Rei..
If I told you, that I loved you… what would you do?
Would you hate me?
Would you say that you loved me too?
What would you do?
This envelopes my thoughts and dreams… this one simple question. I know the answer, I've known it ever since I saw you Rei. Saw you.
Rei… I need you. All you see is the cold exterior that I masquerade everyday. But I know you. I know you've seen through that disguise, I know you've seen the real person inside.
You know that all I am is a real person, fighting back these awful emotions that plague me.
Somehow, ever since that one night, when we were sitting outside, looking up at the twinkling stars that you love so much, you discovered one of my darkest secrets.
How could you love someone that has killed a man in cold blood? Let alone someone who killed three men in one sitting.
I regret doing this even more than I did before. I was forced to kill those men. But Rei, you won't believe that will you?
Of course not… no one does.
Until I met you, I wanted to die. I had nothing left Rei. Nothing else.
I've tried many times, to tell these things to you Rei. Many times. Every time I have failed, attempt after attempt.
I believe this is the last letter I will ever write to you Rei. I have written ten letters before this one. All in which you will never read…
Tomorrow, I will leave. I won't be coming back Rei. One last quizzical look at me as I leave like I always do. One last group shrug of shoulders.
Now I end this. If you ever find this, Rei, please forgive me.
Sincerely Yours,
Kai Hiwatari
"Whatcha reading Rei?" Asked Max in an overly happy, bouncy voice as he tried to read over Rei's shoulder.
"Nothing Max. Go away." Rei answered solemnly.
As Max flounced off as if he was thoroughly annoyed, tears started rolling down Rei's slim face.
Why did you do this Kai?
Kai…
He quietly unfolded another neatly written note.
I hope I die soon.
No one will care.
Because no one cares about me.
But when they destroy themselves.
I'll be there, to laugh.
Why don't they realize my pain.
I guess I hide it too well.
Isn't that funny.
I know there's something wrong with me.
It's way too obvious.
I'm not an emotional person.
...On the outside.
But they show now.
And this new world scares me.
No one to help me.
Rei was thoroughly shaking now. Tears falling; mixed emotions.
You only had to say three words.
And none of this would've happened.
Kai…
Written by: Lufia
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