New Story that I started. Wondering if I should continue or not.
"Mommy! Mommy! Get up! You said we would make breakfast!" Her daughter yells enthusiastically. She was just four years old but was so smart for her age.
Brittany mumbled "five more minutes."
"No mommy come on!" Macy pushes on her moms shoulders wanting her to turn around.
Brittany moved around a bit and then opens her eyes slowly. She starts to smirk and begins to tickle her daughter.
"I've got you now!" Brittany says excitedly continuing to tickle her daughter until she hears Jason crying in the next room.
Jason is about 7 months old, he is just starting to roll over and learning how to crawl.
Brittany stops tickling Macy and makes her way out of the bed.
"Ok let's go check on Jason and make breakfast." Brittany says as Macy starts to head towards the kitchen to help her mom.
Before Brittany gets out of bed she sighs trying to prepare herself to take care of her two children. Her and her wife are "taking a break" for the time being.
Brittany thought back to the day that they separated and she could remember it perfectly.
Flashback
It was a Wednesday night, Santana said that she would be home from work to have dinner with her family. Brittany was preparing dinner hoping that this would be there new beginning to get things right.
As Brittany was getting dinner ready she kept looking at the clock seeing as how it was starting to get closer and closer to the time that Santana should be home. After getting the table set she went to go check on Macy and Jason who were in the living room. Macy was watching TV and Jason was in his bouncer.
After checking on them she decided to just text Santana asking her when she thought she would be home.
After about an hour of waiting Brittany started to get worried so she tried calling her. Her attempts to reach her wife failed when her calls went straight to voicemail.
Santana worked for a music production company and she had just signed a few new clients that she has been dealing with for the past few months.
Once Brittany set her phone on the counter she shook her head trying to keep herself composed. She didn't want to keep her kids waiting any longer for dinner so she went to get Macy and Jason and have them come to the kitchen.
"Macy come sit at the table while I get Jason so we can eat." Brittany said trying not to sound upset about Santana.
"Ok mommy, but where is mama?" Macy asks. Brittany wipes her eye and picks up Jason as she thinks of how to explain this to her daughter once again.
"She is just working late, but she will be home in just a little bit ok sweetie." Brittany says hoping that that will be enough. When she sees Macy nod she feels relieved that she doesn't have to explain anything more.
Macy sat at the table and started eating while Brittany fed Jason and made small talk with her children.
"Alright baby go get ready for bed while I get Jason ready and then I'll come tuck you in okay?" Brittany says picking up Jason.
"Okay mommy." Macy starts to get up and head to the bathroom to start brushing her teeth.
Brittany gets Jason to bed and then goes to check on how Macy is doing. She walks into her bedroom to see Macy putting on her pajamas that she left on her bed.
"Hey honey, you are such a big girl brushing your teeth and getting your pajamas on." Brittany smiles as she makes her way over to Macy to finish helping her get her shirt over her head.
"Alright lay down and I will read you a story before saying goodnight." Brittany says going to sit next to the bed.
After Brittany tucks Macy in she reads her a story. Brittany goes to give Macy a kiss on her forehead when she calls her name.
"Mommy" Macy whispers.
"Yes sweetie?" Brittany asks her daughter while stroking her hair.
"Why is mama gone all of the time?" Macy asks sadly.
Brittany thinks about how to explain this to her daughter in the best way possible.
"Well Macy sometimes your mama has to work a lot so that we can have nice things, like this house and the tv that we watch every night. So she isn't home as much as she wants to be." Brittany says not knowing what else to say.
"I want to spend more time with her mommy." Macy says looking sadly at her mom.
The look Macy is giving Brittany is breaking her heart. "I know baby, and I will tell your mama that you want too okay. Why don't you and your mama just go to the park on Saturday and spend some time together?" Brittany suggests.
When she sees the smile on her daughters face she knows she's said the right thing.
"That would be fun." Macy says happily.
"Okay well I'll tell her when she gets home, but you just go to sleep and I'll see you in the morning." Brittany says as she gives her daughter one last kiss.
