Ok I really didn't plan to carry this on…. But people said I should. I know I should be working on Realizing, and that will be my main priority but I really like the idea of this.

This was kind of a filler chapter, nothing that interesting. The next one will hopefully be better.

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Disgirl07

Life or Death

Atonement

"Is anyone alive out there?"

"Can anyone hear me?"

My eyes flutter open and I look at Jack. I turn my head and see the boat.

I try to speak, but I can make no sound. I lift my hand slowly and shake Jack. He doesn't move.

Is he dead!

"Is anyone out there?"

I kiss jack on the hand and swim slowly and painfully over to a man with a whistle in his mouth. I pull it out and blow.

I blow for hope; I blow for Jack, even though he is probably dead. The boat turns and comes towards me, I blow one more time and swim over to Jack.

The man picks jack up and puts him in the boat first. He lifts me up and I drift off into unconsciousness.

"Doctor!"

I hear the scrape off feet come closer to me. I can feel the soft motion of a ship at sea.

"She's awake!"

"She's alive!"

I force my eyelids to open and I am greeted by the site of a doctor and several nurses. I am in a white room with various medical equipment. I sit up slowly, trying to remember what happened.

"Miss?"

"Yes?"

"You were rescued from the water. You went unconscious but you are fine now. Luckily, you have no damage. You may leave whenever you wish"

"Where am I?"

"The Carpathia, Miss"

I smile and scoot offs the bed. The doctor hands me my dress and jacket and I change quickly in the bathroom. I say thanks and goodbye as I head out the door.

Did jack live?

I see an officer walking along the deck and I run up to him.

"Sir, is there a survivor's list?"

"No, not yet."

"What about the people pulled out of the water?"

"I'm sorry, there is no list. But will you please head up these stairs to the first class area."

"No, I'm in steerage"

He eyes me questionly. He obviously doesn't believe me by the way I am dressed.

"Down the stairs to the right."

I smile and go down the stairs.



I spent the whole day looking for Jack, but I was not able to find him. As the darkness surrounds us I sit on a bench and wait patiently. What I am waiting for I do not even know.

Hope

Happiness

Love

Jack

I need to know if he lived. Was I able to save him, or was it too late?

I look up at the sky, hoping that it will give me an answer. How can the sky still look the same?

Hundreds of people just died, and yet the earth is still moving. The stars still shine brightly. People carry on. I guess it is a choice, do we live happily to provide some sport of atonement for those who died, or do we live miserably absorbed in the grief this tragic event has left.

We must go on, but I do not want to. Jack said that no matter what happened I had to never let go. I made a promise and I do not wish to keep it. I do not want to go on without him. But, I must atone his memory by doing all that he wanted, and I want, to do with my life.

I will look for him. I must know if he survived. And then, I must carry on. We all must carry on.

This is the titanic's survivors atonement to those who died.

I miss you jack

I hope I will see you again

I love you

And I always will

I won't let go

I will make every day count

Just for you, Jack

I love you



Please, don't leave me here alone.