Monday night on the plane to Italy

I hated Edward for what he did to me. I will always love him in one way or another, but right now he hurt me to badly. The only reason I'm on this plane is for the sake of the Cullen family. It is for them that I am heading to Italy. True I don't want Edward to kill himself but I am going to show him I am alive. It would hurt me to know that he killed himself but if Alice hadn't I'd be none the wiser.

The plane landed on Tuesday afternoon. Alice made me wait while she went to get a car. I should have remembered that Alice was not a person to want to blend in. She pulled up in a bright yellow Porsche.

"Don't you love the car?" She was happy because the car was fast.

"I'm guessing that this isn't a rental car is it?" I asked already knowing the answer. She just looked at me and that was all the response I needed. "Alice, I just want you to know that I am leaving after he sees me. He left me and I don't want to be near him for longer than I have to." I said as we were speeding to the city.

"I know Bella. I have your return ticket with me and will give it to you when we stop." She said almost sad.

"Your not coming back with me?" I guess I understood. I mean Edward is her brother.

"No Bella I can't, I'm going to stay with Edward and make sure he doesn't do anything else that is deemed suicidal." She answered.

We were silent the rest of the way to the city. I closed my eyes as the car sped down the road hitting speeds of 140m/h and greater I'm sure. I opened them again to find that we were in Volturi. The city was huge. Old stone buildings crowding small streets. A clock tower rising above all but a beautiful castle.

"He is under the clock tower Bella. This is as far as I go because he can read my thoughts. He'll think it's a trick." Alice stopped the car. I opened the door and got out. "He is going to act at noon, hurry." She said with urgency.

I ran along the streets pushing through people thinking of what I was going to say to him. I guess I would have to come up with something there because I have one minute. I jumped in to the fountain and ran across it. I saw him at the base of the tower.

"EDWARD!" I screamed. He didn't look up. I screamed again. He still didn't look up. I ran straight in to him. "Edward, look at me." With that he looked down at me. I backed up and let take in my full appearance. "I'm alive. Do you see me?"

"Y..yes." He stammered. He looked at me with wide eyes. "How did you get here?"

"Alice came and got me when she saw what you were going to do. So now that you know I am alive and well I'll make it easy on both of us and just leave. Good bye Edward have a good life." I turned and started to walk away. I felt a cold hand pulling on my wrist. I turned to look at him. He did drop my wrist so I pulled it away. He let it go knowing what I wanted.

"I never stopped loving you Bella. It hurt me to leave you. I didn't want it anymore than you did, I swear. I didn't want to risk your soul or humanity." He looked down at his feet in shame. Good he deserves it after what he did to me.

"I don't care if you do say you still love me. You left and that hurt. I have found happiness else where. He doesn't act like I'm breakable and I love him. I am leaving now and don't stop me. If you fallow me into the sunlight then it's your own fault. Good bye Edward. I have a flight to catch." I turned and left, didn't try and stop me. I walked into the light and felt its warmth soak into my skin. It reminded me of Jacob and his hugs. I wonder if his kisses are as warm? That was something to think about.

Tuesday night/ Wednesday morning.(Depending on what you deem after midnight.)

The ride back to Forks seemed to take forever. I took a taxi home and paid. I didn't even go inside. I simply jumped into my truck and raced to La Push. I needed to see my Jake. And above all, I needed to tell him that I love him.

I arrived at his house and hardly remembered to turn off my truck. I hit the ground running and surprisingly didn't trip. I knocked on the door and waited for someone to answer. A few seconds later Billy opened the door.

"Bella, what are you doing here?" He seemed shocked to see me but I could understand why. It was about one in the morning. And I had gone missing two days before.

"I'm sorry for the hour but I really need to talk to Jacob. It is terribly important, please tell me where he is." I said sounding about as nervous as I was. Billy nodded his head.

"He is at first beach. I don't know if he'll talk though. He was very upset when you left." Billy said his eyes looking out in the distance.

"Thank you Billy. I appreciate it." And with that a sprinted to the beach. It didn't take long with my knew found balance. I saw a campfire and raced to it hoping that Jake would be there. Luck wasn't on my side at the moment though. At the fire I saw Sam, Embry and Quil. This did however mean that Jake would be close. They heard me coming and all turned and stared at me. Well more like glared.

"What do you want Bella?" Sam asked in a menacing tone. The other two just continued to glare.

"I'm looking for Jake. It's really important that I talk to him before I get grounded for life. Please just tell me where he is." I said urgently and out of breath.

"And what if we don't, then what? Will you run back to the leeches?" Paul said as he walked up joining the others.

"Then I will sit here and annoy you guys with the smell of 'the leeches' that is clinging to me." I said in a matter of fact tone. Paul glared at me like to others.

"You ran off to be with your leech boyfriend. Why do you want to see Jake?" Quil stated shortly as if he knew all about why I left.

"I'll explain it to you all after I talk to Jake. I'm not leaving until I talk to him." I glared at them in the most evil and menacing way I could. I'm pretty sure I looked like an angry baby kitten.

"Then turn around." I whipped around at the sound of Jake's voice. It sounded so hurt and sad. I wanted to kiss and hug him, but I refrained. "Well, what did you want to say to me?"

"Can we talk somewhere else? I'll tell them the part that they want to know later, but I really need to say something in private with you first." I looked him in the eyes. His eyes were sad and serious. I was breaking my heart to see him like this. My eyes held hope. Hope that he would say yes.

He nodded his head and started walking toward the water. We walked along the shore a little ways until we came to our fallen tree. He stopped there and looked at me. "Say what you came to say." The sadness in his voice made water fill my eyes, but I refused to let it fall.

I took a deep breath. I was starting to get really nerous. His gaze was getting in patient. " I wanted to tell you why I left."

"Why couldn't you tell me that in front of everybody else?"

"Because there is more that I wanted to tell you that wasn't ment for them to hear just yet."

"Okay, I'm listening."

"I left because as much as I hate Edward i still care about him and his family. He thought I was dead and he wanted to end his life. I didn't want to be the cause of his death. I would feel terrible." I took a deep breath. "When I got there, I found him and told him I was alive. He said he still loved me and didn't want to leave. I told him that I didn't care, I was hurt at the time but I found someone else." I took another breath this one was shakey. I looked at his eyes and saw the same hope that had been showing in mine. "I got on the plane and came home. I jumped in the truck and came here. I went to your house and Billy said you were here." I am really nervous. "I came here to tell you that... that..."