Chapter One: Every Other Weekend

"I know why, but I don't know why

We ever let this happen

Fallin' for forever was a big mistake"

Every Other Weekend by Reba

Location: Montpelier, VT

Date: Friday, February 27, 2015

It has been a month since Olivia filed for divorce. A month of her waiting to appear in front of the judge to get away from all of the damage he did to her. A month of crying herself to sleep every night. A month of her trying to hold it together for her children. It has been a month of nothing but misery.

Last week she appeared in front of a judge, Stephen Finch was running point on her divorce. Stephen and Fitz's attorney were speaking to the judge. As she sat in her chair she wanted to cry, the judge informed the two of them that they had to do six months of marriage counseling before he would approve of their divorce. Olivia was having a difficult enough time sitting in a room twenty feet away from Fitz. She didn't know how she was going to be able to be in a smaller room and sit on a couch right next to him. The judge agreed with Olivia that the kids would stay with her and stay in their home to remain as normal as possible, but Fitz would get them two weekends every month.

It was now Friday, and it was Fitz's weekend with the kids. It was the first time since she filed for divorce that the kids were going to be away from her and she just wanted to cry. She knew they needed to spend time with their dad, but she just wanted to be selfish and keep them all to herself.

Olivia strolled down the hallway to go to Gerry's room to see if he was packing. Gerry was their baby boy, he was four but so intelligent. She walked into his room, as she saw him looking through his toys to think of which one to bring, although he already had a huge bag full. He was sitting on his superhero bed looking at all his toys.

"Don't you think you've packed enough toys baby?" Olivia asked him with a smile.

"No, daddy doesn't have any at his new house. I want to take some over there to stay with him, but I don't know which ones." Gerry seemed sad and it made Olivia sad that he was in this situation. She went to his bed and sat down next to him.

"How about you take whatever toys you like and mommy will get you new toys when you come back. Okay? So you can have toys here you love and toys at daddy's you love. Does that sound good?"

"Can I get the new Spiderman toy that shoots web too?" He said now smiling where you could see all of his teeth.

"Yeah, if you're good at daddy's I will buy it for you. Now finish putting the toys in the bag and come help me with Belle."

Gerry shoved the rest of the toys on his bed into his little suitcase and ran after Olivia into his little sisters room Isabelle. Isabelle was one but would be turning two in a few months. She was a mommy's girl all the way; to say she was attached to Olivia's hip would be an understatement. Olivia started to fix Belle's hair at the same exact time her phone started ringing. A photo of Fitz holding Belle as a newborn and Gerry on his lap kissing Belle was on the screen stating that Fitz was calling. Gerry answered the call.

"Daddy!" Gerry said happily as he put the phone to his ear.

"Hi, Buddy is mommy around you?" He asked slightly disappointed that Liv didn't answer.

"Yeah, she is. Hold on," He attempted to hand the phone to Olivia.

"Baby mommy is trying to fix Belle's hair ask daddy what he needs," Olivia said trying to put Isabelle's hair in pigtail braids and hold her still so it looked good.

"Mommy is doing Belle's hair and can't talk, mommy said what do you need?" Gerry said pacing in a circle looking so happy.

"Ask Mommy if she can just meet me at Gigi's house to drop you and your sister off," Fitz said irritated that she wouldn't just speak to him herself, he knew she had been distant, but she could at least be civil to him about the kids.

"Mommy, daddy said can you meet him at Gigi's to drop me and Belle off."

"Yeah, that's fine," Olivia said trying to tie the rubber band around the end of Belle's hair.

"Daddy's Mommy said that's fine. We are about to leave so I will see you soon."

"Okay, I love you, baby. See you soon." Fitz said smiling thinking of his son.

"I love you too daddy, Bye," Gerry said hanging up.

Olivia picked up Belle and her bag as she followed behind Gerry rolling his suitcase to the car. She put the bags in the back of the car and buckled them both in.

As they pulled into Amelia Grant's driveway Olivia's stomach began to turn she just wanted to reverse her car and drive as far away as possible to avoid giving her babies away for two days. She held back the tears as she pulled the bags out and unbuckled Belle. Gerry dragging his suitcase and Olivia holding Belle with her overnight bag walked to the front door and rang the doorbell.

Amelia along with Fitz's sisters Kathleen, Elizabeth, and Rebecca all opened the door. Kathleen had her son Noah on her hip and as soon as Gerry saw him, his eyes grew huge. He was so happy to see his cousin, he ran to Kathleen to see Noah.

