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Tears have not yet stained my face despite the suffering and pain
I, an orphan, have never cried in anguish or despair or hate
And yet the four true humans who fight this war have cried in vain
I must wonder if tears and screams shall be somewhere in my fate
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I'm one of you now; I've fought a battle that separated me from what I was
And nothing really changes the fact that I have killed (though it had to be done)
For I trusted and was betrayed and I now wonder if you I can trust
Or if my hopes will crash and fall and down my cheeks tears soon shall run
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Is this what I wanted for my life? Was I a crazed fool to accept
The commission with which I am charged, to fight beside you all?
Have I fallen into a cage in which I'll leave my life -- is that where I have leapt?
I am sure that the tears I never cried will one day fall
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And when they do I understand that I shall no longer be so strong
For the absence of tears is all that has kept me from falling off my walls
And kept me alive beneath the hurt and pain so long
The walls alone hide the child beneath the form so straight and tall
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Do I deceive you with the smile that I can don at any second?
Do I convince you that I'm just a normal girl?
My life is a remembrance of a plane that fell and wrecked it
Wrecked my life and threw my dreams into another world
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I've never cried and that is why beneath my mask you'll never know the inward tears
But once they have escaped you'll see what I've endured throughout the years
I'll just be a normal girl, weak and cold and full of fears
My spirit broken and bowed down and maybe even tamed -- all through my tears