No one ever told me it would be easy to leave the past behind, so I assumed it would be a struggle, but I had no idea it would be like going through my own personal hell.
I decided if I wanted to get a clean start I was going to have to leave the Big Apple and all my friends behind, how I was going to do this I have no idea, I mean this is what I know, what I'm used to; being alone is all I ever understood. I could tell by the look in Savahnah's bright green eyes that she was just as confused as I was.
"How could we bite the hand that feeds us Viv? She questioned me, she always needed to know every answer to every question, but this time I couldn't answer her question so I just let her go on talking, "I can't imagine hurting the poor man who took us in and treated us like a father".
She had a point but I knew if I wanted to make a distinguished name for myself it wasn't going to be by sleeping around and spending my money on something that would put me in an early grave. I looked at Savahnah, sitting on the couch and could very well see she knew what had to be done to save ourselves.
"Alright Viv, If this is what you want to do we'll do it" she said somberly, and got up from the couch and slowly walked into her bedroom of our small apartment.
I walked over to the old coffee table sitting in the middle of the living room and picked up the check list for my game plan and crossed off step one: Persuasion. I had a feeling convincing Savahnah wasn't going to be a walk in the park.
The walk to Aaron's apartment seemed longer than usual, probably because I was about to hurt the one person who gave me a job and helped me out when times were hard. As I rounded the corner I saw Aaron sitting on the balcony of his pent house apartment, next to him were his two new favorite girls; Annie and Julia. I met the girls once when I went to drop some money off at Aaron's about a week ago. They are pretty girls, blonde hair blue eyes so it was easy to see why they were Aaron's favorite, he was always a sucker for blondes, that could very well be why I was never a favorite although he did like me once. The girls are young, probably too young to be in this sort of business, but who am I to judge them, they could have very well gone through the same thing I went through when I was their age.
I guess my facial expression must have foretold Aaron why I was over at his apartment. I normally don't go over for social visits and it was too late in the afternoon to drop off any sort of money. Aaron has always been the understanding type of guy but this time I highly doubted he was going to be.
"Well, well, well if it isn't Miss Vivienne Woods. Where have you been lately"? Aaron stood up, walked to the edge of the balcony and leaned over the railing giving me his notorious seductive look making this all the more harder.
"We need to talk" I said sternly. I walked up the front steps and opened the door, by the time I reached the landing at the top of the stairs he was standing outside his door. "Savahnah and I are leaving, we can't stay any longer".
Puzzled he asked "Why? Two weeks ago the city was all the two of you ever talked about. You are making so much money a night you can have almost everything you want"-
-"Oh yeah? I can have anything I want?" I interrupted. "Then why can't I be happy here, why can't I actually enjoy life? I thought the city was great and I guarantee a hell of a lot of other people think its great too, but face it Aaron, who is it great for? The men I sleep with, because they get to feel great for 20 minutes of their day, pay me however much money they feel like and get on with whatever they were doing before? What do I get from it, huh? I handful of money and an empty apartment I get to go home to because God forbid any man dates a prostitute. This is not how I pictured my life and I won't be young forever Aaron. It's just what I have to do".
I couldn't exactly tell if he was mad, upset or even happy with what I had just told him. His eyes just seemed to peer out straight in front of him and when I followed his gaze it was just to the wall.
"Look I didn't mean to make you mad or anything but this is what I have to do or the city is going to kill me. I truly do appreciate all you have done"-
- "I know you appreciate what I've done because if you didn't you wouldn't be standing in front of my door telling me this. If this is what you want to do then fine, I'm not going to stop you". He turned around and headed back inside and from where I was standing I could see he was picking something up off the table. He walked back to where I was standing, grabbed my arm and placed two 100 dollar bills in my hand. With his one hand on mine he took his other hand cupped my face and gently kissed me on my lips and with tears in his eyes whispered "Take care kid".
I didn't notice I was crying until the tears started rolling off my face and landed on the 100 dollar bills. Aaron must have went back inside without me even realizing it. This idea of leaving was much harder than I thought but then again nothing in life was made to be easy. As I started back home I saw Savahnah standing just a few feet a head of me.
"Viv, it'll all be okay, I promise" she said as she ran over to give me a hug. I threw my arms around her neck and just let the tears fall, it would be no good for both of us to hold them back. "If things were easy than they wouldn't be amazing in the end, we are doing the right thing for us, you and I both know that so don't forget it".