Hi! This is ShinigamixGirl. Thanks for reading this fiction. This is a songfic with the song One Step Closer by Linkin Park. I believe you would be able to understand it better if you were reading the story and listening to the song at the same time, so here. www dot youtube dot com slash watch?v4qlCC1GOwFw . Please read and reveiw. I would appreciate it much if you did. :D I would love to hear your opinions, please try to keep them civil.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yami No Matseuei or this is song called One Step Closer.
I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
The world was spinning and everything was a blur. The green eyes, gray tables, white wall, and blue chairs seem to blur together. The world was flying by like he was sitting in a race car that was zooming past everything. Hisoka was just yelling at me for not doing my share of the work...again. Sometimes I wish he would just shut up. I want to wrap my hands around the thin neck and make him stop breathing. I bet if Hisoka could hear my thoughts he would be shocked. I shouldn't be thinking about this. Everything goes by faster and faster the more I think it about it. This makes no sense...I cannot take this anymore. Everything is so confusing. I feel like something is rising up, something dark and sinister is trying to claw its way up. I have felt like this before. A long time ago...but no matter how I try to remember I can't remember.
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
"Tsuzuki! Tszuki! Are you listening to me?" I can hear Hisoka calling me.
"Tsuzuki...Are you alright?" He is starting to sound very worried and confused. I can feel the something trying to come out more and more. It's very painful like someone is clawing through my mind. The dark presence is so strong; it is hard to keep it down. As Hisoka calls me louder and stronger I feel the presence getting stronger.
"Hisoka shut up!" I shout at him, I need him to be quiet so the presence won't get stronger... I can hear a sharp intake of breath as he steps backwards. I want to say sorry but I can't get around to saying it.
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before...
I am so confused, why is everything so blurry? My knees hit the floor hard; my brain does not register the pain. Why why is this happening again...again? When did this happen before? My brain hurts and everything gets a lot blurrier. All the colors has blended into something that cannot be told apart. All of a sudden I see images flashing...images of me covered in dark red blood. My eyes are wide with rage and my mouth is open and I seem to be screaming. There are a lot of dead bodies everywhere. Some are missing their heads while others have holes in their bodies. There is blood coming out of the corner of their mouths. Eyes wide open in fear of something of which I can guess was me. If I wasn't so confused and scared I would have been throwing up at the grotesque site. I can barely register myself growling.
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Break break break break break
All of a sudden I can hear the door of the office slamming open. Someone is calling me, no there are four voices. I try to decipher who the voices belong to. Then it registers, its Tatsumi, Watari, Hisoka, and Kanoe. When did they come? Must have been when I was thinking and Hisoka ran out to get them. The...thing...presence...monster within me is clawing its way out faster and it seems to be getting stronger and stronger the more they keep on calling me. I want them to shut up; I want to tell them to shut up. I finally get my mouth moving again.
"SHUT UP!" Maybe they were in shock because they all instantly shut up.
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up shut up shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up shut up shut up shut up
I'm about to break
I force, shove the monster back down. It seems to be working because the monster seems to go back down deep deep into my mind. However deep I bury the monster I cannot seal it properly. The Monster is still fighting back trying to break free and regain freedom again, but my vision and hearing clears up. Everything is clearer, the colors seem to separate again. I can see Kanoe, Tatsumi, Hisoka, and Watari standing in front of me. They all have worry etched all over their face. I get up off the floor and sit in a sofa banged against the wall. I finally lift my head and glare at all four of them. They all flinch at the glare and seem to kind of shrink back, even the fearless Tatsumi. When did I get so cynical?
"Kanoe...why is this happening?" I ask him.
"Why is what happening?" Kanoe is shifting around a bit, he seem nervous as his says this.
"Bull Shit!" I shout making all of them more scared of me.
"Why is this happening? Explain to me! Has this happened before?!?"
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break.
The wheels in Kanoe's brain is turning as he is thinking of an answer to my question. Why won't he answer me? Does this mean it has happened before? Then all of a sudden a lot of images come flooding to my mind. Images of my killing people, ripping their heads off, blasting a hole through them. You name the most gruesome way to kill someone I did. Then I remember...the dark presence, the monster, the evil, sinister, and evil thing is...me. Then I black out, but before the whole world goes black I hear a scream. It sounds like Hisoka.
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