The Anonymous & The Precious
The Alternative from On Your Mind Chapter One:
Requested by Chibylove
For Chibylove, because she gave me the opportunity to think further than where my other story started.Rated: T
Genre: Romance & Friendship (Probably humor too.)
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It's not easy being a freak.
That's why I prefer being the Anonymous.
"Kairi, why are you going to school all alone? Isn't Xion waiting for you?" My mum asked as I gave her a small kiss and headed for the front door.
I froze in my steps and turned to face her with a sigh. "Mum, I told you, Xion is dating Vanitas. She's probably on school already."
My mum took a deep breath and I could hear her question, which she knew would create an awkward situation, before she spoke it out loud.
Shouldn't you be dating too?
I should. Maybe.
To claim the title: 'I'm dating', you need a couple of things:
One, you need a boyfriend (Obviously),
So, two, you need a guy you love.
Then, three, that guy needs to love you too in order to fulfill step one.
Four, you had to be brave enough to talk to the guy.
So, why am I not dating?
One: I don't have a boyfriend.
Two: I do have a guy I'm in love with.
Three: The guy doesn't love me because he's in love with somebody else.
Four: I'm way too scared to talk with him.
"Shouldn't you be dating too?"
Mental facepalm. No, mum. I just told you why I am not dating… in my head.
"Mum… The fact Xion is dating doesn't mean I have to be dating as well." I said, trying to stay gentle.
My mother smiled and gave up. "Have a nice day at school!" She said as she ruffled my hair.
I walked to the bus stop and frowned as I saw that nobody else was there. I was all alone.
Then, I let my backpack slid from my shoulders and let it drop onto the floor.
Waiting.
I saw a boy arriving. Blond, messy hair and crystal blue eyes and I knew enough.
Roxas Strife.
The brother of the one I'd prefer not to be talking about.
My personal barrier, which resulted me in being the Anonymous all these years, kept me from waving at him. We'd been together in a project once. Well… he'd probably forgotten all about me. That's how things are.
I searched in my head for his mental voice and waited until he came in my reach.
I can so kill him when he does that. It's just not fair. Why? Why? Why does he have her?
How come confusion? I frowned and cocked my head to the side. What the heck was he thinking about?
Of course, I would've probably done the same thing. Shouldn't blame him too much. After all, she was the one who decided… Gah! Stop this. Just think about something else!
His eyes wondered around, searching for something to think about.
Too bad he had to look at me.
Oh, there's…. shit. I forgot her name…
"Hi," He greeted me casually while standing beside me, letting his backpack fall to the ground…. Rather rudely. He'd get a new one every year or what?
"Hello Roxas," I said, my voice shivering a bit, not really used to the fact I was talking to others than my mother.
She's still cute.
I blushed and looked to the ground. What now? What now? What do I say?
"You're not much of a talker, are you?"
I shook my head, and looked at him. His blue eyes were watching me, making me feel uncomfortable. He probably saw my uneasiness in my eyes.
Now, why doesn't she have a Sora to tell her he loves her every second of the day? Why does he tell Naminé that? She doesn't need to hear that all the time. She knows she's great.
The forbidden name rang through my mind.
Sora…
I've been in love with him since I saw him in Roxas's memory, long ago. But in that same memory, all my hopes turned to dust…
He loved Naminé. The Precious.
He was holding her hand… kissing her… talking to her.
Why would he care about the Anonymous when he had the Precious?
Why can't I remember her name? It was something with… with a K… Kate? No, Kim? No way….
He frowned in concentration. He really tried hard.
"Roxas!"
Sora…
I flinched and backed away from him, trying to hide… which made my arm brush against Roxas, catching his attention.
What's wrong with her? She… Sora? She's afraid of Sora?
I heard him laugh in his head. From all persons to be afraid of… afraid of Sora? That's like being afraid of… of… cupcakes. Sora the Cupcake.
Unconsciously, I tried to search for Sora's mental voice. It was, like all those other mental voices, lower than his original voice.
Then, I focussed really hard and I heard him in my head… for the first time ever.
Breaking my heart once again.
Seriously, he could've wait until I told Naminé goodbye! He can't expect me to immediately hang up after I've told her I love her! Sheesh, he's been in love before too, right? He must know how it feels.
I refused to look at him.
"Hello Sora." Roxas said casually.
"Don't 'hello Sora' me!" Sora growled. "You just left home! I always wait for you, but you couldn't wait for me once?"
Not if you're talking with Naminé.
Of course you wouldn't wait for me, you're always doing that. You never think about others.
The two boys glared at each other and I felt strangely uncomfortable.
They were having these rows only because of misunderstandings?
Such a shame.
