November 16th

Dear Diary,

"And we'll be together, you and I. Just the two of us, forever."

I cannot forget these words that Damon spoke to me a few months ago. It's as if his words are engraved in my brain, staying there no matter what.

Like his words, his image will not leave me either. His dark hair. The hair I had imagined weaving my hands through countless times. His blue eyes. The eyes that I try not to get lost in; that can penetrate any girl's soul, exposing her deepest fears. His red lips. The perfectly sculpted lips that I found my own edging closer to when we are alone together.

While I do love Stefan, I am finding it harder and harder to resist my want to be with Damon. At first, I felt that Stefan is most certainly the person I am going to be with for the rest of my life. Now, though, I am having doubts. Whenever I am with Damon, I forget about Stefan for the moment and I used to think it was Damon making me forget him, but now I realize that I am forgetting of my own free will. When I am with Stefan, Damon remains on my mind. I am always wondering what he is up to.

Sometimes, I feel like Damon is trying to break Stefan and me apart, and I can tell it angers Stefan. I don't want what happened with Katherine to happen to me. They fought over her and I can't bear to think of what I would do if they fought over me. The thought of there even being a possibility upsets me.

Stefan and I got into a fight today about Damon. He says that he cannot trust Damon, not after everything Damon's done. I was trying to tell Stefan that he needs to learn how to trust his brother, but he wouldn't listen. He was so angry…It was a side of him that I have never seen before.

Something hit Elena's window, causing her to raise her head from her writing. How is it already 10:00? Elena thought, looking at her alarm clock. Thinking the sound was made from a branch hitting her window, she went back to her writing.

I love Stefan. Though I love Damon too, I promise he can never come between us no matter how much I want to be with him.

Tears started falling on the paper she was writing on. Again, something hit Elena's window, this time, though, something told her to go see what it was. When she looked outside her window, she saw a crow sitting on a branch on the tree outside.

Impeccable timing, Damon, she thought. She turned away, thinking about what she should do and tried to clean up her face. When she turned back around, Damon was now in his human form, sitting there, waiting. Elena opened the window, but said nothing.

After a few seconds, she asked, "What do you want Damon?" She was angry that he just happened to show up while she had been crying. Elena still had tears streaming down her face.

"Well aren't you going to invite me in? Oh, wait. I forgot that Jenna already did." When Damon said this last part, he laughed under his breath. He leaned into the window and pushed past Elena, entering her room. He turned to Elena and said, "Is this a bad time? You seem to be upset about something."

"Oh, really? I was trying so hard to hide it." Elena replied sarcastically.

"So what happened? Did Stefan hurt you?" Damon's voice got a bit more serious.

"Why should I tell you? What does it even matter to you, the guy who is too good for anyone and doesn't care about anybody, but himself?" Elena started to turn away from Damon, but he caught her arm. Damon opened his mouth to speak, but she pulled away and stood with her back towards him.

"I'm sorry for whatever I did to upset you…I just want you to know that I do care about someone, and that someone is you. I would die to protect you if it meant you'd be safe. Just remember that."

Elena turned around, but he was already gone.