Hello! This is my first fiction ever published in English and it is my first time on this site. Anyway, the story that follows its an one shot in two parts. I am sorry if my English is a little disturbing, English is not my mother tongue so I still have some problems. I promise I will correct the mistakes I see!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of Vampire Knight series. This is just pure fiction based on the manga/anime Vampire Knight and it is all the the result of my creepy mind.

note: the story is written from Yuuki`s point of view, I hope you like it. It's a little bit dramatic, I suppose... anyhow, the story contains my idea of what would happen in the anime, after the last episode of the second series, after Kaname, Yuuki, Hanabusa and Ruka leave the Cross Academy.
I hope you enjoy it!

Vampire Knight

ONE SHOT

YUUKI

BLOOD AND DEATH
THE GENTLENESS OF THE MOON

First part

I am a vampire. I cannot cry in front of others, because I must not show my weakness. As a pure blood I have to confine my feelings and to be strong.

But how can I do such sort of a thing when I lived so much years of my life as a human being?

Yuuki… what are you thinking about?

My brother, Kaname, is a very gentle person…

"Person?" is too much to be said, I suppose. Vampires are not human, so they can not be called persons, do they?

I could not remember seeing this expression of his. He has a light smile on his face, gentle as his gestures were and his always-sad eyes were now covered in a bright pallor. He did not look the same as he did when we were at Cross Academy. He seemed to be happier than I ever saw him.

Nothing important, brother… I was just recalling some moments from my past life. I was thinking about Father and Mother right now… I wish they didn't sacrifice themselves for my well-being…

I shook my head. What was I thinking, again? I must not make my brother feel bad ever again! Much had he had to endure these 10 years while I did not recognize him, so much love he has to offer me… it almost scares me how addictive he got to me.

Why am I being unsatisfied and selfish? I think only about myself, I wish I was with Zero right now. I love my brother, I always had… but being a vampire is something I am not fond of; I don not with to drink blood, I do not with to be hunted and to live this miserable existence.

This smile of my brother, it is something I always dream of. The way he holds my hands… it would have made me tremble, past ago… But now, I can not feel the same heart-shaking feeling I would have felt in the past. I feel affection for him, I recognize him as my older brother and I truly love him.
But he is family and I can not go back to my romantic feelings for him.

I told him I had always been in love with him… but, it is true? Have I always been in love with this man who is in front of me, right now? Have I always dreamed of touching his soft skin, to kiss him on these gentle lips and to tell him how much I love him? Did I ever wish to live all my life with him?

Perhaps… Perhaps I did. I cannot remember my former life. It is past, it is human. I am not human anymore.
Can I love Kaname the way I used to? Can I?

I wonder while I look at his soft expression.

What's the matter, Yuuki? He asks again, getting scared because of my blank expression.

Nothing… nothing at all, Kaname. Let's go. Hanabusa and Ruka must've wait for us, right now. We have to get going, the moon is arising…

It was dark outside… we were creatures of the night. I remember the first sunshine I had as a vampire and I recall those non-gentle rays under my skin… I used to love the sunrise, but now I can not endure it anymore…

Ok, come on, Yuuki…

Kaname got a hold of my hand and I walked beside him on the street. I can not remember how many hotels have we changed until now. We move through cities and we can not stay anywhere. I could ask Kaname where are we wondering too… but I am too afraid by his possible answer. I am afraid he will say that we are really heading to somewhere… somewhere where we could live all our lives.
And I am scared of that. I am scared to live as a monster.

Hm? What is it, Hanabusa?

Yuuki-sama! Wake up!

As a vampire, I could tell what time of the day it was, and I could certainly say it was noon.

Why did you wake me up, Hanabusa? I am a little tired… I hope Kaname doesn't need me for anything right now, last night was quite tiring…

I opened my eyes and looked at his frightened face. He stood on my bed and his hands where on my shoulders. He probably had a big time trying to wake me up… which meant that there wasn't something to joke about.

Something serious had happened. That was the thought that wandered trough my mind.

Wake up! Please. Ruka… Ruka was killed. I can not find Kaname, either. The hunters… the hunters are coming after us. We have to run, Yuuki. I swore to Kaname that I would protect you, and I will… please!

His voice was scared, his eyes were full of hate and inquietude… he was rather impulsive, I knew that. I wondered why wasn't I too affected by those news… Ruka was killed. I was not to fond of her… I knew that I hated her because of her love for my older brother.

But what happened to Kaname? I arose immediately from my bed and changed my clothes. I didn't even try to scream at Hanabusa to get out, because he turned his face around. He couldn't get out, I assumed, he was too scared to leave me alone. What happened, I wondered in my head… this was serious business. Why was I so selfish? Ruka was killed, but why? Where was Kaname? What has happened to him? He couldn't have been killed – I would have felt it, I would know immediately because of the bond that was created between us…

What has happened? I requested to know while we were heading out of the hotel. The day light wasn't gentle at all...

I told you, Yuuki-sama! The hunters that were chasing us… he silenced for a moment. I did not know anything about any hunters, and now he managed to understand that.

What hunters, Hanabusa?

Silence. He could not tell anything, I understood. Those were orders from Kaname…

My older brother… where was he? I could not feel his presence anywhere, but I knew he was alive. He ought to be, at least… I could not live as a monster in this world without him. I had a lot of questions to ask him… about my parents, about the reason they wanted to keep me so badly… I had to tell my older brother how much I loved him, even though only as a brother…

In my head, I kept screaming for his name. I was running with Hanabusa, trying to keep my tears closed, thinking about Kaname. Ruka was killed by some hunters I did not now. Why was she killed?

They wanted to kill you, Yuuki-sama… but they missed the room, so they got Ruka. I don't know what has happened to Kaname… but I have to protect you. They want to kill you…

I stopped from running, for a moment. I was shocked to hear these things from Hanabusa, but more shocked I was because of the smell…

I stopped, with tears in my eyes. My heart was beating too fast and I could not keep up with it. My head hurt, my chest hurt… I turned around and saw the blood I have smelt. Immediately, I leaned over Kaname's body.

He was not dead…

His face was paler that ever and his eyes were truly happy when he saw my face… I could not help the tears flowing from my eyes.

Kaname! Kaname! Kaname… what happened, my sweet older brother… what happened? Do not leave me, please… I screamed with all my heart, though I knew, I felt in my heart he could not survive, not anymore.

I love you, Yuuki… he said with those gentle lips of him, his expression was serious and happy, though I could see the pain engraved on his face…

Kaname… I tried to scream his name, but it came only as a whisper…

I do not wish to leave you, my sweet Yuuki… but I can not survive… I cannot. Can you do me a favor, I please you? I shook my head in an affirmative way. I was not capable to talk. Tears were desperately flowing on my cheeks while he asked me: Suck my blood, hug me, kiss me, Yuuki.

I leaned over him… my heart was shaking while I covered his lips with my mouth and my hands were embracing him… my fangs bit his neck while his hands were resting on my back… my tears were now mixed with his blood, I could feel only sadness in my heart and I could not see anything anymore but the face of my beloved brother dieing in my hands…

- Those were 3 favors, traitor… you swore to protect me forever. Why did you left me?

Even though I said these words out loud, I knew he could not hear me because… he was dead already.