Hello Everyone! This is my first try ever to write a fanfiction. I'm actually reading fanfiction on this website for god knows how long, but I never attempted to make a profile. But after some time, I always forgot the names of my favourite one's and decided to make a profile so I could save all those stories.
And now – after reading so so so many stories of Twilight for example – I'm going to try to write my own story, it will probably suck very hard and maybe there aren't going to be any readers, but I just want to try if there is something of a writer in me.
Forgive me my English, if you do not understand it. I'm not a native English speaker and actually learned everything on school. I can speak, understand and read English, but my writing and grammar is awful.
Please be easy with me ~
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Basic Information
Title: I'm not so though
Pairing: Bella & Edward
Summary:
Bella is a girl born in the year 1922. When she is 18, she meets a boy named Edward Cullen. They fall in love with each other. But all good things come to an end. And there love is one of them. When Bella walks home in the evening, she encounters a vampire who tries to take her life, but fails. Doomed to be a creature of the night for eternity, Bella flees from everything. Her parents, her family and friends. And Edward. What happens when 68 years later, Bella thinks she has everything she ever wanted, but her past is encountering her again? What happens when she suddenly meets someone, she thought never to see again?
Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or any of the characters involved in this Fanfiction. Although I did ask Edward for my birthday. My parents thought giving me clothes and makeup was a better thing.
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Assuming that you had everything you've ever wanted in this world.
what would you do?
Would you just suddenly stop?
Would you strive for other goals; developing a never ending cycle?
Perhaps it's safe to say that the restrictions in life is a barrier that allows us to dream and live life to its fullest.
But what do you do, when the barriers you build so carefully around you, start to crumble and fall apart?
That were the things that I was thinking about lately more than everything. I never thought that my life would be normal again. I never thought that I could forgive myself for everything that I had done in the past. There wasn't a day that I didn't think about that faithful night in 1940. When I was murdered, to be reborn again as a creature of the night. A demon.
There wasn't a day that I didn't think about him. Was fleeing really the best thing that I could do? What if I told him everything, would he accept me? Would he run from me? But no, as stupid as I was I ran away from him and so these questions in my head would be left unanswered for eternity.
There wasn't a day that I didn't hate myself for the choices I made. I was doomed to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders and to be confronted with my mistakes over and over again. I was never in the situation to atone for my wrong doings. A demon like me shouldn't be forgiven. And who would be able to forgive me? God? The Devil?
I turned around in my bed. I hated the night, it was the time of the day that I would think about everything again. For most people sleep is an escape from everything, but I didn't sleep. I sighted and stared at the wall in front of me, remembering the one sentence that kept repeating in my head over and over again.
"if you had everything in this world... what would you do...? would you finally be happy again...?"