"I love you mommy." Macy says as she starts to close her eyes.
"I love you too sweetie." Brittany says as she gets off of the floor and makes her way to the kitchen.
Brittany is beyond upset at this point knowing that her wife is disappointing not only her but her daughter which makes her even more upset.
As Brittany starts to clean up the kitchen she hears the front door open. When she sees Santana walking in it makes Brittany's blood boil.
"Hey Britt, I'm sorry I'm so late, things got kind of hectic at work." Santana said dropping her bag on the kitchen counter.
"I tried calling you and left you three voicemails, you couldn't check your phone just once?!" Brittany says with an angry tone turning towards her wife.
Santana started to walk towards Brittany to apologize, Brittany stood there for a second thinking about forgiving her wife right there, but when she smelt alcohol on her breath she pulled away.
"Have you been drinking?" Brittany asked pushing Santana back.
"Well we just signed a huge client so we decided to go out for a few drinks; I couldn't say no, they all wanted to celebrate." Santana says nonchalantly not thinking it was that big of a deal.
"Really Santana! All the problems that we've been having and you're going to go out for drinks instead of trying to fix the relationship with your wife and two children!" Brittany said pacing back and forth.
Santana moved towards Brittany grabbing her hands trying to calm her down. "No Britt it's not like that! Of course I wanted to come home and be with my family, but I couldn't just leave!"
"Yes you could have!" Brittany yells while pulling away sighing in the process.
"The thing is it's not so much me that I'm worried about its Macy and Jason. You know tonight Macy asked me where you were, it's the first time she sounded worried, and I hate having to act like everything's ok!" Brittany said with tears in her eyes.
"Look if it's me then fine, but you won't do that to our kids. I think maybe you should stay with your sister for a few days."
"What! No! We can work this out, I'm not just leaving my family!" Santana said starting to get a little angry.
Brittany looks at Santana with sad eyes "Look Santana it would just be for a few days, I think we need some time apart and maybe that's what you need to see how your life would be without us in it." Brittany says sadly.
"I will bring you a blanket and pillow to sleep on." Brittany starts to walk into their bedroom.
All Santana could do was stand there and look completely shocked, she had no idea what had just happened. She decided that they should just finish this conversation in the morning.
For Santana there wouldn't be a next morning, Brittany took the kids to her parents house and left a note telling her that she wanted her out of the house by the time she got off work. Santana started to get emotional while reading the letter knowing that she had to find a way to fix this.
"Mommy? Mommy?" Macy says while shaking her shoulder.
"What are you doing?" Brittany shakes her head and looks at her daughter.
"Nothing sweetie just thinking about some things. You ready to help me make some pancakes?!" Brittany asks.
"Yes!" Macy yells running into the kitchen ready to cook.
It has been almost a month since Santana has been gone, she didn't think it would have lasted this long.
Santana wakes up from her sleep hearing her alarm going off. She opens her eyes and smiles. This is her weekend to have her kids. Since her and Brittany are "taking a break" she gets to see their kids every other weekend and one or two nights during the week if she isn't working.
Since the time she left their house together, Jasmine, her sister had an extra bedroom, so she is just staying there for the time being because she doesn't want to look at her situation as a permanent one. Brittany and her have been cordial with one another, but haven't made as much progress as she would like.
Santana gets out of bed, throws on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt to go pick up her kids. "Hey Jasmine I'm going to go get Macy and Jason! I should be back in about an hour or so."
"Ok see you when you get back!" Jasmine yells back.
Santana and her sister have an amazing relationship; she is the one person besides Brittany that she can count on.
Santana gets to her old house and goes up to the front door. It's weird having to knock knowing that she used to just walk in whenever she would get home, but things were different.
She knocks on the door and she can hear Brittany say "come on Macy get your shoes on that's probably your mama at the door!" Santana just stands there waiting for the door to open.
She hears the lock being turned and see's Brittany opening the door standing on the other side.
"Hey." Brittany says with a half smile on her face.
"Hey." Santana says back.
