A/N: Alexis got full custody over Molly, and JaSam never reunited after the Sic betrayal and Liason's NOP. Everything else should be like on the show.
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Alexis looks over at Carly and Jax dancing and suddenly wishes that Sam hadn't left. Alexis could see that Jax was happy and even though it annoyed her to no end, Carly looked happy too. In her heart all Alexis really wanted was for Jax to be happy, but did he really have to find happiness with Carly? Alexis knew everything would change between her and Jax now; there was no way they could be like they were before.
Not with Carly in the picture, no matter how much she loved Jax, there were a few truths in the world that would never change, and one of them was the fact that she and Carly would always despise each other.
Alexis' attention again drew towards Carly and Jax when she heard Carly let out a laugh she was sure she hadn't heard from Carly in years, and by looking at them Alexis realized just how much she had given up because of Carly. Sometimes it felt like her whole life was a mess simply because of Carly Benson Corinthos-now Jacks.
Maybe blaming Carly for all the crappy things in her life was the easy way out, but Alexis was feeling rather crappy that Carly was happy with her best friend while she was sitting all alone after a ugly divorce, battling cancer and trying desperately to reconnect with her oldest daughter.
It was easier to blame Carly, maybe because she actually had a reason too. But seeing Carly with Jax, so happy, annoyed her more than she expected.
Seeing Carly with the only man she had ever truly trusted, with the exception of Stefan and Nikolas, almost pissed her off. Alexis had always been slightly in love with Jax, ever since their faux marriage. Her marriage to Jax, however unreal it might have been, has showed her just how kind and gentle Jax was. And just how far he was willing to go for those he loved.
Maybe especially how far he was willing to go, and just how much he was willing to sacrifice for his brother. They were a lot like that way, Jax and her. She would hate for Carly to take that away from him, the sweetness, the devotion, the trust, but she knew Carly would ruin it.
Carly had a way of destroying men. And relationships.
Alexis looked inside her purse and pulled out a picture of Kristina, Sonny and herself. Kristina had begged Alexis to come with them to Kelly two weeks ago, and Mike had snapped the picture.
They looked happy; they looked like a real family.
Sometimes, Alexis wished that they were.
Alexis blamed Carly for the fact that Kristina didn't have a "normal" family. Carly and her selfishness and the fact that Carly couldn't stand to see Sonny happy with somebody other than her.
Maybe it wasn't only Carly's fault but it felt like it, especially at moments like these when she was alone and Carly was not.
Alexis blamed Carly for the fact that Kristina will never know how much her mother really had loved her father, that she was created in love and not some random hook-up. No, Kristina had been created out of a love that Alexis just had found easier to deny over the years, because truthfully she still loved Sonny.
It was just easier to pretend that she didn't, it always had been. That's why she kept saying it was a mistake and it should never have happened every time the topic gets brought up. It's easy to lie when you're a Cassadine; it's in your blood.
Because obviously she didn't regret what had happened between her and Sonny, how could she? Kristina was the result of that night. Kristina, her beautiful baby girl, who had saved her in ways she never even thought possible.
Kristina was probably also one of the reasons why Carly hated Alexis's guts about as much as Alexis hated Carly. Alexis was one hundred percent certain that Carly HATED the fact that it was Alexis, not Carly that had given birth to Sonny's first born.
That was probably the reason why Carly had threatened her too.
A part of Alexis would always regret not telling Sonny the truth about Kristina's paternity from the start. Maybe things would have been different, maybe they could have been a real family, if it hadn't been for Carly.
The irony of it all was, and Alexis knew it, she would never have been in Sonny's life to begin with if it wasn't for Carly. Carly and Jason. If Jason never had sued for custody of Michael, Alexis would never have been Jason's lawyer and then by extension become Sonny's lawyer.
Alexis decided not to dwell on the events that had led her into the mob war, even if she still believed Jason is the better parent for Michael. And she certainly does not regret representing him.
She looked over at Carly again, and curses the woman for screwing up the lives of so many good men, and now… she might actually do the same to the other man Alexis ever truly loved, Jax.
Alexis was in love with Jax, and she had been for years. But her feelings had grown stronger over the past few months. The fact that Jax had stood by her during her cancer when her so-called husband had betrayed her in ways she didn't even think was possible.
Ric's betrayal had only made her realize what she had always known deep inside; Jax was the only man that she could trust.
Alexis knew that marrying Ric was a mistake, maybe the biggest mistake she had ever made. Or falling in love with Ric was the biggest mistake of them all. She should have known that Ric could never love her, Alexis wasn't even sure he had it in him.
The only reason why Ric had married her was so that he could play daddy to Sonny's first born, and she had let him.
Alexis wishes she had found some else to marry, obviously Jax had have been involved in his own drama with Courtney. Besides two marriages of convenience might have been a little bit too much for one couple.
None the less she knew she would always be slightly thankful towards Ric, not for anything he had done intentionally, but because he had given her Molly. The sweetest and most beautiful girl she'd ever seen. Of course with the exception of her sister.
Alexis knew she would always be thankful for Kristina and Molly, and two their daddies, even if they had broken her heart to what seems to be beyond repair. But that doesn't change the fact that she was still bitter of the lost chances with Sonny.
Not that she was sure that Sonny ever would get a 100 percent over Carly. Why she couldn't even imagine. Carly was nothing but destructive, and the power Carly had over men, and the way she made them lose everything that they had and become a shell of what they had used to be.
Carly was destructive, manipulating, deceiving, a liar and she always had a plan up her sleeve. Yet it was Carly that always ended up with the prince. Alexis couldn't keep herself from thinking when she would find the man that would love her completely and selfishly, and only her. Her prince Charming.
Alexis turned when she heard a voice.
"Alexis?"
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A/N 2: I know this chapter is slightly short and I think the other chapters will be longer. I'm looking at around 12 chapters right now, might be longer depending on where my muse takes me.