Title - Atonement
Disclaimer - not mine
A/N - a drabble about Escaflowne. May end up being a series of Escaflowne drabbles, depending on inspiration ...
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I tried. I wanted to become king so that you wouldn't have to. You were always gentile Van, something I wished I had seen more of in myself. I wanted to be king so that you would never have to change. But I failed in that. In joining Dunkirk, I gave you my burden - a burden you should never have had to bear, one that I would have shouldered gladly if I could keep you from having to become king. I tried to convince myself that, working with Dunkirk, perfect happiness could be achieved, and then it wouldn't matter that I was never going to be king. I allowed myself to be blinded by that thought, until I could no longer see the suffering that resulted from what I was doing. But now I do see. I see the pain and suffering, and realize the wrong I have done, something far worse than the mere fact that I had failed to keep you from having to shoulder the burden of kingship. But I also see that I can right that wrong, and atone for my sins. Maybe, if I can kill Dunkirk … maybe that will end the conflict, and not only Fanelia, but all of Gaia will have a chance to attain peace. And if I can succeed in that, maybe I can atone for my sins that way. If I can do that, if I can help Gaia to achieve peace … I would give my life for that.