Disclaimer: I in no know claim any of these characters as my own. They are the property of Bioware and I am simply playing with them.
AN: This is my first story so please be gentle! My Tabris was my first play through and this is what I thought might be going through her head during the wedding as I made her mistress. Enjoy!
Kallian Tabris hated everything at the moment (not Oghren though, Oghren had booze). She hated stupid Vaughn for not being able to keep it in his stupid pants. She hated stupid Duncan for not letting her go off and die in prison and introducing her to Al… what's his name with the stupid face (not handsome, no matter how good he looked in his armor at the moment). She hated Morrigan for making her damn offer and herself for accepting it and Stupid Face for going through with it (and probably enjoying it too. Bastard.) But most of all Kallian hated Elissa damn Cousland and her stupid damn humanness.
Damn Cousland and her stupid hair and stupid tattoo (that she totally stole from Kallian) and her "Oooo I fought my way out of a stupid castle that my father's supposed friend invaded. Boo hoo!" Never mind that she hid like a coward for the rest of the Blight and that she never thought to actually go LOOK for her brother (Kallian found him, but Maker forbid she gets thanked for it). No she was such a hero. She was so brave. Well did she fight the damn Archdemon? No she did not. So how come she got Alis…Stupid Face and Kallian got to be the "Hero of Ferelden" in public (seriously who came up with that?) and the dirty little secret in private? Just because her ears pointed, didn't she deserve happiness? No, no she did not because she made a deal with the devil and she should have just taken Zevran up on his damn offer for a massage and then she never would have fallen in love with Stupid Face and never would have wanted them both to live and never would have been forced to watch the man she loved…she needed to find Oghren again.
Crap. Stupid face is walking towards her and he has that look in his eye and she's smiling so hard it hurts and she's forgetting how to breath and this dress makes her look fat and… "Hello"
"Hello"
"So… some party. I personally think we could have done with a lot more cheese"… (why is he being so formal and why won't he touch her and she hates him but Andraste's tits she wants him to hold her and tell her he loves her and that damn Elissa Cousland is a stupid ugly nug and…) "Kallian, are you listening to me?"
"Yes" (and she's very proud because it actually sounds like she's not completely drunk)
"Hello, you must be Kallian. Alistair has told me so much about you it's a pleasure to finally meet you." Damn Elissa Cousland says with a warm smile on her face (Bitch.)
"Yes, Stup… Alistair does talk a lot doesn't he" she manages to joke (and it's a miracle she's not crying because he won't look at her and she needs him to look at her)
And they talk and she manages not to grab the dagger she has strapped to her thigh and stab Damn Elissa Cousland with it (and Maker does she want to but the woman's so nice). The entire time Alistair won't look at her and she just wants to curl up in a ball and die. Then finally the happy couple is called away and Alistair lingers and whispers in her ear that as soon as he can get away he'll stay with her tonight and that everything will be alright and that he loves her and she's forgetting how to breathe again. He sneaks a kiss and joins his lovely bride, and she is lovely with her golden hair and nice smile and regal bearing (not at all like Kallian, Kallian is all dark and closed in and what does he see in her?). Then damn Elissa Cousland says something and Alistair laughs, and Maker's breath where is Oghren?
Kallian knew it would be like this. They both did. But it was better to have some of Alistair is none at all. And she knows that he will find time for her later because he is just so good so she really shouldn't be crying like this. But then Oghren is there and he has more booze and she loves the glorious drunken dwarf even if she hates everyone else in the world at the moment. Especially Damn Elissa Cousland and her niceness and her fertility and the fact that she is not, and never will be stupid Kallian Tabris who willingly let the man she loved go and marry someone she just knows he'll fall in love with (and then she'll be alone because Shianni won't look at her anymore and Soris is resentful and stupid Vaughn is in the corner smirking and she just wants to rip his throat out). So she stumbles into her rooms and collapses on the bed, trying to sleep (and it should be about an hour till Alistair can come) and she doesn't want him to know she was crying, but he will. And he'll try to make it better and it won't work because all she can think about was Damn Elissa Cousland.