I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down but I'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?
I watch you as you go through your day it's become a ritual of mine. It feels like I'm watching a rerun of an old TV show. You bring Bella to school and I just watch you going after her. She makes you happy and you make her happy, I should be happy … right?
It makes me sad knowing you two are happy with each other without a care in the world. It's all your fault Cullen, you and that girl if you had never met… wait this isn't right I brought this on myself. It's my fault I imprinted.
I tried to ignore the imprint but every time I try to fight it I just end up thinking about you more.
Every night on patrol I go to the border and see if your there, you never are. You're always with Bella when she sleeps. Why do I even bother?
Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Every time I think I'm over you, I look at you. Your perfect there is no other way to describe you. Again and again I can't help fall more and more in love with you. I never wanted to fall for you in the first place.
It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?
It's been a month I still feel the same way. Every day is torture seeing you happy with Bella. Do you know how hard it is to pretend I still like her? You still hate me for liking her. If you knew I didn't like her how would you treat me? All of this is dragging me down into a state of depression and no matter how hard I try it doesn't work. In the dark I sit and hope that you'll notice my presents. Then I remember that you're with Bella again. Why are you always with her?
Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try
You're walking over to me in the locker room.
"Why are you still here MUTT?" you say. Your voice is as cold as you are. "Answer me!" you yell at me. He's cold to me but I still love him. Tears start to fall from my eyes. He looks at me surprised and glad at what he accomplished.
"I fell for you even though you hate me." I whispered looking into his eyes "I know you try to be mean towards me." I slowly walk out of the locker room leaving you there to think about what I said.
So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time
After gym class Edward walks up to me again. I'm scared of his response.
"What did you mean by that?" he asked. I showed him the thoughts that have been in my head since the imprint. After I was done I looked up at him. He looked shocked. Then he was gone. He was gone for the next week and when he came back he ignored me. I walked around in a fog at least when he hated me he felt something for me but this was too much to bear. We had to change seats for science class and I was seated next to him. I felt like talking to him.
"You know what we have in common?" he glanced at me I took that as a sign to keep talking.
"We're both dead." He glanced at me asking me to explain.
"You dead on the outside you know like a corps." He nodded still not talking.
"Well I'm dead on the inside."
"Why?" I finally got him to speak.
"……….. You ………"
Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to
"I fell for you. I never meant to. And I just kept falling for you."
"I never gave you a reason. I've been outright nasty to you!" Edward yelled. Now the entire class was looking at us.
"You never had to." I whispered staring into his eyes.
Review and tell me what you think. I'll take request for Jacob/Edward song fics. Just tell me the song and artist. Sorry that the characters were oc but it fit the song.
Disclaimer – I don't own the song or the book twilight. I wrote this because I was bored and I was listening to that song.