"Hi," Amelia said greeting Olivia with a hug. Amelia loved Olivia, and although she wouldn't admit it, she sided with her on the divorce. "And Hi, to my favorite granddaughter." She said smiling at Belle.

"Hi." "Hi girls, I didn't know that you all would be here," Olivia asked shocked to see all of his sisters, only Rebecca lived at home so she didn't expect to see all of them.

"Yeah, it's just a last minute dinner that we decide to have," Elizabeth said.

"Oh, that great. Is Fitz here yet, he asked we meet here instead of at his house." Olivia said hoping he had already arrived so she didn't have to stay longer than to drop them off. Just as she said it, he walked to the foyer. The second she saw him, her wall went up and everyone could feel the shift in the air.

"Hi, Gerry" he bent down and kissed Gerry on the head. "And how is my princess" He kissed Belle's face even though she was leaning her head on Olivia's shoulder looking as comfortable as could be. Olivia swallowed the lump forming in her throat trying to get her tears to not pour out.

"Gerry has an ear infection, his medicine is in his bag make sure he takes it in the morning and at night time." Olivia bent down to give Gerry a kiss. "I love you so much, be good for daddy and watch Belle for me okay?"

"Okay mommy, I love you," Gerry said giving her a big smile and hug. Olivia then turned to Belle in her arms.

"Mommy loves you so much." She kissed Bella and then turned to give her to Fitz. As soon as Belle was removed from Olivia's arms she started screaming to the top of her lungs, "I WANT MY MOMMY! I WANT MY MOMMY! I WANT MY MOMMY!" tears were pouring down Belle's face. Olivia's words got caught in her throat as her lip started to quiver and her nose started to flair. To see her daughter like this ripped her heart to pieces.

"Its okay, you are going to have so much fun with Daddy, and in a few days you are going to come back to mommy's house. If you get sad and miss me go to Bubba and he will make, you feel better. Okay, baby girl?" Olivia said, but her voice started to break having to comfort her.

"MOMMY PLEASE STAY. PLEASE" Isabelle screeched

"Mommy can't stay you have to stay with daddy," Olivia said as a single tear escaped her eye that everyone noticed.

"Mommy can she just doesn't want to," Fitz said under his breath, but Olivia still heard him. She shot him a look, and Amelia yelled at him "Stop it."

"Mommy has to go, I love you," Olivia said as tears started streaming down her face, she turned towards the door, as she open the door the last thing she heard was her daughter screaming her name. She got in her car and just broke down, she just wanted to lie in bed and not get up until Sunday.

Olivia pulled into her mother's driveway; she was still crying she couldn't get out of the car. Her younger sister Vanessa noticed she was outside and got her mom. Maya walked outside and opened her car door and helped Olivia out of the car. As soon as Olivia was out she leaned into her mom and started crying harder. Maya helped Olivia walk into the house and sat with her on the couch.

"She was crying for me and I couldn't do anything about it, I had to leave her. Why? Why do I have to break her heart? She probably thinks I hate her now. I want to just go pick her up, screw what the law says." Olivia said screaming.

"She will be okay, you have seen Fitz with them, he is an incredible father. She is okay, and I promise she will not think you hate her. She needs you, but she needs him too, even if she doesn't know it. She will be perfectly okay for two days, I'm more concerned with you baby, I know you aren't used to being away from them, how are you?"

"I feel like I've just lost everything I've ever loved in a matter of seconds. Mom I honestly don't think I can do this every other weekend. The pain in my heart will kill me alone. I can't do this. How could he say one lie, make one mistake and I lose everything? Why am I the only one suffering and I didn't even do anything." Olivia's heart began to pound and she couldn't breathe. She was trying to breathe in the air, but she couldn't. She was gasping and becoming very light headed.

Olivia's mom screamed, "Vanessa call 9-1-1."

It had been twenty minutes since Olivia left Amelia's and Isabelle was still crying for Olivia. The cry was a soft cry but was still there. Kathleen was rocking her trying to get her to just take a nap and relax. Gerry was outside with Noah and Noah's dad Uncle Preston playing baseball. Amelia was in the kitchen talking to Fitz.

"So what do think about the six-month marriage counseling that the judge required?" Amelia asked her son.

