Pairing: Nick Carter / Jc Chasez
Rating: NC17
Summary: Nick makes one too many mistakes and now Jc struggels to leave him.
AN: My first time writing this pairing so please leave a comment if you can.
Fandom: Pop slash!
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Nick stares out the window waiting for Jc to call knowing deep down that He wouldn't, Nick had did too many bad things, He took it overboard, Too far and he knew it, He knew he messed up,
made another mistake but by that time Jc was standing in the door way, Tears already welling up in his tired eyes "How could you, I can't believe I trusted you, What happened to it never happening again" Jc asks before storming out the room, Nick jumps up off the dirty floor grabbing his jeans and rushes outside after him "J wait...." Jc stops and spins around on his heels, Running up onto Nick "WHAT!" Jc yells before turning and walking away down the road. Nick stood stunned, Unsure of who this person was that was standing in his footsteps, How did he get to this place, He would cause this much pain to the one person he'd never want to bring pain to?, How did he get like this... He couldn't understand....
It was already too late Nick knew, He know knew, For Jc would be angry and outraged, crying, throwing wild fists that would make contact with Nick's chest each time he found Nick in this similar sitution and go days without talking, Touching nick but he had never once ever! walked away from Nick's embrace, This was different from all those other times, It was one too many for Jc and Nick's realization of that fact kicked in when he watched Jc walk away.
Too late for another "I'm sorry" It was over. I'm sorry was not gonna be able to wash away the pain, Not this time...
Jc stumbles down the road, Tears streaming down his numb face, Stinging his eyes, his heart couldn't take no more, It was bursting, Bits and pieces falling one by one leaving a trial from Nick's feet to where he now stood.
Nick chases after him "J please, I'm sorry" He begs
Jc turns slowly around looking into Nick's sobering gaze "It's too late, I'm through with it,...... I can't.... Nick.." Jc shakes his head and stares at the ground feeling his heart spill out right there where he stood, His blood draining every few seconds, filling up a pool of red liquid by his feet, He was diying not really but It sure felt like it, what he knew he was about to say was gonna do it, Was gonna kill him but he couldn't take it anymore, He couldn't take another "sorry, It's never gonna happen again" and for awhile it wouldn't but never well that was just a lie, Nick was a person who didn't know what keeping it in the pants meant and he wasn't gonna stand it anymore, He wasn't gonna stand and just let Nick tear out every bit of heart he has left in his body, In his soul.
"I can't do this anymore Nick I'm sorry but I'm .............. Jc takes a sharp breath still staring at the ground for he knew if he catches a glimpse of Nick's beautiful blue eyes then he wouldn't beable to say what he needed to speak out about.
"I'm gonna move out, I've got a friend I can stay with until I get my own place"
"no! I'm sorry really you gotta forgive me, I can't live without you J, I'll die if you leave me" Nick pleads Tears now falling from his eyes aswell.
Jc kicks the dirt "You've promised me time and time again that it wouldn't happen ever again and each time I find you in the arms of yet another person who isn't me, And just like a broken record you say the same thing " It won't happen again" AND each time I fall for it, I'm not gonna let myself fall for it again not this time, I've fell for it too many times, ....... I've fell for it just like you've fell for your mistakes, over and over again and this time it stops, Your not charming me to stay anymore, It ends, You and I...... Ends"
Jc cries out his heart wrenching from the pain, seeing the tears falling from Nick's baby blues.
"I've gotta go, I can't stay here" Jc says as he gets one last look at the love of his life, for the past 3 years the only man that was of importance to him.
"I'll have to change my ringtone if you leave" Nick whispers...
Jc shakes his head trying not to run backwards to Nick diving into his arms and kissing him up and down for the stupid sentiment
"I've gotta go really, Please stop talking so I can leave" Jc begs
"I won't stop, I'll talk forever if it means your stay!"
" I can't, I won't, You hear! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S LIKE TO FIND THE ONE PERSON YOU LOVE MORE THEN LIFE ITSELF LAYING IN BED, IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE ELSE, SWEAT POURING FROM OFF THIER BODY'S, YOU KNOWING THEY JUST SHARED THEMSELVES TO EACH OTHER, Do you" Jc asks as he stares into Nick.
Nick shakes his head ashamed and angry.
Angry at himself for every stupid thing he did and all the things he should have but didn't do...
Like I should have quit hurting you along time ago Thinks Nick, Jc's eyes still fixated on mine.
" Do you have any idea what it's like to find you in bed with someone, Or on a dirty bathroom floor..........., You know sometimes I was afraid to make love to you expecting that maybe you had caught something and just didn't know it..... It broke my heart each time I found you in the arms of someone else, You just have no idea"
Nick gets down on his knees scooting closer to Jc's feet, He looks up and sobs back his tears.
" I've got a problem and I swear If you stay I'll try my damnest to get help, I won't ever make this mistake again just give me a seond change please!... I'm so sorry" Nick sobs his head falling ontop of Jc's shoes.
Jc stands and watches Nick break down his crying becoming more manic. Never once did Nick ever show this vurnable side of him, Every other time Nick was just smooth calm maybe a few tears if need be but nothing like this, Nick was really breaking down over this and it kinda made Jc struggle with his descion to leave, He just wanted to wrap Nick up in his arms and hush him to peaceful shores but that would just be getting dragged back into what he so wants to free himself of.
He loved Nick and He'd wish he could believe him when He said he'd get help but he had fallen for that many times before with the It'll never happen again speech and It would kill him for sure if he stayed and it happened all over again just like all the other times, He had to break from this and if it meant breaking the tides that he has with Nick for the only way to change him well then so be it, Atleast then Nick will be better toward his next love, Better then he was with me, If it means to break both thier hearts shatter what little was left then that's what has to happen.
"I've giving you your second chance already Nick.... I'm sorry but I really have to go, Please let go" Jc asks calmly.
Nick cries and lets loose of his hold " Please give me a third chance, A 4th, 5th, sixth! Please just one more chance I'm begging, Pleading with you, I'm on my knees for god sake!" Nick yells
" I'm sorry, I've giving you as many chances as I'm willing to give, I can't bare for my heart to be broken again with your ... Well your mistakes"
Jc turns and rushes up the road a bit, The rain was now pouring down soaking each's clothes, Jc flags a car down and stares back one last time at Nick letting one last tear fall from his cheek before climbing in and driving off leaving Nick alone his head deep in the dirt, his hands grabbing franticly at the ground, His loud and painful yelling being heard through out the night...
" Please COME BACK, COMEBACK PLEASE COME BACK J!, DON'T leave me please don't leave...... They meant nothing to me, It was always only you that ........ held my heart"
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