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"Just like his father," Marla said.

Not able to look her in the eye, I consider my words carefully then clear my throat ...

"Well, your husband was, um, very important to me."

Yet I shot him, killed him. Ever since that day I've been trying to reconcile this. There were circumstances out of my control that forced my hand. My loyalty to Ultra ... no ... my loyalty to Jedikiah overshadowing my loyalty to Roger.

Jedikiah saved my life, twice. He raised me, protected me. He mentored me, helped me become Ultra's top agent. He was the father I never had.

But Roger was one of us. He helped me gain better control over my powers. He was a confidante. He became my friend at one of the lowest times in my life, having just watched another friend killed. All because I used my powers in front of Tony and he was human.

On the other hand, Jedikiah is the one who was always there for me. It seemed like Jedikiah lived at Ultra, because if I needed him, he was there.

Roger went home to his family every night.

It was easy for me to believe what Jedikiah told me when he ordered me to kill Roger. His brother had become distant, staying away from me and Ultra. There was talk among the other agents and staff about why that was happening. Jedikiah just confirmed what some had already suspected.

Confronting Roger, though, was not what I expected. He seemed to be the same old Roger, not someone who was trying to destroy Ultra. He said he was protecting our kind ... what had Ultra become if Roger had set out to destroy it? It gave me pause, but I had a mission to complete.

I pulled the trigger without realizing the effect it would have. Yes, I knew Roger would die. I knew in theory what would happen, but following through with it was not what I expected. What I didn't understand was the effect it would have on me. The pain it would cause. Would I have still felt it, if Roger had changed ... wasn't the man I knew?

When I pulled that trigger I flashed back to Tony, but this time I wasn't the little kid in the limo watching it happen. I was the shooter. So not only did I shoot someone who cared for me, but, in that moment, I also became an Ultra assassin.

"You knew Roger?"

How do I respond to that?