Forgetting the Pain

Summary

It's their final year at Hogwarts and it's James' last chance to win the heart of his beloved Lily. Lily loathes James and is feeling lonely. Ashlin Devereux a long lost friend to them both is miserable. Deciding to put her own happiness behind her she helps two friends to come together. However she didn't think that she would end up falling in love too.

A/N okay so this is my first fic. i hope its good. tell me if you like it. or if you have any ideas. they are apreciated. and i'm sorry if the spelling or grammer isnt the greatest.

Chapter One - Forgetting

Ashlin was not unfamiliar with pain. Her life was pain from the moment she was brought to this earth. No one loved or cared about her nobody gave a damn about her. She had all the material needs anyone would ever need she lived in an enormous mansion, she had all the clothes any other girl would kill for, she went to parties every night, and had enough money to never ever need a job. But all that meant nothing to her, she had never experienced real love. All she ever had was heartbreak. Heartbreak from her friends, heartbreak from her sister, and heartbreak from the man she thought she loved. It wasn't that she wasn't pretty, because in fact she was stunning. She had the perfect body, she wasn't to short or too tall, her waist was perfect, and her legs were long and slender. Her hair was ebony black in colour and fell in waves to her lower back. She had the perfect small cute nose, and soft pink lips. Her cheeks were a light rosy colour. Her eyes were the most amazing feature about her. They were almond shaped and the colour was always changing in swirls like the ocean. However all this didn't matter. She knew that she would never experience love, it just was not for her but she would do whatever it took to make sure someone did. This is where her story starts…

"Three more days, three more days until I can leave this dump three more days and I will be free." Ashlin was packing her cloths into a trunk. Three more days and she would leave for Hogwarts. This was going to be her first and last year at Hogwarts. Her previous school had been Beauxbatons. She had been going there for six years, but before she could start her last year she ran away from home. She just couldn't take it anymore it was just too much for her. Her blood obsessed parents, her siblings just lapping up all the crap their parents told them. She was done with that…she was done with them. The thought of them made her ball her hands into fists. This was Ashlin's number one problem her anger. Inherited from her father along with his pride. "calm down Ashlin."

Her life was pathetic but it wasn't always like that. It was better before her parents remarried when she was young, before the rise of Lord Voldemort, before their move to France. Ashlin had friends then real friends, friends who cared about her, friends she could tell secrets to. Her friends helped her through all the tough times with her parents they helped her through all the yelling and fighting and abuse they had been there for her. She was so grateful to them but when she moved they slowly grew apart, she still wrote to them but the letters grew distant just like their friendship.

When she left her parent house she decided that she was going to leave her old life away she was going to start a new life. She used her money to buy a flat in London, and in three days she was going to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. She new she would be safe there, but there was one problem James Potter. James had been Ashlin's childhood friend they were best friends, but they grew apart. They still owled each other frequently but they just didn't talk as they used to. She would help him with pranks he wanted to pull at Hogwarts and he would do the same with her but it just wasn't the same. She hadn't told him that she ran away, she didn't tell him that she was going to the same school he was attending. She new hat she would have to tell him before they got there but she just didn't know how.

"I'll send an owl later" Ashlin finally decided. "I'll owl him as soon as I get back from Diagon alley."Ashlin grabbed her purse and with a faint pop she apparated out of the flat.

The sky was blue and the sun was shining bright on the old but beautiful Victorian style Potter mansion. The sun shawn through the French windows causing a young messy haired teenage boy to open his eyes. This was a seventeen year old James Potter. He opened his eyes to see a blurry image before him. He reached over and grabbed his glasses of the night table. Once they were resting on his nose the room came to focus. The walls were painted Gryffondor red. They were covered with various posters, banners og quidditch teams. There were also photographs with their occupants moving about pinned to the wall. There were some of James' parents. His "brothers" as he liked to call them the marauders. And one framed photo on his night table with a photograph of the love of James' life Lily Evans. In the photo she was yelling at a sheepish looking James after he had pulled yet another prank. Her brilliant auburn hair was frizzing with her anger and her brilliant green eyes were a shade darker with anger. James grinned as his eyes landed on that picture. He loved it when she was angry it made her look especially hot when she was all fired up like that. James sighed as he thought about Lily and he laid back down.

He heard the sound of his family's house elf Gigi in the kitchen which was located just below his own bedroom. He knew that he would soon be able to smell her wonderful pancakes. Getting up James quickly grabbed a clean set of clothes from his closet and ran into his bathroom attached to his room.

Ten minutes later James appeared in the kitchen and sat down on the dining table next to his father who was drinking coffee and reading the days issue of The Prophet. His father was a tall man. He had brown hair that was short and slightly messy. He had blue eyes that were covered behind a pair of glasses. To many he looked intimidating but he was an auror so that was just a plus. Across from him was James' mother who was looking over a file while drinking a glass of orange juice. Unlike James father she didn't look the least bit intimidating. She had a heart shaped face that was framed by long raven hair. She had a loving smile and had playful hazel eyes. She too was an auror together her and her husband were the best Auror's in the ministry. James felt proud to call them his parents but that didn't stop him from worrying about them when they left for work. Especially now in these dark times.

Just as Gigi laid down a pile of pancakes in front of James and another plate in the empty chair beside James mother a young Sirius Black appeared out of no where and began stuffing his face with the pancakes. James heard his father let out a chuckle. "Morning Padfoot."

Sirius looked up and was about to say something but his mouth to full to replay. So instead he just nodded in James direction. James picked up his fork and also began wolfing down his pancakes. Mrs. Potter looked at her two sons (she considered Sirius as a second son) and shook her head. "You two are one day going to choke on your food and die." Even though she meant to be serious the twinkle in her eye gave it away and the two boys just smiled and said "yes mom."

