Control
From Marians POV set during the series finale, everything in both series happened. This might be a bit confusing, its an argument shes having with herself, all her doubts and insecurities against the more logical, cold adult
Just eat it
No
What's it matter, the sheriff wants you dead anyway
That not the point, they cant win
They don't even no there's something for them to win
That is not the point!
He gave it to you, he said "you should"
I'm sick of being told what I should do
He cares
I don't want him to care
You do
I don't
He never gave up on you
Hes the reason I'm in this mess now
Who?
Gisbourne
You sure?
Yes!
Not Robin
What! Whats he done
If he loved you would he have made himself an outlaw
If guy loved me would he have burned down my home
Perhaps he wanted you to need him
I don't need anyone
You'll end up all alone
Yeah cos theres just loads of people here
That's not what I mean't
You don't say
Don't be sarky with yourself
You can't sulk with your self either
This is so childish, Marian
I am a child
Well kind of
You want to be married
I have everything I need
So that's why your chain to a wall sitting on some rickety bed in the basement of the sheriffs house in acre, silly me, I would have thought having everything you needed would included someone who cares
I have people who care
Robin, Guy
Robins dead
Dead
Don't repeat everything I say!
I am you, you're the one repeating yourself
Everythings changed, hasn't it
Yes
Thanks for the support there
You've pushed away your support, you push away anyone who cares about you
Like who?
Robin, Guy, your father
I didn't push him away, not really
He'd still be here if it weren't for you
It wasn't my fault
Entirely
Maybe a bit
What did you say-ashamed
Bet he's dead proud of you now
Well he can't be alive proud can he
I just want him back…
You can't have him back
Oh really, I hadn't noticed, I was just waiting for Vasey to post him through my window!
Punishing yourself isn't going to bring him back
Well theres no one else to hurt
That's why you do it, isn't it
What?
You want to get caught
Don't be so ridiculous
You do, you want to feel all the pain, you want to let all your anger be overwhelmed by the wrath of everyone around you
That is the most ludicrous thing I've ever heard, I'm not about to make myself some sort of martyr
But you want to hold the reigns
What? I'm not on a horse.
You know what I mean-take control
I am in control
What-by starving yourself
I don't-
Don't say I don't starve myself, I've seen you
Theres nothing to see
To right there isn't, your wasting away
Tosh!
What is it because your not taking regular exercise, do the beatings make up for it
Beating?
That's why your"cutting down" isn't it
I don't need to cut down!
No you don't
What?
You feel like someone else is taking over don't you
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You try to fight it, but they don't listen, do they?
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They try to pass you off to any one, they force you out of your home, they practically eradicate your title
I don't care about some stupid title
No, but you care what people think
No I don't
You do, you try not to care, everyone looking at you, frowning, judging you
People who judge have never faced a Jury
But it still hurts, doesn't it
Nothing hurts!
But it does, it must, your still young, your alone, you need a husband
Come on, you sound like Gisbourne
He's right, you need to feel safe
I do feel safe
That's why you like awake at night, for hours, till the morning sun comes shining through
I'm a light sleeper
Light sleepers don't usually wake up drenched in sweat and shaking like a leaf
I do what?
Your scared, that's why you appear so strong, so wilful, so independent. That's why you built up that wall of ice, to protect yourself, your not the child of your youth, carefree and innocent
I am innocent! I'm no whore!
But your mind isn't, is it, you want to feel loved
I am loved
Can you ever be loved
What's that supposed to mean?
How can you love another, when you don't even care for yourself
I do care
But you can see your wasting away
I am not wasting away?
So did the clothes become to big overnight, did the sleeves of your dress become long to keep you warm?
Or where they there to cover up
To cover up what, exactly?
The past
"To cover up, the past" what are we, the fairy convention
And your insecurities
Insecurities! Do I look like some drunkard wreck
Yes!
Oh thanks for the confidence, you should try talking to the sheriff, sure you'd get along fine
But that's what you hate most isn't it
What?
You think if you hadn't been so wrapped up in losing Robin, your father would have paid proper attention to his job, and would still be sheriff, as it is you have totally cocked everything up!
Its not my fault!
No, but you think it is, that's why you push yourself, you want to be punished.
No, I want to be in control!
I will not cry! I will not cry!
You will
I won't, I can con-trol this!
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