"I'm happy maybe Olivia can realize that we don't need to get a divorce. That what I did was bad, I will admit I shouldn't have done it, but I don't think that it qualifies for divorce," Fitz said trying to justify his mistake.

"It was worse than bad Fitz, and I hate to say this, but if you father would have done that, I would have done exactly what Olivia did. She wasn't in the wrong you were and you need to stop finding ways to blame her for this. This was you, you are the reason you and her are going through a divorce and if you don't want to be divorced you need to accept that you were in the wrong. You need to put yourself in her shoes and understand how you hurt her and beg her for your forgiveness. Not just say you are sorry but you need to show her that you are sorry for what you did. And if you…" Her phone ringing interrupted Amelia; she pulled it out of her pocket to see that it was Maya. Fitz was pouring a glass of water so he didn't see.

"Hi, how are you?" Amelia asked not wanting to say Maya's name because Fitz was in the room.

"Something is wrong with Liv, she came over crying about having to give Fitz the kids and got so worked up that couldn't breathe. We are following the ambulance to the hospital, Could you please come here. Don't tell Fitz or the kids but could you please come. Please." Maya asked speaking as quick as she could. She was still shaken up seeing her daughter wheezing for oxygen.

"Of course I'm on my way right now. I will say a prayer on my way." Amelia said hanging up the phone running out of the kitchen to grab her purse and car keys. Fitz started running after her.

"What's going on where are you going?" Fitz asked noticing his mom panicking.

"Kathleen finish dinner, I don't know if I will be back in time for dinner. If not you guys eat without me. I have got to go. I will call you when I find out what is going on." With that Amelia rushed out to her car and pulled out of the driveway as fast as possible.

Amelia pulled up at Central Vermont Medical Center right behind Maya and Vanessa. All she could see was the red and blue lights shining and the paramedic pulling out the stretcher that Olivia laid on. She had an oxygen mask over her face and she looked way too calm, which was a side effect of the sedative they had to give her to calm down so she could breathe. She was rushed to the emergency room so all of the doctors could look at her and see what was going on. Maya and Vanessa walked into the waiting room to tell the doctors that whenever they had information on Olivia, to please inform them. Amelia walked in behind them and hugged Maya to try in comfort her, she knew this wasn't easy for her. To see Olivia on the stretcher pained Amelia, she couldn't imagine watching her not being able to breathe and having to call the ambulance.

"It's going to be okay, she is at the hospital now. They will find out what is wrong and she will get better."

"No, she won't, she is in this mess because she had to give Fitz the kids for the weekend, and that's not going to stop. She will have to deal with this for the next sixteen years. She even said herself before she lost her breath that having to give them to him every other weekend would kill her. Now looking at her lying on a stretcher she wasn't playing, it is going to kill her. She is too young to die, I can't bury my daughter." Maya was now sobbing on Amelia's shoulder. Amelia's phone starting ringing it was Kathleen.

"Dinner is done, will you be back for dinner or not?" Kathleen said.

"No, I won't be home for a while, eat without me. I might not be home in time to say goodbye to everyone either, tell them not to wait up for me, if it gets late just go home I will see you guys tomorrow." Amelia said trying not to cry on the phone because Kathleen would know something is wrong.

"What's going on? What happened that had you rush out of the house like someone was dying? Is everything okay?" Kathleen said now sounding worried that her mom wasn't coming home.

"Everything will be okay. Don't worry now enjoy dinner." The doctor was coming over to see them, to tell them about Olivia. "Kathleen I got to go will call you later. I love you." Before she could hang up Kathleen heard "Hi, I'm Dr…"

"Hi, I'm Dr. Cheyenne Holland I'm Olivia doctor. So Olivia had a panic attack, I'm not sure what triggered this panic attack. A panic attack is a period of time of intense fear or apprehension that can last anywhere from a minute to hours. Olivia lasted for about twenty-five minutes. The paramedic gave her Alprazolam. Which is a type of Benzodiazepines also know as sedative used to treat panic attacks. I do want to keep her for at least an hour at the hospital to monitor her heart rate and make sure she doesn't have another panic attack. However, I will only release her if she is going to be staying with someone who can watch her, in case this happens again at night."

"She will be coming home with us, I will sleep downstairs in the guest room with her to make sure everything is okay. Can we see her now doctor?" Maya asked she just wanted to hug her little girl and know that everything is okay.

