Chapter 1

My heaven turn to ashes

Some people say that falling in love is the best feeling that a mortal can feel well their wrong! Love is a big fat bitch that messes your life up!

What if the one person you have ever love doesn't love you back then what? And you can't run away because it would be a sign of weakness and I know that I wouldn't have anywhere to run to. I have no family, no friends I am alone in this world. Yoh meant the world to me but now I have nothing left to live for.

Some times I wonder if I died who will cry for me, who would even come to the funeral heck who would even organize a funeral for the ice queen, my corpse would properly be dumped in a landfill. Its hard being alone in the world not having anyone to care for you or to love you, that's why I am so cold because I grew up without the love of a mother or a father. I have always been alone except when I was with Yoh but now I don't even have him to care for.

After the shaman tournament Yoh became shaman king like I always expected him to be and everything continued the same. We went back home, we kept going to school and Yoh's friends always came to visit yep.. everything was the same but after a while every changed.

It was a normal day like any other day. I decided to stay after school to finish an essay. On my way home I decided to go through the park, when I was passing by the small pond. I saw a couple making out I would normally ignore them but something seemed oddly familiar about the boy when I got closer to them but not to close. I recognize him it was Yoh I just remember my self-standing there with my mouth wide open and in tears.

I did the only thing I could do. Which was to turn the opposite direction and run like hell by the time I did stop running I was completely lost not that I cared though. I realize at that moment that I had nothing to live for.

I can't say that suicide didn't go through my mind because it did, I wanted to stand in front of a car and just die but I couldn't go through it, I was to much of a coward so you want know what I did next? I went back to the old inn I pretend nothing happen, that I didn't see anything and, I continued with my life.

I knew it wouldn't last for ever, I knew that some day very soon Yoh will tell me that he longer wanted to be my fiancée because he has found someone else and that I should leave because I was no longer needed. What would I do next? Well I would back my bags leave in the middle of the night and leave without saying goodbye and disappear forever leaving my heart behind. Boarding any train and begin a new life and forget about everything, who I am, where I come from and, the pain and heart break Yoh Asukura has caused me.

Over the months I began to prepare myself for the certain confession from Yoh and after four months it finally happened. I was in the living room laying down, eating a packet of potato chips and watching TV like always.

When Yoh come in with a very serious yet nervous look on his face. I knew from that moment that this was it. He stood in front of the television and said very nervously yet with a serious expression on his face "Anna… we need to talk… you see … well..i have been seeing another …gi-rl and well I am… sort of in… love.. with her"

I wasn't expecting him to say that loved her and those words pushed the knife in deeper in my heart but I did what I always do. Which is not show any emotion what so ever and I said the words that I have been practicing for the past four months " So I except that you what to break the engagement and kick me out right!" Then I looked into his eyes watching every movement that he made and memorizing every feature on his face and word he said to me because I knew that this was the last time me and Yoh Asukura would be meeting face to face, after what seemed like a century he replied "Anna I am sorry I never meant to hurt you but… I think it would be for the best if we broke the engagement but… Anna your welcome to stay here we will still be friends right?.." after he finished speaking he smiled to me.

I did something that he never expected from me to do I smiled back and said in a very cold voice "No we can't be friends Yoh and don't worry very soon you won't EVER have to see me again!" I got up from the floor and walked right past him without even looking at him.

Its past midnight and I am waiting at train station waiting for the last train to arrive, I knew that this was going to happen but why did it hurt so much, well this is what happened. Once I left the living room I went up to my room to pack my bags after an hour of crying, I got up from my sleeping bag, wiped my face with the back of my hand until I made sure that their wasn't even a clue left that I have ever cried and I when down stairs to eat.

When I sat down I noticed that Yoh's friends were acting strange and I realized that they knew from the beginning and I bet you that they were the ones that convinced Yoh to get another girl but you know what I didn't care because I knew that this chapter of my life would be close forever after this night that I would never see this people again so I just ignored them and eat the food in front of me.

When I finished, I got up from the table and took my plate to the kitchen where I found Tama. she looked pretty nervous when she saw me I just said to her "goodbye Tama I hope you have a great life" and I smiled at her, she looked very surprised and before she got a chance to reply I was walking out of the kitchen.

When I got to my room, I got my bag and looked around the empty room one more time. When I got down stairs Yoh and he's friends were still eating so I quietly put on my shoes, graded by coat and walked out of the old inn forever.

Now here I am at the train station. I brought a ticket for the next train not knowing where it goes to and just waiting for the next chapter of my life to begin.