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Lost

Chapter 1

Lost Inspiration

I sat on my mom's bed, watching as she ran back and forth packing her suitcase. She was going out of town for a month. A MONTH!!!!!!!!! She was leaving Seth and me alone while she was going to our great grandmother's house in Nevada. But being alone wasn't the problem for me. The problem was that Seth and I have to go live at the Black's house until she comes back. The Blacks…. Billy and Rachel do not bother me at all, but Jacob …. Is a whole different story. His whole "Bella this, Bella that" attitude got old fast and then it changed to "Reneesme this, Reneesme that." It's too much for a beta to take.

"Leah? Honey? Did you hear me?" my mother's voice appeared in my head.

"Huh? What?" My head jerked up and I looked at her with wide eyes. Was she talking to me this whole time?

"I asked you if you packed your stuff already?" she asked, finally zippering her suitcase. The flowery pattern annoyed my tired eyes as she pulled it off her bed and onto the floor.

"Some of it, yeah. How much do I need to pack? If I run out of stuff I can just come home and get it." It wasn't that big of a deal anyway.

"I want you to have everything you need before I leave, so you don't have to come back and dirty the house while I'm gone." She was worried about the state of her house?? I know Seth and I are slobs, but honestly we are not that bad. A few dirty dishes and empty pizza boxes … and she freaks out.

"You are such a clean freak," I muttered under my breath. I turned my head away from her, so she wouldn't see my face.

"Not everyone can survive through artistic chaos," she whispered loudly back. She did hear me. What was wrong with artistic chaos? My mother pulled her suitcase out the door and down the hall.

"Get your stuff downstairs," she yelled back at me.

I sighed and lay back on her quilt. All the scents of the room floated into my nostrils. My mother's presence was overwhelming, but it still had mixtures of Seth, me and even a little bit of my dad. We all missed him, but Seth and I wouldn't tell mom that we could still smell his scent around the house. Both of us didn't want her to cry anymore. I pushed myself to my feet and walked from the room before I made myself cry.

"Mom, is this really necessary? We can come with you," I moaned in the passenger seat of the car. Seth was practically bouncing up and down in the back seat because he gets to hang out with Jake all month. Jacob Black, his hero!!

"You can't come with me. I am not taking Seth out of school, and you will stay with him," her voice demanded. Her eyes remained on the empty dirt road in front of us. I glared out the window. Damn!! I really was stuck staying there. Even though we are in the same house, it doesn't mean I would have to see Jacob all the time. Only at meal times, at the most. Other than that I could ignore him. That plan could work pretty well. My glare changed into a bright smile. I replayed different versions of my plan until I noticed we were pulling into the driveway. This place was going to be my personal hell for an entire month. … Let the fun begin!!

I waited as both Seth and my mom got out of the car. My eyes caught sight of Jacob's large form standing on the porch. Billy rolled out from the house and down the path to where the car was parked. He immediately started talking to my mother, but I wasn't paying attention to the words they were saying. I was more focused on the paint that was splattered on my jeans, and the possible insanity that was about to set in on me once I got out of the car. I looked up slowly to see he wasn't on the porch but now outside my window. My entire body tensed … since when could he move that fast in human form? I relaxed, and threw a glare at him. What did he want?

"Are you getting out?" Jacob's voice sounded different through the glass, but I ignored him anyway. He pounded his fist on the window as hard as he could without breaking it.

"Go away," I demanded through clenched teeth. He was such an annoying little punk.

"Leah! Get out of the car!!" my mother yelled. Her hands rested on her hips as she gave me the "do it now, or else" look. She was famous for that look. It worked on everyone.

I sighed as I pulled the lock upwards and pushed the door open, hitting Jacob in the process.

"Hey, watch it," he muttered, not taking the full blow from the metal door.

"You shouldn't stand in the way," I sneered back, walking to the trunk of the car. Pushing it open I reached in for my luggage, but the hand that grabbed it first wasn't mine. It was Jacob's. Is he being nice to me? I grunted in annoyance and glared up at him. His brow furrowed in confusion, but he still took the bags out of the trunk. My glare intensified as he walked up the ramp and into the house … with my crap. … The nerve of him. If he breaks any of my art supplies he will be a dead dog walking!!!

