Castles POV. Something short, based off of Beckett's question while defending her choice to see Royce's dead body. No spoilers other then from episodes that have already aired.
"Castle, if it were me lying there, would you walk away?"
As the words fall out of your mouth, it's like you've set my worst nightmares to life. And suddenly we're not walking together any longer. Suddenly you're gone.
And it's just me. I'm waiting to turn the corner. I'm waiting because I'm gathering the strength, because that's where you're lying.
The asphalt is old and cracked under my feet, and the constant drizzle of rain is forming small pools in the crevasses next to you on the ground. I want to touch you, I want to hold you, but I can't because detectives Ryan and Esposito are holding me back from the crime scene.
But then you speak again and pull me from my reverie.
As I watch your face, you're looking at Royce now, you look utterly devastated. It's everyone's worst fear, things ending on bad terms. Not having that last chance. I think to myself how many chances we've had and how honestly, they have to be running out.
Maybe it's the writer in me but I can't help but think about all the maybes we could have had. At night my mind weaves elaborate fantasies of the maybes we still have. I don't know exactly when it became this way, but at this moment it feels like I can't' remember a time I didn't feel this way about you.
We turn around to leave the crime scene and your eyes catch mine with an unspoken plea.
Please, don't ever do this to me.
I take my heavy hand and reach to place it on your shoulder. When you don't shrug it off I start to think maybe … but then you turn to face me, grab my hand squeeze it gently and walk away.
I'm standing in the same place still as you get in your car, I hope you're going home but I doubt it. Our eyes meet again but this time it's me who communicates without words.
You don't have to worry about that; I'm your 'Always'.
I know you understand because after holding the gaze from across the lot you gently raise your eyebrow.
You coming?
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