"You all can go see her in about 15 minutes, I need to talk to Olivia first about a few things. When you visit her, please try to remain calm so she will stay calm. Okay?" They all shook their heads yes. "Okay, she is going to be in room three right to your left. I will tell a nurse to get you once I've talked to Olivia."

They had all finished dinner, it was lovely everyone talked about their life and they all had a great time catching up. With Kathleen married to Preston, Elizabeth going to college, and Fitz running his family company they never had time to all catch up at the same time. Rebecca was the only one that saw all of them because she was in high school and still lived at home. Fitz could tell that Kathleen had zoned out all dinner after she talked to mom, he didn't know what she said but could tell it affected Kathleen. As he was gathering all of the kids stuff to take them to his new home that he was staying in during the divorce, he saw her in deep thought. He put all of the kid's bags in his truck and then walked over to her.

"Is everything okay Kat?" He used her nickname to try to calm her.

"Um, yeah I'm just going to wait until mom comes home before I leave," Kathleen said with a small smile that didn't reach her eyes.

"Are you sure everything is okay? I can wait with you if you want." Fitz said still not knowing why his sister is so worked up.

"No it okay, you have the kids this weekend go home watch a movie with them, have fun. I will be okay." Kathleen assured him.

Preston left with Noah to go home and put him to bed, it was almost his bedtime and he needed a bath. Elizabeth went back to her apartment where her boyfriend William was waiting he hadn't seen her all day, and Rebecca retired to her room for the night. Fitz then left his parent's house with the kids so he could give them a bath, and then they could watch a movie. Kathleen, however, stayed on the couch waiting for her mom to come home to explain where she was and why she was talking to a doctor.

Fifteen minutes had passed and a nurse came and told them they could see Olivia. Maya walked in first, her eyes were red and puffy. Olivia immediately noticed she had been crying and it hurt her to see her mom that way. She moved her hand up to tell her mom to come here. As Maya made it to her bed and hugged her, Amelia and Vanessa walked in. Olivia was hugging her mom with her eyes closed she didn't notice someone else came in.

"Olivia the doctor said you can't go home alone tonight so you are going to come home and stay in the guest room with me. Okay?" Maya asked keeping her voice down so Olivia would remain calm.

"Okay, mom." Olivia responded. Vanessa came into her line of vision; she looked just like her mom puffy eyes and everything.

"I'm so happy that you are okay, I was so worried," Vanessa said as she started sobbing once again.

"I just got a little too worked up I'm okay now. Don't cry, I'm all right." Although Olivia was speaking to Vanessa, she was saying it for herself so she could believe she was okay.

As she was hugging Vanessa, she saw Amelia. She was shocked to see her and prayed to God that Fitz and the kids didn't know, she did not want them to know. It was like Amelia could read her mind and knew exactly what she was thinking.

"Nobody in the family knows, your mom called me and I just wanted to come check on you. I needed to make sure you were okay." Amelia said as she walked towards Olivia.

"How are the kids? Did Belle finally settle down once I left? Are they okay? Did Gerry take his medicine?" Olivia started asking so many questions.

"They kids are just fine. Belle finally settled down, she was doing just fine when I left, and if you want I can call Fitz and remind him to make sure to give Gerry his medicine. However, I want to know how are you? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine, I will be better once my babies are back in my arms, but I'm better," Olivia said just as the doctor walked in.

"I hope I'm not interrupting anything. Olivia, you are clear to leave, here are your discharge papers, and there is a prescription for Alprazolam takes when you feel a panic attack coming on. If you start to have more than one a day, please come back up to the emergency room. Drink lots of fluid and get lots of rest. Also make an appointment in a week with you regular physician and have him or her do a regular check-up to make sure everything is okay. Are there any questions?"

"No thank you." Olivia responded trying to leave the emergency room as quickly as possible.

"Okay then you are free to go, remember make sure you are not alone tonight, we don't want something like this to happen tonight and you be alone."

"She won't be, thank you for everything today doctor." Olivia's mom responded.

Amelia hugged Olivia goodbye and asked Maya to call her tomorrow to let her know how Liv was doing. Olivia, Maya, and Vanessa all got into the car and drove home. Once arriving at her parent's home, Maya went upstairs to explain what happened to Eli, and Vanessa went to her room to take a shower and go to bed. Olivia showered quickly and put on her pajamas. As soon as she got under the covers Maya walked in and got in the bed with her, they feel asleep rather quickly so exhausted from the day.