"Oh look at the time Abby we had better apparate now or we're going to be late," Mr. Potter had just put his paper down after finishing his coffee. He said his good bye's to Sirius and James and thanked Gigi for the coffee. Mrs. Potter followed kissing both James and Sirius on the cheek.

"So Prongs what are we doing today? I personally believe that we should play a round of quidditch than go to Diagon Alley and get our school supplies seeing as our Hogwarts letters just came in yesterday. And you being head boy. You would set a very bad example for our fellow students not having your supplies," it was a big joke to Sirius since he found out a month ago that James had been made Head boy. At first he had been a bit hurt by it. He and James were best friends marauders to the end, rule breakers to the end. However he soon accepted it and thought it was absolutely hilarious.

James however didn't see it as funny. He took this responsibility very Serious. He knew that a certain red head would be his fellow head. He knew that this was his final chance to prove to her that he was responsible and not the Big headed Toe rag she had always thought he was.

"Prongs? Are you even listening to me?" Sirius asked with a worried look at his best friend who's eyes were glazed at the thought of him and Lily sharing the head dorm. "You're thinking about Evans aren't you?"

"YES! Only three days till we go back to school, I need to figure out a way to convince her that I'm the perfect guy for her. She needs to know that we are meant to be that I love her. She needs to know that I'm not the arrogant, prankster that I was two years ago. I tried to change last year really I did. I mean I saved Snape didn't I ?" Sirius looked down into his plate when James mentioned as he referred to it as "the mistake". the day he betrayed Remus and almost had Snape killed. Remus forgave him he still felt very bad about it. However James didn't notice his friend looking intently into his empty plate. He just continued on with his rant. " I'm really going to change this year. She is going to really see that I changed. She will go out with me this year.

"Prongs you say this every year."

"But this time I mean it Padfoot."

"Okay if you say so. How about you think about that later though. Let's go to Daigon Alley we still haven't gotten all of out school supplies."

"Wow I never thought I'd hear those words out of you mouth," James said with a lightly concerned expression on his face.

"Getting school supplies isn't my only reason to go there," Sirius said with a smirk and wink in James direction.

"Ahhh. So this is about girls." James laughed some things would never change. Sirius would always chase girls. Well more like girls chasing Sirius. James laughed at that as Sirius grinned and ran upstairs to get ready as he was still in his pyjamas.

At Hogwarts girls chased around all the marauders well except Peter. They loved Sirius's rugged good looks. They loved him he was a rebel, dangerous, a player but the loved him anyways. They chased around Remus James' other good friend because they thought he looked extremely hot with the scars that covered his face and body. He never dated which made him appear mysterious and he was also sweet and sensitive and apparently that turned them on. However if they found out his secret of where he goes once a month they might not find his so sensitive and sweet anymore. James was what he thought (even thought Sirius argued) Hogwarts 1 Hottie. Girls loved his. He was handsome, funny, charming, and athletic. What more could girls want? He was the number one prankster and was quidditch captain since his 5th year. Yep life was good and once he won over Lily life would be perfect. James grinned as went to find a pair of shoes so he could apparate to Diagon Alley.

The sun shone through the windows and onto Lily's bed. "It's unfair"thought Lily. It was unfair that the sun looked so happy while Lily felt so miserable. Lily had just come to the realization that summer was almost over and that she was to go back to Hogwarts in three days. Lily used to count down the days until she would leave but now she dreaded going back to the magical world.

Lily was perfect, she had perfect friends, the perfect family, and she had perfect grades. She was beautiful and popular. What more could anyone ever want? A lot more thought Lily. Lily wanted real friends, friends who cared about her. Lily wanted a family that understood her not a family that just smiled and nodded, because they didn't understand what she was going through. All this hadn't bothered Lily before because before she had Severus, but now even Severus wouldn'ttalk to her anymore.

The sun shone brighter like it was mocking Lily and her depression. Lily pulled the covers over her head. As she did the Daily Profit fell from the edge of her bed onto the floor. The cover showed a picture of the Dark Mark, the symbol that Lily feared most. There had been another killing. Lord Voldemort was another reason Lily didn't want to go back. She was scared and Lily didn't know how to deal with that feeling. The one thing that Lily never was, was scared.

But now Lily was constantly scared. Scared for her friends, scared for her parents, scared for her sister, scared about being alone and unloved, scared about her future and scared about death.

"LILY! WAKE UP. YOU NEED TO GET YOU SCHOOL SUPPLIES TODAY!"

At the sound of her mothers voice Lily groaned and slowly got out bed and walked to the bathroom. About one hour later Lily walked down the stairs, fully dressed in a causal tank top and jeans.

"Good Afternoon Mrs. Evans." Lily heard the voice of Petunia's boyfriend Vernon Dursley. Vernon Dursley, Lily always considered him a joke, when Petunia first started dating him. But her sister, and him had been dating for the past two years. It started out funny but now he was just getting to be increasingly annoying. Wanting to be spared from an encounter with him Lily cut through her kitchen and took the back door out to her backyard. At least there was one thing good about going back thought Lily. She and just met with her old childhood friend Ashlin Devereux. Lily smiled as she thought about it. Yes she was going to Hogwarts where she would be in constant fear but at least she would have a friend. For the first time since the summer began Lily actually laughed. A real laugh not a hollow fake laugh. A laugh that brightened the petite girls heart. She took a breath and apparated to Diagon

Alley with a faint pop!

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