*a/n- everyone who didn't understand "The Light," which is really only understandable if you knew the whole story, may understand this better. Or maybe not. It's hard to tell...

Lord.

That is what you call him.

You say he is to free me of my sins.

You say he grants eternal life

So I gave him my everything.



I've often heard to stand tall in your faith

Or you shall not stand at all

I tried so damn hard to stand strong

And when the earthquake hit I didn't take it back

I gave him my everything



God is peace

Or so I've been told

But too soon, I let him go

Deciding God was not, could not be

I quickly buried my soul in this world



At the lowest point

I asked God to give back what I had lost

I waited,

And waited

Slept for a while and ate a quick supper

Learned a triple spin off a diving board

Won the gold metal for most peanuts ever eaten

Named the strange voices in my head

Trained a dog to be just like Lassie

And than the fun began...

I waited.



But I realized, after a long while

That God hadn't put me on this earth to wait

And he had never promised to give anyone a perfect life



It occurred to me that there was most likely a reason

For the insanity of this world

A reason why everything couldn't be perfect

Free-will, uh, I'm sorry, I don't buy that..

But it is quite possible that God put me on this earth

To mold me to be a better person,

To teach me, and to use me

And to give me a chance to learn a triple spin off a diving board. (or maybe not that... but you see where I'm coming from... right?)



No one ever said this life would be easy

But it sure doesn't have to be this hard

To everyone who disagrees, I understand why

And I may be wrong



But despite the trace of doubt I sometimes feel

Gnawing at my mind

I must follow my heart

Telling me to give it to him all over again

To give God my everything



*NewYorkBabe*

*A/n- I do realize I got kinda carried away while I was 'waiting', but that part was so much fun to write, so I decided anyone who doesn't like it can deal with it. I say this with much respect, that is really THEIR problem. Not to be confused with MY problem, which, at the moment, is whether or not my huge test tomorrow will be flunked. All earlier problems of my life are no longer made available to my mind, which flushed them out much like a movie theater does old movies. This way, I can move on..

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