Amelia arrived at home late at night, she had been at the hospital for over two hours, and she was tired and hungry. All she wanted was to heat up some leftovers and go straight to sleep but plans changed when she stepped into her home and saw Kathleen sitting on the couch.

"Kathleen, why are you still here it pretty late," Amelia asked not sure why she was here.

"Momma where did you go tonight," Kathleen asked as she walked towards her mom, Amelia immediately saw her eyes looks like they were going to tear up any second.

"Nowhere important, just had to check on a friend. What's the matter? Why do you look so sad?" Amelia said now extremely concerned about Kathleen.

"It was important you were talking to a doctor. I heard someone say 'Hi I'm Dr…' before you hung up on me, so who was this friend you were seeing." She was upset that her mother was shrugging this off as if it wasn't an important thing.

"They don't want anyone to know, and I respect that. I understand why they don't, so as much as you want to know I can't tell you." Amelia said not breaking her voice the slightest so Kathleen knew she wasn't going to budge.

"Okay, but just answer me this one question."

"Okay ask me."

"Was this someone a family member or friend?" Kathleen asked wanting to really know. Amelia looked to the ground and responded.

"Family."

"Are they dying?" Kathleen asked now wanting to know more since it was family.

"You said one question, but no, they are just having some health problems at the moment."

"Okay, I'm going to go sleep in my old bedroom, Preston already went home and is asleep. Goodnight Mom. I love you." Kathleen walked out of the room already determined to find out whom she went to see. She was going to need help from Fitz and maybe Elizabeth, but she would find out.

When Fitz had arrived home, he bathed and changed the kids into their pajamas. As they laid in the living room watching The Lion King, Fitz was laying on the recliner with Isabelle in his arms as she sucked her thumb, something she did when she was sad. While Gerry had decided to lay down on the love seat with a pillow and a blanket, he snuggled up to his teddy bear that smelled like his home. All three of them fell asleep watching the movie.

It was now 2:49 A.M Fitz was dreaming about his honeymoon with Olivia, they were walking on the beach of Bora Bora, he heard Liv laugh. When Fitz woke up to a piercing scream from Isabelle; he woke up in a panic thinking that maybe someone was in the house. The main screen from the movie was playing so loud and the light was so bright. Fitz honestly couldn't believe this was happening. When he lived at home, she never woke up in the middle of the night.

"MOMMA. MOMMA. MOMMA. MOMMA. MOMMA. MOMMA." Isabelle kept screaming. Fitz tried to calm her, he attempted to get her some milk, everything but nothing was working. Gerry had woken up because she was screaming so loud. Fitz could see Gerry was turning in his sleep waking up and was now upset because he had to put two children asleep before he could go back to bed.

"Call mommy," Gerry said mumbling in his pillow. Fitz barely heard him.

"I'm not calling mommy, she is asleep. Belle will calm down in a bit." Fitz tried to say but wasn't exactly sure if she was going to, but he definitely didn't want to have to call Olivia.

"She isn't going to stop crying until mommy sings to her," Gerry said not looking at Fitz rolling his eyes because he wanted to go back to sleep and cannot as long as she is crying.

"How do you know?" Fitz asked now challenging Gerry and his theory that Liv's singing will help her.

"Because she always sings to her when she has a nightmare, it the same song, and only Mommy's voice works. Just try it." Gerry said holding the pillow now over his ears because the screaming got louder. Isabelle had been crying for over 15 minutes now and he wanted it to end before the neighbors decided to call the cops so he picked up the phone.

It was 3:07 A.M at the Pope residence and it was quiet as a mouse. All you could hear was the fan in the room when Olivia's phone started ringing. Her mother turned in her sleep wondering who in the hell was calling this early in the morning. However Liv was used to getting call all hours of the night, it was a part of her job. She grabbed the watch off the nightstand and starting putting it on a she reached for her phone clicking answer without looking at the caller ID.

"Olivia Pope." As soon as she said it all she could hear was her baby screaming to the top of her lungs. She looked at the caller ID and saw it was Fitz before he could even say anything she knew that her daughter had a nightmare and needed to hear her voice. "Put the phone by her ear."

"How do I,

Get through one night without you?

If I had to live without you,

What kind of life would that be?