"Hey Jake, what are we going to do first?" Seth bounced after him, happily. Ugh!! His blind happiness disgusted me. I reached in and grabbed the bags that were left in the trunk that weren't mom's and followed them in.

Rachel had showed me to the room I would be staying in for the entire month. The walls were painted a light lavender color. It was nice, calming almost. By the scents that were floating around the room I knew this was Rebecca's old room. Porcelain dolls lined one of the bureaus. I was going to have to sleep with my back towards them. …. Dolls at night always creeped me out, especially after I saw that Chuckie movie. You never know when they would come alive and try to kill you. Other than that, the room reminded me of mine at home, just without the artistic chaos my mother hates and all my posters.

"Is this okay?" she asked, trying to read my expression.

"Yeah, it's great." I flashed her the best reassuring smile I could produce. She nodded and walked back down the hallway, giving me some time to put my stuff away. Opening my suitcase I placed my clothes into the empty drawers of one of the bureaus, and set up my easel in the far corner of the room. I scattered my paints, charcoal and assorted color pencils there, next to my sketch pad on the floor next to the bed. It looked more like my room now.

"Hell, now it looks a little better," I sighed and flopped down on the bed.

"You don't want to be here that badly?" Jacob's voice startled me. I sprung up into a sitting position. His shoulders were as wide as the doorway he stood in and I noticed that his dark hair flopped into his eyes, messily. He was growing it out again. Did Reneesme cause this change?

"What do you care?" I snorted. Just because he was my alpha and I was his beta didn't mean we had to be close or even like each other for that matter. And we obviously didn't like each other, which was the reason I wonder why is he being so nice to me? Or was that just my imagination?

"We were good enough to let you and Seth stay here while your mom is away. You can at least show some gratitude," he sneered. His eyes formed a strong glare that pierced me. There was the Jacob I knew.

"I asked nothing from you. I will show gratitude to Billy and Rachel, but not to you." I got up and grabbed my sketch and a pencil. He let me pass him easily, defiantly without a fight. He usually would jump at the chance to fight with me, but apparently not today. I stomped lightly down into the living room. Seth was already sitting comfortably on the couch next to Paul, of all people.

"Leah," he smirked in an almost cat-like way. His hand was buried in the potato chip bag.

"Paul," I smirked back, and continued my way out the door. With my sketch pad tucked underneath my arm I set out for the cliff that has been in my dreams lately. The same cliff, that I was tempted to jump off of after I found out about Sam's imprinting on Emily. The same cliff that I found Jacob sitting by and where I mocked him as his heart shattered because of the human turned leech named Bella Swan, or Cullen now. I scoffed at the bitter tone of my mind's voice. The entire pack thought I enjoyed being a bitter witch, but I didn't like it all the time. There weren't any perks for being a bitch, at least I haven't noticed any yet.

I paced myself as I walked through the woods, taking in all the different scents as I went. After a few minutes I was finally there. I settled down on a flat rock that had a good view. Flipping my sketch pad open to a fresh page, I looked out in front of me. What could I draw today? The water below was nice, but I have done that before. The sky and rocks? Been there, done that. I smirked sadly and threw the sketch pad on the ground. My inspiration and mindset for drawing was gone. Sighing I leaned backwards, against the rock behind me, and closed my eyes. Taking a nap would be a good way to pass some time before heading back … there.

"Leah." Sam stood in front of me. His appearance startled me. What had happened to the man I loved? He was bigger. His shoulders were as wide as a doorway, and he was even taller. He had chopped his hair short as well. "Leah, honey, I'm sorry." His face grew darker in sadness.

"What's wrong?" I asked, clearly confused by my boyfriend's actions. I took a few steps closer to him, but he backed away.

"I can't be with you anymore." The words spilled from his mouth without hesitation, like he was practicing the phrase for some time. At first I thought he was joking, but the serious look on his face showed the truth. He was breaking up with me.

"I ... I don't un... understand." my voice cracked as tears formed in my eyes. Why was he doing this? Did I do something?

