Fading Teardrops. Rachel B.
Summary: What if Goodbye went differently? What if Rachel married Finn Hudson suddenly regretting it after she finds out who the real Finn Hudson is, how will she be able to get away? who will be the one to help her? Puckleberry. PezBerry and FaBerry friendship. A tiny bit of Finchel, But wont be for long! This is a Puckleberry relationship! set from end of series 3 'goodbye' Rachel never leaves, she gets married to finn but when she gets close to Puck things go down hill. Songs are in italics.. Rachel's thoughts are in normal :)
A/N. WARNING: ABUSIVE SCENES. if you like/adore Finn i suggest you don't read this. like the idea? review and we'll continue... enjoy! don't own anything!
Prologue - remake of 'goodbye'
Rachel's.p.o.v.
I woke up with a fresh start in the morning wanting to forget what had happened the night before, It hadn't been the real Finn.. he was just angry and it would never happen again. He did something so horrible, I kept getting flashbacks. I've never seen him this angry before. It was all because I lied. I lied that I was hanging out with friends, but I wasn't. I was hanging out with Noah and Sam. I didn't tell him that because I know how he reacts. He turns into someone I never recognised before. I'm guessing that he gets angry and paranoid so quickly was because of what happened with Quinn and the baby. Just don't see why he can take the anger out on me!
Today was one of the last days i'd be as a Senior, it's only a few days till i graduate and i couldn't wait!
I entered the bathroom, to look in the mirror. Yep, it hurts so bad just like it looks. There it was a bruise just on my cheek from the anger of Finn. How could I go to school looking like this? I need to cover it up with makeup. It was the only solution.
"Honey! we made your favourite, blueberry pancakes!" Hiram my Dad said.
I could smell the blueberrys from a mile away. I smiled to myself, i loved my Dad's and i so would miss them even if they was moving to New York for a job. I just couldn't tell them what happened last night because I know for sure that they wouldn't let me see him, let alone marry the guy.
"Guess what came through the post sweetie?! Your NYADA letter!" Leroy, My Daddy grinned.
I opened my bathroom door to reveal my Dad's there waiting for me with a huge grin on their face.
"Thank you so much Daddy's! You honestly, didn't have to make my favourite! I love you guys, i'm going to miss you so much!"
"Oh honey, we will be in New York too don't forget!" Daddy said passing me my NYADA letter.
"Oh my gosh, this doesn't seem real. I can't believe that... my dreams is in this letter, the answer to my dreams!" I said not really making any motives as if to open it.
"Aren't you going to open it, princess?" Dad asked curiously.
"No, i can't.. i promised Kurt and Finn that i'd open it with them because well, it's just a thing us teenagers do." I said trying to make up an excuse.
"Okay sweetie, we understand! Make sure you text us the result!" Daddy said with Dad nodding with him.
"Alright, i will. I'm gonna go get ready now, is that okay?"
"Sure it is, we'll be downstairs. Your pancakes will be right here, waiting for ya'!" Dad laughed as i laughed with him too before leaving to do my hair.
#FD#FD#FD
At school, after the original five which was; Me, Kurt, Artie, Mercedes and Tina had done the actual song we had done together, i felt like i was about to cry. Everything had gotten to me, the fact that in a couple of days i wouldn't be able to see everyone not like we used to anyway. I mean, the only people i'd probably be seeing in the future was Quinn, Santana, Noah and Kurt and obviously Finn.
I couldn't cry though, because if i did and my make up faded, everyone would see the bruise including Noah and he knew me well enough to know when i lie, it's been like that ever since we was bestfriends at the age of 4 years old. He knows when I'm upset and he will never give up untill he knows why.
As Mr Schue was going saying how what's left is to say 'goodbye' i turned around to Tina, a sad smile on my face and noticed that as soon as i did that, Finn turned to smile at me as if nothing had happened last night. I turned away not wanting to lock eyes with him, we hadn't exactly talked yet and listened to Brittany and Santana's comments before Mr Schue had something to sing for us.