But hey, who was I? I wasn't even a friend from them… so I had to stay out of their business.
Sadly enough…
And then Sora's deep blue eyes caught mine.
Whoa… who is she?
Roxas saw him looking and frowned. Well done, Ms. Red. You've caught my brother's attention. Now for Pete's sake… KEEP his attention!
Sora blinked twice. She's cute.
Some twisted side of me absolutely enjoyed that thought. But the rest of me, the bigger side, shrunk away. Oh no. This was making it all so hard.
Why did he have to date Naminé? If he hadn't, I could try to be brave, for once, and I could have said 'hello'. Maybe.
But the twisted side laughed at my thoughts. What kept me from saying 'hello'? I'd said 'hi' to Roxas as well.
Saying 'hi' didn't mean you were crushing on somebody immediately, right?
I was, but it wouldn't seem like it, right?
A second had passed.
She's really cute. Is she dating Roxas or something?
He's still looking at her… this amazes me! He never stares longer at a girl than what? Two seconds?
But in my mind, the twisted side whispered as well…
Say it!
"Hi,"
My other side made a mental facepalm. The twisted side smiled happily.
Sora blinked again. "Hi," He said, much softer than he had before.
And meanwhile, Roxas started to grin like a maniac.
Does somebody PLEASE have a camera? I have to film this! This is not happening! Look at the way he stares at her! Well… it'll be over soon. Roxas added gloomily to his thoughts. This is, after all, just a moment. What was her name again? K… K…
Sora's head was a chaos. Thoughts went and left so fast I could barely hear them. Until he cleared them up.
Awkward. What do I say now? 'Hi, I'm Sora'? Odd. Odd.
Well, he doesn't seem to introduce himself. I will then, however she seems to know him. I must have let his name drop once or twice in that project… K… K…Kairi! That's it!
He remembered. I was really surprised.
Roxas cleared his throat. "Kairi, this is Sora, my brother. Sora, this is Kairi, a friend of mine."
A friend. He called you a friend. And he remembered your name!
Just a friend, huh? Wait, why am I thinking this? She's just a girl. Some ordinary girl. Nothing more.
Yes, Sora. Let that sink in. Puh.
The bus came as a girl with brown hair came running toward the bus stop and I realized this eternity, for as it had seemed an eternity, it had only been a few minutes.
"Hey, can I sit next to you?" Roxas asked me as I had found myself a seat.
Why not? He's your friend now, after all.
I smiled a bit and let him sit next to me.
"I'm sorry about my brother. He's such an idiot these days."
"I heard that, Roxas!" Sora said with a raised brow. He sat in the back of the bus, keeping the seat empty next to him.
For Naminé.
Roxas observed me. Again.
There's something just off about her. I just can't seem to name it.
You'd better not, Roxas. There's no need to know I'm a freak.
He probably knows that already.
Well… yeah.
"Just asking, but where do you sit in the breaks?" Roxas asked. Maybe she can help me out. She seems nice enough. She has to help me!
"I-I used to hang out with Xion, but now she's dating Vanitas… she's usually with him. I spend most of the time under the stairs."
Roxas nodded. That explains why I never really saw her. I mean, you can't miss her with that hair.
I wanted to follow Sora's example and say: "I heard that, Roxas!", but obviously, I couldn't.
This is so odd… I've never experienced this before…
Sora was confused.
I turned my head slightly, to look at him.
You would nearly say…. I… Nu-uh. No way. I'm not. Bloody heck I'm not.
The bus skipped to a stop, and a blonde girl with a white sundress came in.
Roxas stared.
Sora stared.
She's so damn beautiful… Roxas groaned in his mind. He let out a sigh and turned to me again.
"There comes the bride…" He said, sarcasm dripping off his voice.
I blocked out Sora. I didn't felt the need to hear his voice saying she looked beautiful in my head too.
Of course, I knew she was.
Her long eyelashes surrounding clear blue eyes, her blonde hair fell over her shoulders as she wiped a strand from her eyes.
Then, her gaze raised and met… Roxas's?
Nam… why did you do this to me? He asked her in his head, gloomily.
I had heard Naminé only in his memory. I'd never heard her voice in real life.
She blushed, slightly and then met Sora's gaze.
And I blocked them all out, except Roxas.
Wait… he was jealous?
Roxas was jealous of Sora?
He was in love with Naminé too?
Well, I think we can assume hell did break loose. You came in just on time, it seems.
(A/N)
I really hope this start did not disappoint any of you… and I hope you enjoyed this ;)
Just so you all know, I'm shifting perspectives. These twisted (boy, do I love that word) relationships need further explanation! xD
Thanks for reading chapter one and I hope I'll be seeing you all back in the second chapter! *Waves*