Bella stared down at the angry swells of the ocean. She leaned farther over the cliff and Jacob took a step forward in worry. "Bells, stop. Get away from there."
"Why?" She said without much feeling, still leaning over the cliff.
He sighed. "Because, the storm is making the ocean too wild. We can go cliff diving another day. A day when you won't get killed." He added with a chuckle.
She leaned back but did not step away from the edge. Her voice was distant when she spoke. "What would be so wrong with me dying. . .?" She turned to look at the stunned Jacob. "I don't care anymore. I just. . . I just want to stop feeling. I want to not get a slap to the face every time something reminds me of Ed-. . . him. . . I can't do it anymore, Jake. I can't deal with him leaving me anymore. . . him not wanting me."
He rushed towards her and put his hands on her shoulders. He leaned his head down so he was level with hers. "Bella, he's not worth dying over. Don't be stupid. I love you and if you died I'd lose my best friend. . . That. . . idiot, was stupid enough to leave behind the best thing he could ever dream of having. But, that doesn't mean you can walk around saying you want to die." He paused searching her face. "You don't really want to. . . die, do you?"
Many emotions played across her face as she thought it over. Red hot tears slipped down her pained face. "It's just too much." She said through a choked wisper.
He angrily pulled her into a tight embrace. "No! Bella, don't you ever say that!" His voice broke with the effort to hold back tears. "You're worth too much."
She hugged him back for a few silent minutes. The painful tears sliding down her face. The wind ripping at her hair. Rain pelting her face from the angry heavens as she stood there holding her best friend.
She laughed lightly and Jake pulled away as she rolled her eyes. "Aw, Jake what was I thinking? It doesn't matter. I have you, right?"
He was surprised. "Of course you have me. You always will, Bells." His face was still clouded over from the intense emotions it had held just a few seconds before.
She laughed again. "It's getting kind of late, huh? We should head home." He nodded in agreement and put his hand on her lower back to lead her away from the cliff.
She stopped. "Wait, Jake do you think I could have a minute alone. To pull myself back together?"
He hesitated but smiled. "Ok. I'll see you back at my car." He grabbed her hand and squeezed it before walking away.
When he was far enough away she whispered, "Bye, Jake." So low that he couldn't hear it.
She slowly turned back to the torrenting ocean and peered down at the waves. She closed her eyes and sighed. "I'm sorry Edward. I can't keep my promise any longer. . .I love you."
In that second, she took the last and final step over the edge. She heard Jake's voice behind her yelling her name. Edward roared in her head screaming at her to stop. But, it was too late.
Wind whirled all around her and then she hit the icy waters. She sank down deep into the angry swells never opening her eyes. She wrapped herself in her mind. Edward was there. They were in their meadow. He was wrapped around her as they lay on the green grass.
He held her face in his hands and carressed it. She smiled and his face returned the gesture. Love was pouring from his eyes and into hers. In that moment, he wanted her. He loved her more than anything else. She was his everything.
As her body was tossed around in the ocean he whispered her name. Bella. Bella. My sweet, sweet Bella. You are my love, my life. Bella.
Her consciousness faded and she sank deeper into his arms. She felt nothing. Not the water nor the flaming hands that tugged on her waist. She couldn't feel the burning sensation in her lungs where oxygen should have been. She only felt him. Heard him. Saw him.
I'm coming, Edward.
A/N
I've had this story in my head forever and needed to get it out. I know it's not the best story ever but I would still like to hear what you all have to think. Thanks for reading.
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