May the good Lord be with you
Down every road that you roam
And may sunshine and happiness
Surround you when you're far from home
And may you grow to be proud, dignified and true
And do unto others as you'd have done to you
I looked to Santana smiling knowing that Me and Her, these past few weeks we had grown close and now... we may never speak as much as we did just like at the beginning of the year and i didn't like the thought of it.
Be courageous and be brave
And in my heart you'll always stay
Forever young, forever young
Forever young, forever young
I caught Noah's eye grinning as soon as i knew he looked like he was about to cry, just like me, not even noticing the dead stare Finn was giving me.
May good fortune be with you
May your guiding light be strong
Build a stairway to Heaven
With a prince or a vagabond
I looked down thinking of Finn and how much i loved him, thinking of the things what would happen if he wouldn't get through to that music school in New York.
And may you never love in vain
And in my heart you will remain
Forever young, forever young
Forever young, forever young
Forever young, forever young, yeah
I looked to Finn to see that he was looking down thinking, oh i wonder what about.
And when you finally fly away
I'll be hoping that I served you well
For all the wisdom of a lifetime
No one can ever tell
I looked to Quinn and smiled as i knew that she didn't accept mine and Finn's decision to marry but she would always be one of my best friends.
But whatever road you choose
I'm right behind you, win or lose
Forever young, forever young
Forever young, forever young
Forever young, forever young
For, forever young, forever young
I couldn't help it, throughout the song i had cried my eyes out looking at everyone else and knowing they had done the same by their eyes. The look Finn was giving me was so scary and confusing it made me feel sick to my stomach. I never knew why he was giving me that look, untill i wiped my tears and all the make-up smudged on my hands. I couldn't let people see me because they will start to ask questions and Puck will get it out of me..One day or another. I got up and quickly ran out the room with a,"Excuse me."
I couldn't sit there and act like everything was okay with me and i didn't see why Finn was acting like it was all fine, like we were so perfect when we weren't. I wanted to speak to him, hear him say that he's sorry he ever hurt me but i didn't see it coming and it led me to believe that he is sorry even if he didn't exactly say it.
"Rach!" Finn shouted running after me.
I ran, i couldn't stop myself, i wanted to hear what he had to say but i was scared as to what he'd do.
"Rach, please!"
I stopped, my knees weakening at the thought of a repeat of last night.
"What do you want, Finn?"
"I forgot... i forgot to say sorry last night-"
"You forgot?! You forgot to say sorry after hitting me?! How could you Forget? Doesn't seem like something you'd forget if you regretted it straight after, Finn!"
I know my tone is a little harsh, but i was just upset and i couldn't help but feel as if he betrayed me, or that I betrayed him.
"Ah, shutup Rach! I forgot, alright? don't ask questions you already know the answer to. I dunno what came to me. But It wont happen again if you stay away from Puck!" Finn replied angrily.
"But i don't-"
"I need to talk to you Rach, storage closet?" Finn said not even bothering waiting for an answer before he grabbed my arm and took me to the nearest room.
"What is it?"
"I...I got my letter back today." Finn said worriedly.
"You didn't open it did you? I mean, because Kurt wouldn't-"
"I don't care Rach! What i care about is our future and how it would be if i didn't get through and you did!"
"I don't know-"
"Give me your letter." Finn stated.
"But-"
"No Butts Rachel, give me your letter."
I silently worriedly gave my letter to Finn watching him open it slowly and seeing a shocked expression told me i got through. I got through! I couldn't believe it!
"I got through, didn't i? Oh my, i can't wait! Finn, this is going to be so good! Were going to be so happy in New York."
"Thing is, though Rachel, were not going to New York." Finn said harshly.
"W-what? Why?!"
"I didn't get in. We want to get married though right? I love you and you love me, so we'll stay in ohio get married and start our life here?" Finn said waiting for an answer.
I didn't know what to say, i wanted to say yes but i loved my dreams more, Broadway. It was everything to me ever since i was a little girl. I've always wanted it, how could i say yes to Finn and throw all Broadway away?! I couldn't do that!
