Two Deaths

How much longer will I last?
No, the question is: Should I?
I think I know the causes
These gaps in my memory, strange urges
In the darkness, deep inside
It waits
And grows
When did this happen?
Have I always had two souls at war
Within this shell that is me?
I think I can remember...
I should have died
Forced to live on
Not really alive
Pumps and wires carry 'breath' and 'blood'
Which part of me is good?
It is so hard to tell, both promise death
I should have died!
Which path shall I take
Rocky and twisted
Death, dying, dead, died
A hopeless spiral
Pure, Silent death?
Leading onward: an endless cycle
Final, complete death?
Ending all forever, death for the dead
I have made my choice
May my heart stay strong
I choose life!