If we ever meet again

Chapter 1 – Day One

This is my first ever fan fiction! Have a read and let me know what you think! Mostly BPOV but might throw in a few more people later on. Jacob will be in it but already be a werewolf by the time Bella becomes friends with him.

This story is an alternative to New Moon. It's another way this story could have gone if Bella hadn't let Edward leave so easily! NB Edward still leaves but Bella doesn't go down without a fight... What if Edward left something behind to forever remind Bella of his presence in her life?

Disclaimer: I own nothing, I just play :)

Some of the words in this chapter are taken directly from New Moon but apart from that it's all me.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.

There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.

"You... don't... want me?" I tried out the words confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.

"No."

It took me a while to comprehend what it was he was trying to tell me. I stood there silently as I tried to figure out what this truly meant. Edward, the only man I had ever loved, will ever love, has led me into the forest behind my house and is telling me that he no longer wants me. As the silence between us continued, I turned my back on him, trying to ease the tension that had grown between us. I was surprised that it was in fact Edward who broke the silence between us and had my doubts highlighted in the utterance of a single word.

"Bella?"

This was the first time in the speech that he had planned out previously that there was a tone of confusion in his voice. I saw my opportunity.

"What do you want me to say?" I said with the least amount of feeling I could express. On the inside, I could feel my heart slowly crumbling in my chest, but I was not letting him out of my life without at least having my say on the matter. "You lead me into the forest, demanding to talk to me, might I add after pretty much ignoring me since my birthday, and tell me that after everything we've been through, after everything you promised me, you're just going to leave me without a second glance!"

I couldn't help it, of all the emotions coursing through me, anger won out. I turned back to him to see him rearranging his facial expression from a shocked to a once again neutral appearance. Ha! He always said how I never act how he predicts!

"Bella, I... I have to leave." He was starting to doubt himself, I could hear it.

"But why? What has really changed? Jasper? To be honest, I'm surprised it hasn't happened before now? HE STOPPED EDWARD! I'M STILL ALIVE, HUMAN! What do you think is going to happen when your social circle consists of 5 vampires?!"

"Are you trying to tell me that you... expected to be hurt by my family?"

I could feel his calm façade slipping away with every word I spoke.

"Not necessarily. I'm just saying that this didn't surprised me. That to be honest is the least of my worries. What disturbs me, is having you, my love," that did it, his face fell. "Telling me that you know longer want me." My tone became softer, I could shout no more. At that point, he could no longer look me in the eye. I could see his beautiful topaz eyes slowly filling up with tears, tears that we both knew would never fall, whether we wanted them to or not. I took a step towards him, and he gradually raised his eyes to meet mine.

"Bella, you can't come with me. The rest have already left."

That was a stab to the heart and I felt my resolve crumbling again. Alice, my best friend, had left without even saying goodbye to me. I knew he saw my weakness and continued once more.

"You have no place in my world. It would not be appropriate for us to continue in the way we are. What happened with Jasper has only reinforced my views on this."

"But you said you don't want me! Not that it wasn't acceptable for us to be together." Again he broke eye contact. Did he really mean what he said?

"Bella, I have already said it once. I don't want you. It would not do either of us any good to stay together." He sounded so broken. I decided it was now or never. If I wanted to show him that I didn't care, that no matter what he said to me I would love him forever, it would be now.

"Prove it. Prove to me that I mean nothing to you." I said with as much authority as I could conjure up.

"What?" It would have been amusing in any other circumstance to see Edward this confused. "What do you want me to do?"

As he did not understand what I meant, I closed the distant between us and kissed him with as much passion as I had in me. I wrapped my hands around his neck and ran my hands through his hair. At first I was surprised that he didn't stop me. Then, became even more surprised when he started to kiss me back. This kiss was not like the others, this was ferocious, he was kissing me like this was the last time he would ever see me. With a newfound confidence I decided to push it that bit further and ran my tongue along his lips, asking for entrance. He willingly received me and invaded my own mouth. Damn being human, I had to pull back for breath. As I pulled away panting, I kept my eyes shut afraid of what I might see if I opened them.

"Are you still leaving?"

"Yes... I'm sorry. It will be better this way. Don't worry; it will be as if I never existed. You can carry on with your life as it should have been."

"So you're going to want me to carry on with my life in Forks normally? You were here on my first day. I could never forget you. Never."

"You're human – your memory is nothing more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind."

"What if I don't want to forget? What if you were the best thing that ever happened to me? Don't leave. Please." Instead of trying to suppress the emotions this time I just let them flow, trying to get him to understand how much he meant to me.

"I have to leave. It is the best way."

"Fine then!" The anger was back, "If you have to leave, if you think it would be the best thing, then at least give me the decency of having something to remember you by!"

I didn't give him a chance to reply. Before he even had a possibility to properly hear what I had said I was kissing him again. This time was even better than last. He ran his hands down my body and lifted me so I had my legs wrapped around his waist. I could feel his arousal growing between my thighs and I had never felt so powerful. With him still supporting me, I removed my hands from his hair and started to unbutton his shirt, without breaking the kiss. I felt him starting to growl against my lips as the last button came undone and couldn't help but smile.