"I, Finn i can't-"
Finn suddenly snapped. "What! You have to, we belong together!"
"I.. What about my dreams?"
"You can go back in a year, c'mon babe, we've planned this wedding, we don't' want it all to go to a waste, do we now?! I spent all my money on you, i can't have you changing your mind now! We've got this far..." Finn shouted.
I couldn't believe what was happening right now, "Finn, please don't make me-"
"I'm not making you do anything, Rachel! I thought you loved me and that we belonged together? It was clearly obvious i wouldn't get in to that school because i'm useless Rach, useless without you!"
"But i-"
"Rach, don't do it, please. Stop crying too, it ruins your face. C'mon you know what your supposed to pick but your picking the wrong thing! Your supposed to pick me, that's what soulmates is, isn't it Rach? But if you don't want that then, theres no us..." Finn said walking out of the closet.
"Wait Finn, I love you and you can get a job at New York. So I can live my dream and my husband!"
"Yeah okay. But were getting married first, in Ohio."
"Yeah anything, I promise. I'll do anything!" Rachel said before hugging Finn.
Finn hugged back with an evil smirk on his face.
"So if you will do anything for me. Promise me you won't go near Puck?"
"What? Why?"
"Because your mine. I don't want him to get in the way of us."
"It wont-"
"Just promise me!"
"Bu-"
"Don't make me do something I'll regret!"
"Yeah okay, Noa- Puck is not in our lifes anymore! Okay?"
"Thats my girl!"
Quinn's. POV
I don't agree on what Rachel and Finn are doing. Its the wrong desicion and I know that because I made mistakes that I'm not proud of... I just don't want them to make the same mistakes I've done. People might think I'm just stopping them from getting married because I'm jealous, but I'm not! I know what Finn could be like when he doesnt get his own way, because I have been with him. When he found out about me and Puck, He went completely mad. But you would think everyone would, he went over the top. He says he lashes out and he doesn't mean it and that it wont happen again, it does...But the next time it gets even worse! Just hope Rachel is smart enough to get away from him...Atleast I got an easy escape.
Rachel's. POV
I still Can't believe what Finn has said to me! Not to see Noah ever again! But this isn't right! Noah is the only one that understands me! I can't just stop seeing my bestfriend just like that! I'm still shaken up about the other night, that I had to do what he says so that, that night wont happen again!... I can't picture Finn being that angry towards me in my life...Yeah he says that it will never happen again but you can't really be sure on these things. When jealousy and anger takes over you, you never know what happens. Like a force is pushing you to do things you don't want to do. I know that Finn didn't want to hit me but I'm guessing he was in a bad mood and I just got in the way. Well thats what Finn convinced me to think anyways.
I just can't wait until we get married and then head to New York! It took a while to convince Finn, but he can get a job there. Like be a taxi driver or anything he wants to do. Yeah I know he has dreams but atleast he'll get somewhere in life. Be married to a broadway singer...Me, Rachel Berry. I need to catch up with my boys, Noah and Sam before I head to Finns for a romantic dinner.
"Hello boys, Haven't seen you since school!" I hugged them both!
"Yeah, But that was a week ago. What happened to you babes...You just walked out of glee club and never came back since...Are you okay?" Sam asked worried about me...Like they always are! How sweet!
"Yeah..Well...I can't say and I don't really want to talk about that now! Aslong as I say my last goodbye's to my two boys before..."
"Before what?! Your not saying goodbye to us! Rach, is everything okay? I can tell by your eyes that your not." Noah says. What does he mean? I thought the bruise has gone by now! Should I go?! I covered up the eye that Finn hit me on with my hand..
"What you mean..I'm..Fine!"
"Why are you covering up your eye Rach?" Sam suspiciously asked me.
"Erm..No reason.. Just tired you know.."
"Anyways Rachel, were gonna see you tomorrow right?" Puck hoped for my answer to be yes. I can't go to school in a state like this..
"Erm..Why do you even want to be apart of my life? To see me ruin it?" I said trying to change the subject. Noah and Sam looked at me like they couldn't believe those words came out of my mouth.
