Chapter 1: why?
That little flicker of the light on his glasses makes my heart pound. I try not to show any feelings for him. But it's hard not too! My name is Samantha but every on calls me Sam. And that cute boy doing his monologues, his name is Caleb. We have drama class together, every day after school, except for Wednesdays and Fridays. He is just that person that I would fall for. That anyone could fall for. I find him just my type.
But, Friday comes along in a breeze. It was funny how fast it came. My weeks always feel reversed. Fridays feel like Mondays. I walk over to Emma, a good friend of mine. Emma and I sat together every morning for the past 3 years. The best 3 years of my life. We also have had classes together.
Looking at Emma, her hair is a wavy beautiful, brown mess. It goes past down her shoulders. But looking at me I have short boy hair. Just like Tegan and Sara or the drummer of neon trees. I sit down on the right side of Emma. I know Caleb always is 2 tables away from where we sit, toward the left.
"Sam, was J on the bus?" Emma asks me while she looking for him. Emma has had the biggest crush on this guy named Joshua. She nicknamed him J; that's like her Morse code. "Yes!" I say super loud as the bell rings right after I say that. "Was that the 5 minute bell?" I ask. Emma closes the computer that she was using and says, "I think it was. I have to go to class. Don't want to be late like last time." She waves good bye. I wave back and grab my back pack.
Throughout the day I think of the story that I am writing. Yeah, I write stories in my free time. It's fun to put all my energy toward one thing. And it helps to put my anger into my characters, not real people. I slowly walk to my 1th period.
"Hey fatty girl, are you still writing your kiddie stories?" I suddenly hear from a far distance. I quickly run as I know that it is Shareta. Shareta… My worst enemy; She has been a bully to me as long as we met. That was back in elementary school. I have no courage to stand up to her. I still don't. "Where do you think you're going? To run and hide?" She says starting to laugh evilly.
I finally reach the class room. That was a close one. She was right behind me. It's the first day of 2nd semester, so I got different classes from last semester. "Hey, I found an empty seat over here." I hear a friendly voice say to me. "Oh, cool. I get to seat next to you." It was Garek. Garek has been in drama a year more the Caleb.
"I saw you get pushed around by that one girl." Garek whispers over to me. We both aren't paying any attention in class. I do that sometimes, but I still get A's. "Yeah, what about it? She has been doing that for years." I tell him. He looks at me. "For years! Do you want me to do something? Something like me beating her up?" He asks. "Yes please!" I reply gleefully.
Lunch comes along and Garek and I try to find Shareta. "There she is. I got this from here." Garek says going up to her. He tells Shareta everything he knows and tells her to stop bulling me. She starts to laugh at him and walks to her evil little friends. I start to get all teary eyed. "Whoa, don't cry on my watch!" Garek says running to give me a big hug. He knows that hugs fix everything with me.
After calming down enough that I could talk, I manage to say, "I love you Garek. I always have." Garek looks down at me; he is way taller than me. "Do you mean… like… a friend?" He asks. I look up at him, giving him a smile. "Garek, yes just as a friend. Not romantically." I tell him. He hugs me a little tighter.
I get home from the bus and a tiring day of school. I naturally check my phone to see if anything happened. I see I have an email from Emma. She does not have a phone yet. Her mom does not want her to. The email reads:
Hey Sam,
Want to come over tomorrow? My mom said it would be great. Email me the time for it.
~Emma 3
I send an email to her telling what times is good for me. I sit down staring at the blank TV. Out of nowhere, Brett texts me saying "Can I come over?" Of course, I say no because I have things to do. But it seemed out of the ordinary. Brett is my ex-boyfriend. I just hate him. Within what feels like 5 seconds the doorbell rings. He's already here? I answer the door and yep, it's Brett. "Yeah, I thought you would not care me coming over." Brett says scratching the back of his neck.
"So, what did you want to do?" I ask greeting him in to the living room. "I was thinking of a movie." Brett says walking in and siting on the couch. "Sure. Pick a movie. The remote is over there." I say making some popcorn. Brett finds this movie that we both think is cheesy and stupid.
I sit right next to him with the popcorn in my arms. "What movie did you pick?" I ask just to tease him. I know what movie it was. He sighs and puts his arm around me almost making me spill the popcorn bowl.
Half way through the movie, I nearly fall asleep in Brett's arms; he's just so comfy. Brett noticed that I was asleep. He leaned his head on mine. "I love you Sam." he whispers silently.
After a while, I feel myself slowly wake up off of Brett. "Hey pumpkin, had a good night sleep?" Brett says to me, kissing my forehead. "Yeah, I guess. I didn't know realize I fell asleep. How long was I out?" I asked him. "Only like the rest of the movie. So, like half an hour." Wow, that long? He must be comfy! A long pause happened. I wanted to tell him something but the words would not come out.
"Brett, I think I am falling for you again. So will you go to tolo with me? Oh, wait was tolo last weekend?" I finally asked him giggling a little. I don't really mean it. There was a silence for a while. He looks disappointed in me for some reason. "Brett? Did you hear me?" I say shaking him. I look at him for a while without any words falling out of my mouth.
"Sam, did you know I have a girlfriend? I do. If I wasn't dating her, I would go for you. I am so sorry. And tolo was last weekend… I think." Brett says hugging me so I would not cry. I get off the couch and look at him. "Are you ok? Did I hurt you feelings?" Brett says standing up and hugging me again. "It's nothing, don't worry about it. I thought I sow a bug." I squeeze him closer to me before I start to cry.