Oh, I…

I need you in my arms, need you to hold,

You're my world, my heart, my soul,

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything good in my life,

And tell me now"

Immediately Isabelle stopped crying, she starting sucking on her thumb and laid her head on Fitz's chest feeling at peace. She closed her eyes trying to fall back asleep. Gerry looked at Fitz raising his eyebrows at him. "I told you."

"How do I live without you?

I want to know,

How do I breathe without you?

If you ever go,

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?"

Isabelle and Gerry both feel asleep listening to her voice, but Fitz didn't want to tell Olivia to stop singing. It was music to his ears to hear the woman he loved singing to their daughter. It made him instantly smile, as he closed his eyes imagining her being there with them singing.

"Without you,

There'd be no sun in my sky,

There would be no love in my life

There'd be no world left for me.

And I,

Baby I don't know what I would do,

I'd be lost if I lost you,

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything real in my life,

And tell me now,

How do I live without you?"

Although the song wasn't over she could hear Isabelle's soft snores through she phone, which made her smile. She missed both her babies so much and couldn't wait to see them on Sunday. She stopped singing and was about to hang up when she heard his voice.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you. She just wouldn't stop crying and Gerry said she wouldn't stop until you sang to her."

"You don't have to apologize for waking me up for our daughter. I always sing to her when she has a nightmare, I've done it since she was a baby. I'm growing tired, Goodnight Fitz. Give her a kiss for me."

"Goodnight Liv."

Fitz sat in the recliner and held his daughter; he held the love he made with Olivia in both his arms. He couldn't go back to sleep, he just kept wondering what else Olivia did to make his kids happy that he didn't know about. It made him sad because he couldn't even stop his daughter from crying. Just another thing to add to the list of stuff he needed Olivia for. Unfortunately, the list was long from the thing he needed Liv for without the kids. Now adding the children the list was even longer. How can he do this? How can he do this without her? Why did he have to screw up?

Date: Saturday, February 28, 2015

Fitz couldn't sleep all night, after Isabelle's nightmare, so when it was morning, he went into the kitchen to cook breakfast for his children. He was cooking pancakes, bacon, and eggs when Gerry woke up and wandered in.

"Good morning Buddy, How did you sleep?" Fitz asked as he watched his son rub his eyes.

"Good morning, and okay. I'm still tired." Fitz knew he was still exhausted from Belle's nightmare last night. He began making his plate for him and set it in front of him.

"Daddy, do you have strawberries? Mommy always put strawberries on my pancakes."

"No, I don't have any, I'm sorry." Fitz watched Gerry's face drop and was now upset at the fact now he can't even make breakfast for his kid, the way he wants it.

"Its okay," Gerry said as he took a bite of eggs chewing them very slowly and looking disappointed.

"Maybe if we hurry up and eat, we can go to Gigi's house and eat some of her strawberries, I know she has some." Gerry's face lit up and he began eating at a regular pace now.

Fitz arrived at his parent's home after he got Isabelle up and both children feed. As he walked through the doorway, he immediately saw Elizabeth and Kathleen together in a corner whispering. His mom came and took Isabelle out of his arms, and Gerry ran into the kitchen trying to look for strawberries. Amelia and Belle followed swiftly behind him so he wouldn't make a mess. Fitz walked towards his sisters as they continued to talk.

"… could be dying, we need to find out who they are," Kathleen stated.

"Who could be dying?" Fitz asked now confused because he only caught half the conversation.

"Kathleen overheard some doctor speaking to mom last night when she called her to see what time she would be back home. When she confronted mom, mom said that it was a family member who got sick, but they weren't dying." Elizabeth said now filling in Fitz.

"Who was it?" Fitz asked now wanting to know.

"We don't know mom said they didn't want anyone to know so she won't say," Kathleen replied. Elizabeth saw her mom walking towards them and hit Kathleen to stop talking.

"Fitz could you take her, I need to make a phone call real quick." Amelia handed her off and stepped into her office.

"Go follow her and see who she is calling," Elizabeth told Kathleen. Kathleen walked to the office as she overheard her mom on the phone with someone.

"… Is she okay? How is she today?"

"Okay, I'll call tonight to check up. Give her my love."

Amelia hung up the phone and started to walk towards the door to leave the office. Kathleen quickly walked away from the door so her mom wouldn't see that she was eavesdropping on her conversation. When she got back to her siblings, her mom was behind her grabbing Isabelle from Fitz. As soon as Amelia was out of eyesight she started telling them what she overheard.

