatly missed. How could I scar that face? I'm sure I came off as weak, but I just couldn't touch him. My eyes were still staring as a fist connected to my side. "Idoit you left yourself wide open. You're worse than yesterday."

Ba bump.

"Yeah well..." I winced touching my side gingerly, amazed that he hadn't kept attacking me... Was that worry that I hear in his voice?

Ba bump.

"I won't fight you if you're not feeling well." He stated eyes narrowing at me, fists dropping to his sides. I retorted, "Since when has the mighty Uchiha let caring into his vocabulary, lets continue! I'm fine!" I growled trying to land a punch and staying my hand again, missing by centimeters.

Ba bump ba bump ba bump.

I didn't still my hand that time... I thought I did but I didn't. He had caught my hand. My heart started racing, my face turned red as an arm hooked itself around my waist pulling me in... Pulling me closer. And the same thing that happened yesterday happened again, this time different. Last time and the time before that it was accident. In the classroom when I was pushed it was accident. When I fell out of the tree yesterday it was accident...

My heart ached, how could it be so cruel. It was as cruel and as depthless as those eyes... That face... Those lips, that took advantage of me. How could they both confuse me like this. Again I hated Sakura for leaving me, leaving me with him.

I wrenched myself away, growling spitting and scrubbing my lips as if the devil had touched them. "What the hell!? What the hell Uchiha!?"

Sasuke blinked, then touched his lips, shaking his head, murmuring, "I don't know..."

"I'm going home..." I was visibly drained. I couldn't deal with this now. I could never deal with it. I left him standing there, staring, for another sleepless night. Him. Her. Him. Her. Him or Her. It had to be her. Why was that bastard doing this... He just wanted to prove his superiority right? Right...?

I stared blankly up at my ceiling, that awful white. It was dreadful, because when night fell it lost all of its luster and became a black nothingness. Like those eyes. Shut up.

"Sasuke..."

My comrade, my friend. So why did he kiss me? Shut up. I slide my hand over my eyes, to block that horrible looming ceiling from my view, least my heart speed up again. Least I work myself up again. My muscles were tired from punching relentlessly at a new practice dummy, sure it was the Kakashi doll I had made back in my early days of training, but in my eyes... In my hateful eyes it was Sasuke. After the training session I didn't have the energy to clean up the spilled stuffing, the mess all over the room...

I sighed, trying for focus my attention on my wondrous Sakura. That beautiful pink haired girl that never returned my feelings. A sharp pain entered my heart.

"Nh..."

Before I realized it, I spent my time sobbing myself asleep... "Sa..."