Will you Notice

Part One

I wont look at him anymore. No, there is now way I can look at him. I have to look away, past him, because . . .

Nihon is a beautiful place. It's fragrant flower, elegant structures and ornately dressed people all entranced me when we first arrived. Now I feel like a fool for having been so careless. Having let myself become like this.

The people of this world, they move with such elegance and grace that makes my each and every moment seem awkward at best. How have I never noticed that his moments can be so fluid, before now? I had always thought him a little clumsy before this.

Among all of these refined people here ad all the ones i have meet over my long life no one, no one has made me realize my faults faster than Tomoyo-hime. Her soft smile and her smooth warm movements all so awe inspiring, like with the presence of a goddess, but then that softness, that warmth, makes her human. Before our eyes now she had fawns over Sakura and welcomes Kuro back to his home world.

Kuro. . . gane . . .

I can still see his face when we first arrived here, when he looked at her, and then when he . . . looked at me.

I really thought this place was such a beautiful place only moments ago and yet, now I can hardly make myself look at this world. I want to move on.

My eyes were open with surprises, happiness and awe. I had so much, just so much affection for his home land. I feel so foolish now. Nothing now, in the whole of Nihon could truly be beautiful to me. The only person I can think of as such I will not look on anymore. I can feel my heart grow heavier, like a stone weighting in the pit of my stomach.

There was Tomoyo-hime waiting for us.

He looked at her, his face set into a stare of complete dedication. I stepped closer to him then, and he turned to me. I turned away and looked back at the others.

I could stand looking at their faces, their reaction. I could look at anyone but him. Syaoran, I saw, realized first as he looked between us, he understood, and he has such sorrow for this miserable situation. Sakura smiled, she at me not realizing Kuro-gane's intention.

Mokona's expression was sad, but she still smiled up at me.

I know I must look broken, I hope I turned away fast enough. I need to stop thinking about this. Sakura's smile falters as she notice my expression, I have to pull myself together now. I can fall apart later. I force my usual smile, it's a little harder this time but I can do it just fine. . . .

"Whuuu, this world is so beautiful" I say to Sakura as I look around distractedly, and she smiles at me.

Kurogane grabs my arm then and pulls me to him. I pull my arm away and hold it to my chest.

'No, I can't'

Still I walk next to him as we are shown inside but I don't look at him. I pretend to be distracted by the palace decorations, though his face is still imprinted in my mind.

It had shown such regret.