"Come on in, Macy is getting her shoes on and Jason is in the play pen if you want to go see him." Brittany says stepping aside to let Santana in.
"Ok, yeah thanks." Santana walks over to Jason to pick him up with a huge smile on her face.
"Hey buddy, I missed you so much." She pulls him out and gives him a huge hug and a kiss on the forehead. Brittany is watching their interaction and thinks about the way things used to be.
Before she has too much time Macy comes running out of her room saying "I can't find Timmy! Where is Timmy mommy?" Timmy is her little stuffed bear that she takes everywhere.
The day after Santana left, Macy was feeling sad so Brittany bought her a stuffed teddy bear and told her that as long as you have him with you everything will be ok. She hasn't gone anywhere without him since.
Brittany kneels down to a now in tears Macy and says "let's go look in your room, he has to be there we will find him I promise." Giving her daughter a hug and a kiss.
Brittany walks towards Santana. "Hey Macy can't find Timmy, would you mind looking around the living room or in the bedroom to see if she left it in there?" Brittany asks.
"Of course, no problem, it couldn't have gone too far" She says. Santana puts Jason back in the play pen while she searches high and low for her daughter's precious teddy bear. She decides to start in the living room looking in the couches and under the tables, but no luck.
She heads toward their bedroom, or what used to be her bedroom.
Santana gets a sad look on her face when she first walks in, thinking about how much she has missed their home together.
First she looks by the dresser, but nothing, as she looks up she sees a picture on the top of the dresser. It's of all four of them. It was taken about five months ago, they were at Brittany's parents house for a barbeque so they were sitting all together on a blanket in the backyard. Brittany was sitting between Santana's legs leaning against her, while Macy was laying on Brittany's right side and Jason was in Brittany's arms. She remembered that day and smiled at how happy they used to be.
She came out of her thoughts when she heard little feet running at her. "Mama, did you find Timmy?" Macy says with tears in her eyes.
"Not yet baby, but I promise we will find him before we leave." She says rubbing her head.
"That's what mommy said too." Macy ran back to the living room. Santana decided to check under the bed just in case.
She got on her knees and moved some of the blankets that had fallen, and there was Timmy wrapped in one of the blankets on the floor. She got a smile on her face and started walking towards the living room. When she got there she saw Brittany holding a crying Macy while Jason just has a worried look on his face in the play pen.
Brittany looked up and saw Santana holding the teddy bear and relief washed over her face. "Hey Macy, look what mama found" Brittany says while looking up at Santana. Macy turned her head and saw her mama holding Timmy in her hand.
She got up out of Brittany's lap and ran to give her a big hug "Thank you mama! You found him!" Macy smiles happily.
"Of course baby girl, I promised you didn't I?" Santana says while hugging her daughter. Macy gets up and runs to her room telling Timmy to never do that again.
Brittany looks up at Santana "Thank you for finding him, who knows what would have happened if we didn't."
"No problem at all" Santana says happy that she could help.
They stare at each other for a second before Brittany moves over getting the bag for Santana.
"Well, I guess you should get going, I didn't think it would take this long to find a teddy bear." She starts to laugh, Santana looks at her and starts to laugh too.
"Yeah but I would rather be here looking for a teddy bear than anywhere else." With that Brittany looked up and had an actual smile on her face. This was the first time she felt like her and Santana were on the same page since taking their break.
Brittany finished getting together Macy and Jason's things while Santana got Jason in his car seat.
"Come on Macy, it's time to go" Santana says as they are walking out the door.
Santana looks back to Brittany "Hey we are having a movie night at the house tomorrow night, just me the kids and Jasmine if you want to come by?" Santana asks anxious to hear her answer.
Brittany looks at Santana with a sad look "I wish I could but I already made plans for Saturday night, I'm sorry" Santana looks disappointed.
"Ok well if something gets cancelled you are more than welcome to join us." Santana sadly says as she turns towards the car to get on the road.
Brittany just smiles and nods as she closes the door. Brittany wants things to work out with Santana but she is so afraid that if she lets her back in then things will just go back to the way they were. She has no clue what she's going to do.
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