"I just can't do this to you or to me," he explained. "You will find someone that will love you the way you deserve to be loved."

"I thought that someone was you." The tears were freely falling down my face.

"I do love you.."

"Then why are you doing this?" I screamed, cutting him off mid-sentence. If he loved me why was he breaking up with me?! We were almost out of school. We were going to get married, have kids and grow old together. We had plans, dreams.

"Because … the legends are true. Werewolves exist, and I am one." I stared at him, unblinkingly. The tears slowed as I took in what he was saying. "And werewolves have this thing called imprinting. It's like each werewolf finds their soul mate at first sight… sort of thing."

"And I wasn't your 'soul mate'?" my fingers made air quotes at the word soul mate. This was his excuse. He was using the Quileute legends as an excuse?!

"No." He shook his head grimly.

"Then who is?" I asked. My now tear free eyes glared at him.

"… Emily." My glare faltered. I had a cousin named Emily who had recently come to La Push with her parents. "Your cousin." My mind went blank. The Emily he meant was… my cousin. I have dated him for years and loved him since before I could remember, but my cousin is the one he ends up with because of some werewolf legend!

"Get out," I breathed out in rage. How dare he?! "Get out of my house!" I yelled.

"Leah! Please I didn't choose this," he tried to explain again. I felt his warmth as he reached out to me.

"Leave me alone. I hate you!!" I spun around, making my back face him. I listened as he walked out of the house without another word.

"Leah?" A younger Seth came in through the front door, as I curled up on the couch. "Leah?" he whispered to me.

"Leah?!" My eyes shot open. That voice wasn't Seth's.

"What do you want now?!" I said in an exasperated tone. I knew staying at the Black's would be a bad idea, but no my mother didn't believe me. I turned around and faced Jacob. He was staring down at me with sad eyes. Sad eyes? What the hell is his problem?!

"I … dinner's ready." The sadness in his eyes was wiped away quickly as he folded his arms in front of his chest. "You going to eat with us?" Jacob sneered out.

"Depends. You going to be there?" I sneered right back. The little punk. I could take him. If he wanted a fight I would give it to him. I actually enjoyed fighting with him. I lived for it.

"Do you have to be a smart ass all the time?" he sat down next to me. I didn't answer him. Me a smart ass? Never!! I glanced over at him discreetly. His eyes were locked on the water below us, but they looked glossed over as if he was thinking, daydreaming even. The silence gave me some time to really look at him, something I have never done before. Without thinking I pulled open my sketch pad, and started sketching. I captured every angle of his face, the curve of his jaw and the focus of his eyes. Jacob had a drawable profile, something that could be captured easily on paper. It was surprising, to say the least.

"What are you doing?" he finally turned his head and asked. Thankfully I was done drawing by the time he noticed. Ignoring his question, I cupped his jaw in my hand and turned it so I could see his profile properly. I looked back and forth between him and the picture I had just drawn. With a smile I released his face. It was perfect. I had a perfect two-dimensional pencil drawing of Jacob Black in my sketch pad. My inspiration, my talent. It's back!!! All thanks to him! …. Whoa wait a sec …. All thanks to him?

"Ugh!!" I groaned and stood up quickly. Tucking my sketch pad underneath my arm I started to march back into the woods that led back to Jacob's house.

"Hey! You know, Leah? You're a freak," he snickered as he jogged to keep up with my pace.

"Right back at ya, Jakey-poo." I laughed hysterically at his reaction to my new nickname for him. He froze and stopped his snickering. Who could get to him better than I could? … no one!! I continued to laugh as I walked while he still stood still, I suppose in shock or maybe confusion. But honestly you never know what is going on in that small brain of his.

The smile was bright on my face even when we both returned to the house. Who knew the reason why… my new found artistic inspiration, or the ability to make Jacob freeze out of humiliation of a little nickname.

okay so this is my second twilight fic. i seriously thought leah and jake should have ended up together. but luckily enough they can live happily in fan fiction!!! YAY!! XD so this story is as the summary says jake and leah help each other find what is lost. each chapter is a different lost ... something haha so thanks for reading and please review!! XD