As I let out a slight giggle, it pushed him over the edge, I sensed him release me but before I was able to panic, he had pushed me to the floor of the forest and held himself above me. I glanced at him and was shocked by how black his eyes were, however this was not through hunger but through lust. He seemed like he was unsure how to continue so I started to take off my own shirt. Before I had even reached down to lift my shirt, Edward, took the initiative and pulled my shirt, and bra, off of me in one foul swoop. I saw the fabric flutter down to the forest floor and was amazed they were still intact. Of course, I would have to put them back on later. I turned back to his face to see him appraising my body and drinking in what he saw. This was when I suddenly felt embarrassed and felt the blush spread from my face right down my body.

"So beautiful..." I heard him mutter before leaning down and gently kissing me from my belly button gently up to my neck. Everywhere he kissed, he left goose bumps in his wake, not through it being cold but through my senses overloading with sensation. I was thankful for the warm September air or we might have had to stop, and I had no intentions of doing so. As we continued kissing, our passion took on a dreamlike quality, and we pushed our boundaries further than they had been ever pushed before. It was the most amazing feeling, I never wanted this to end as when it did I knew that would be the beginning of the end of my life in Forks as I knew it. As we made love on the forest floor, we became one, moreso than I ever expected. When we were both spent, he pulled me into his arms and I fell into a deep slumber.

My dreams were vivid. They felt so real. I dreamed that Edward and I had had an argument, him telling me that he was leaving, and then we had made love on the forest floor. It seemed so real. I awoke to Edward whispering my name.

"Bella... Bella... Wake Up... Bella... come on... this is not the place... come on Bella, wake up, please..." He sounded concerned. Why did he sound concerned? It was then I realised that it was not a dream. It was all real. I opened my eyes and found both us of unclothed amongst the trees.

"Bella, it's time for me to go." That was all it took. I broke down into fits of sobs and held onto his chest for dear life.

"Please don't leave me, not now, please."

"I have to. I'm sorry. Don't make this any more difficult than it already is." I could hear the regret in his voice at my desperate attempts to restrain a vampire. "Please put your clothes on. You will freeze out here, the sun is starting to set, and Charlie must be getting worried."

Oh dear, Charlie. I had almost forgotten about him. Even if Edward left, I had to live for him. It would destroy him otherwise. He couldn't have his daughter as well as his wife leave him, even if I would only be leaving him in spirit. I nodded, stood up, pulled a leaf out of my hair and headed over to where my clothes lay. Edward just watched from where he was stood, already dressed in an instant.

Once I was redressed I turned back to him, determined to be strong.

"Goodbye Bella." He leant down to kiss my forehead, breathing his sweet breath onto my face. I closed my eyes to remember this feeling.

"Goodbye Edward, I love you." I opened my eyes and he had gone.

I headed straight back to the house and was not surprised to see Charlie's cruiser already sat in the drive. I gave myself the once over in the window of my truck and removed one more leaf that had stuck in my hair. I gently opened the front door and made my way upstairs, hoping to have the night to myself. I should be so lucky.

"Young lady! Would you like to explain where you have been for the last few hours! I get home from work to find you not in the house with no explanation of where you are or what time you'll be back! Care to explain yourself?" It was hard to miss the worried undertones even with the abruptness of his voice.

Instead of explaining everything, I dropped my gaze to the floor and said: "He left."

That was all it took for my world to come crashing down around me. Sobs racked through my body and I could tell that Charlie was unsure of how to act. He did not mutter any reassurances, just strode across the living room and wrapped his arms around me as the crying escalated at this rare emotional move by my father. He quietly rubbed circles on my back and held me up so I didn't collapse onto the floor in a heap.

I don't know how long we stayed there like that. It wasn't until Charlie's belly grumbled that either of us moved. I let out a slight giggle and he just looked down at me, clearly unsure what to do.

"Well," I whispered, " I guess that is my sign to make some dinner."

"Bella, honey, I'll order pizza. You don't have to cook. What do you fancy?" All I wanted was to regain some normalcy but I decided maybe this was what I needed, a change.

"How about double pepperoni and extra cheese?"

"Sounds good. You can choose what to put on TV."

I knew he was nervous. There was a big game on tonight and yet he was willing to sacrifice it to try and keep me happy. Well Charlie, keeping you happy will keep me happy so baseball it is.

Two hours later, the pizza was gone, the game was over and I couldn't keep my eyes open.

"Dad, I think I'm going to go to bed now. I've had an emotional day."

"Sure Bells. Sorry about your... well... you know..." Ah Charlie, a man of few words but I understood exactly what he meant.

I nodded.

"Night Dad."

I slowly climbed the stairs, scared to find what I would find up there. I opened the door to my room, a place that contained so many memories, and sat down on my bed. I smoothed the quilt, remembering all the good times and hoping that today would not be the end. I noticed that the gifts that Edward and his family had given me for my birthday had disappeared, but it didn't surprise me. I knew him too well, if he wanted a clean break he would attempt to give me one. Didn't he know that memories he couldn't take? I was not lying when I said I would never forget him. As I got ready for bed, I noticed the bruises on my hips from today's 'activities'. They were only a reminder of what I had lost and a new flood of silent tears overcame me.

Whilst I stood there inspecting my body, placing my hands over the marks left by his fingers, I didn't realise that this would not be the first time that Edward Cullen would mark my body. This was the first in a long string of events that were about to change my life, forever.

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