Olivia started twisting in bed; she was slowly waking up. As she opened her eyes, she checked her phone and noticed it was a little after ten. She got up and put her robe on she walked out the room. As she stepped into the living room, she saw her mom talking to Vanessa.

"If you want to go hang out with Rebecca, you can not say anything about last night to her. Do you understand me?" Maya questioned Vanessa.

"Yes, I am not allowed to tell her anything about what happened to Liv last night. Can I go now? Dad is about to leave."

"Yes, you can go. Tell Daddy to call me when he gets out of court."

Liv walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water. She also grabbed her plate out of the fridge her mother made of her and put it in the microwave to warm it up. Her mom walked into the kitchen behind her.

"How are you feeling today? Dad had to go to court, one of the other judges had a family emergency, but he should be home in an hour or two. Vanessa went to go see Rebecca. Amelia called to check in on you when you were sleeping. I just want you to feel better. I never want to see you, how I saw you last night it broke my heart."

"I'm feeling a lot better mom, I'm sorry you had to see that last night. I'm just so stressed out about everything."

"It's okay. We will get through this! I promise."

"Mom can I ask you a question?" Olivia said shyly.

"Yeah sweetheart, anything."

"Can Vanessa come stay with me for a while, I mean if it okay with you and dad? I just don't want something like this to happen when I have the kids. I would ask you, but I don't think Dad would be very thrilled about that." Olivia said biting her lip, nervous of what her mom would say.

"I will ask Daddy and if he is okay with it, I'm okay with it."

Olivia grabbed her plate and walked to the table to sit and eat her breakfast. She was starving since she hadn't eaten anything since lunch yesterday. She felt better after asking her mom but was still worried about what her father and Vanessa would say.

Fitz walked into the kitchen after giving his sister Belle. Gerry was outside playing with Big Gerry, and his cousin. Amelia saw that his eyes were puffy; she could tell he got no sleep last night.

"What happened last night?" Amelia asked her son.

"Isabelle woke up in the middle of the night screaming. I can't even describe the sound; you could hear the hurt in her cry, but she wasn't physically hurting. She wouldn't stop, Gerry told me to call Liv. Fifteen minutes later she wouldn't stop so I caved and called her. She sang her a song, such a beautiful song, apparently my wife has been singing to our daughter every time she gets upset at night. How did my wife do this for almost two years and I didn't know? How much have I missed? This morning I couldn't even make Gerry pancakes like he wanted. I can't make my daughter stop crying, I can't make my son breakfast like he wants. I can't do anything right without her. What have I done?"

Amelia saw her son begin to really realize how big he messed up. She could see his eyes start to water. She walked to him and just hugged him, although she knew he was in the wrong, he was still her baby and she still loved him.

"You made a mistake, and its good you realize that you made a mistake. Now you need to decide are you going to let this mistake ruin you and your life or are you going to learn from this mistake and fix it. I think you want your wife back, I think you want your family whole again. Am I right?" Fitz moved his head up and down. "Then you need to ask Olivia for your forgiveness, and you need to earn it back. You need to remain calm and give her time to forgive you. Its not going to happen in days or weeks, it's going to take months. Most importantly you need to love her. There are going to be moments where she takes her anger out on you or when she doesn't want to even try anymore when she wants to throw in the towel. There will be times that you feel like its pointless, where you are showing her all this love and she doesn't care. That's when you need to show her more love, show her nothing but love. You show her why she married you, why she fell in love with you. You show her that Fitz, the man she married."

Fitz was still upset about everything from last night and this morning. He felt like a terrible dad. He was still dealing with the demons inside himself, the voice in his head that was beating him up. Amelia saw his mind just thinking and still worrying.

"You are a great father and your kids love you. Yes, there is going to be things that Olivia does or did that you don't know about. Do you think your dad know how you like pancakes? No, but I do, you like them with lots of butter and syrup with blueberries. Do you think you dad knows about how I would always write you a note in your lunchbox so you would smile? No. There are a lot of things Liv does and will still do that you don't know. It doesn't make you a horrible father; it just makes her a great mother. You should be happy that she makes your kids happy and knows how to make them smile."

"I am happy, I couldn't have chosen a better mother of my children. I just wished I knew the little things that make them happy."

"You do, and you will learn more ways over time. Just don't beat yourself up. You are an excellent dad and the best dad in the whole world to them. They love you, now love yourself."

