Over It

by CCommons

The pain would never go away and I was over it. I want Matsuda to know that im over it enough to give him my heart, my soul. All of me. Matsuda/OC

Over It

Matsuda One-Shot

I swore up and down to the point of tears.

Really I did.

But he still wouldn't touch me.

He told me he loved me, and got on his knees, and pulled out a ring.

But still, nothing.

I tried so hard.

I want him so bad.

"Not tonight. Long day."

I never thought I would see Matsuda like that.

Was it me?

Our past?

"I told you. I'm over it."

"How can you be?"

I held him close to me. I breathed in his cologne and played with his dark hair.

"It hurts. I miss him all the time."

I felt his hands on my back.

Pushing me farther into his chest.

He nuzzled my hair, "You cry at night."

"I'm sorry." I said.

I felt the need to apologize to him.

I bet he felt as if I was dwelling in my pain, my loss.

He lifted my chin and bumped his nose gently with mine, "Don't apologize."

I smiled and tried not to cry, "I'm over it. I am, please."

It was nirvana. The way he kissed me and whispered I love you over and over.

Bliss as he laid me on the bed.

How he went from timid and bumbling to passionate and lustful.

I really don't care.

Every touch and kiss.

Push and pull.

Whisper and moan.

I loved it all.

And even though I missed L with everything I am.

I was over it.

So over it.