"Are you crazy? Rachel I love you" What Noah loves me?! "We both love you! Were your bestfriends, you are ours! Of course we want to be apart of your life!" Oh right I actually thought for a second that he loved me more than that. Who am I kidding. Finn is the only boy that could ever fall in love with me.
"Ohh Yeah..Right. 'Cos were bestfriends..." Didn't think Noah wanted to hear that. But Sam seemed cool with it. Me and Sam are great pals, but I think there's something different to Noah...A good way!
"So tell me why is it goodbye?" Sam said looking quite sad.
"Because It is alright. Oh now I got to go. I can't be late!" I ran out the cafe and before I even got into a taxi, Someone stopped me.
"Rach, tell me! I don't give up that easy!" Noah said in a confident voice.
"Tomorrow, Im coming to school but after glee club you won't see me."
"Why? Whats Finn done?"
"Nothing! Look Noah don't make this hard for me to say this-"
"Just tell-"
"Im marrying Finn." I bursted out. The look on Noah's face was so upsetting. My heart was hurting.
"Woah. When?"
"In two days. "
"Oh." I know he's shocked but atleast a little support or like a congratulations?
"Yup."
"But why can't I see or talk to you again? We can still be bestmates...Right?"
"No. I'm sorry. After we get married I'm moving to New York and me and Finn are going to live our dreams. I'm so sorry Noah! I love y- I got to go...Bye Noah!" I said before getting into the taxi and started crying my eyes out while I saw him there standing in the rain, knowing I can't talk to him ever again. It just felt like the taxi was going really slow cos everything seemed to turn into slow-motion. I put my hands on the window crying. He walked along while the car was moving. Untill the slow-motion stopped, I was at Finn's house.
Puck's POV
i'm so sure that Finn had put her up to this.. but if he did and she cared about our memories, she'd of fought for them. She'd of won because she is the winning kind, especially to Finn Hudson too. But it was blatantly clear that she hadn't fought for them and it hurt me. I had honestly thought that she cared about us.. we had been friends since we was little for fucks sake.. i'd secretly been inlove with her ever since kindergarden. I remember the day when everyone would make fun of her because she wanted to go far in life and i was the only one there, who understood her...
*flashback*
(when they were about 4 years old)
"right children, all sit down please while we sit and see what people would like to do with there lifes." Mrs Murray said.. This is what she usually does every week it was a routine this school had. It was very intresting as people would have different dreams after watching a game of football or playing games on there consoles.
"Sam Evans." The teacher said gesturing for Sam to get up and tell everyone.
Sam got up cheerfully not wanting to stand at the front and said,"I wanna be a racing driver! I think it looks cool to be one!"
Everyone laughed making Sam giggle before sitting back down.
"Michael Cartwright." The teacher began to say people's names out until she got to the one she knew the girl's dream had never changed.
"Rachel Berry."
Rachel Berry stood up, a big grin on her face before saying,"I wanna be a star..A singer... It's what makes me feel better and i love it so much! My Dad's think i'm gonna be a star! I will be a star!"
The teacher smiled, she honestly believed that someday Rachel will make it.
Some boys had laughed and made fun of her.. but two boys didn't. Sam Evans and Noah Puckerman smiled secretly wishing they was much more like Rachel.
"Hey! Leave her alone, it's her dream! it wouldn't be funny if i said that your dreams was stupid would it?!" Noah said in his childlike voice, and Rachel suddenly looked at him alarmed that he would do that for her. She'd thought that Noah didn't like her but she smiled her big great smile as a thanks and thats when she knew... Noah Puckerman was a great guy and from then on they had became best friends.
This was one of his best memories for the dark brunette he fell inlove with.
*end of flashback*
Tears fell down my face at the thought of it, he truly cared for Rachel and he wasn't giving up without a fight. I couldn't, could i?
No, i couldn't. It was final... Noah Puckerman wasn't giving up On Rachel Berry, sure they couldn't be an item but that doesn't mean they can't be friends just because of one jealous Finn Hudson.
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