It was now six o'clock at night and Vanessa was just getting home from Rebecca's. Olivia had already spoken to her father about Vanessa staying with her for a while; he agreed it would be best. He knew it would allow him to sleep better at night knowing that someone was at Liv's in case another accident happens. Vanessa strolled into the living room seeing everyone sitting down looking like they had been waiting for her. Maya asked her to sit down, and Eli spoke up.

"Livvie has spoken to mom and me and has asked you to come stay with her for a while. She is scared of something like what occurred yesterday will happen again while she is with the kids and they won't be able to help her. She wanted to know if you could stay with her."

"You could have the guest room, which you wouldn't mind since you decorated it with me," Olivia said smiling. "You wouldn't have to do anything at the house for me. I can watch the kids, take care of the house, cook, and clean. I just need you to be there in case something happens. It would be easier for the kids to run downstairs and get you then finding my phone and call 9-1-1." Olivia said hoping and praying she would agree to stay with her. She had a great relationship with her sister, but she was still a teenager who wanted to have fun so she would understand if she said no.

"Of course, I honestly don't want that ever to happen again. However I watched it happened to you, and it still is bothering me. I would NEVER want them to see that, or have them have to make that phone call. So if it would make you feel better then of course." Vanessa grinned at Olivia to let her know she was there for her.

Olivia got up and hugged her little sister and began to cry. She was so blessed she had her. She usually wouldn't need her, she usually had Fitz, but she didn't have him anymore. She didn't have her rock that held her in place, so she got the next best thing, her sister. She got someone who understood her better than she understood herself sometimes. Olivia walked upstairs with her and helped her pack a bag. Once she was all pack, they drove to Olivia's. She helped her get settled into the guest bedroom and then told her goodnight.

Date: Sunday, March 1, 2015

It was finally Sunday, the day Liv had been waiting for since she dropped her babies off with Fitz. She woke up twice last night because of all the stress she was under, and it caused her to miss church in the morning. Her parents picked up Vanessa, but they thought it was best to let her sleep in. It was now three o'clock in the afternoon and her parents would be dropping Vanessa off soon, and Fitz would be dropping off Gerry and Belle. Olivia was checking on her chicken spaghetti casserole, which was making the house smell amazing when the doorbell chimed. She walked towards the door to open it and saw her two children. Isabelle squealed with joy and began to shake her body to get out of Fitz's arms; she no longer wanted him, Belle wanted her mommy. Gerry ran to her hugging her, he was happy to see his mommy and was even happier she was cooking.

"How are mommy's babies? Did you guys have fun with daddy? I hope you did cause I sure missed you so much." Olivia said kissing both her babies on the head. She had been so busy kissing and hugging them she forgot that Fitz was standing directly in front of her.

"Do you want me to take their bags upstairs and put them in their room?" Fitz asked trying to help her out a little bit.

"No, can you put them in the laundry room, I need to wash them." As Fitz walked to the laundry room, he had to pass the kitchen. He smelled Olivia making one of his favorite meals and was sad that he wouldn't get to enjoy it. Once he put it in there, he walked back to the living room where Vanessa was now there. He saw her ask Gerry if he wanted to go to 'her' room. He didn't know that Vanessa was staying with Liv, and now he was curious to why she was but didn't ask. He had kissed Gerry goodbye before he ran off with Vanessa. He walked towards Liv and kissed Isabelle on her temple although she didn't care, she was snuggled into Liv's neck peacefully snoring.

"So I guess this is goodbye. I gave Gerry his medicine, and other than Friday night everything went smoothly. I guess I will see you tomorrow for counseling." Fitz said attempting to create small talk with Olivia.

"I will see you tomorrow in counseling. Goodbye, Fitz." Olivia said. Fitz walked towards the front door and left. Olivia locked the door behind him, kissing her baby girl finally relieved to have her back in her arms.

Fitz stepped to his car and sat in the drivers seat. How did this happen? How did it get to the point where they didn't touch each other, and they barely even spoke. As he drove out of the driveway and towards his lonely house that he couldn't call home, he realized he lost every piece of his heart he's had. Yeah, for fifteen minutes they were a family again; God he wished that she were still with him again, except now it's just every other weekend.

AN: This is my very first fanfiction, and I hope you enjoyed it. Any reviews are accepted! I would love to hear your feed back. I plan on updating every other day. Thank you for reading. :)